Hi, I write whatever shit I feel here because I fucking hate my new therapist, but I don't want to get banned again. If you have a problem, get the fuck out of here and stop being so nosy Uhh. No TW. Also ts is messy affff idgafff


17/11 - I think I finally have to accept that I have trauma related to my ex-situation because wdym my body starts to feel sick and I feel like throwing up just from seeing an old screenshot. I think I've finally gotten rid of all the evidence... I just wanted to find some fan art I made, damn it. Sometimes I'm afraid my girlfriend will think badly of me for thinking about this situation and still having some remnants of episodes because of it. But thanks to her I'm here, she's everything to me, although if I could, I'd crawl at her feet, begging her to swear she'd never make me feel like that, that she never leaves me or changes me, uhhh, I promised I'd never change for anyone again...but if she asked me to, I'd change even the deepest part of me for her...msmsmms, ngl , maybe I am a little obsessive, but at least I know she wouldn't abandon me. She'd support me through everything, she'd never make me feel bad for being human. Or well, sometimes I wonder how human I really am... but she sees the good in me, I mustn't disappoint her... even so!!! No way I'd tell her this, no way, I'm almost at my one-month anniversary with her...im so fucking weird msmssmsm i think i liek pierrot bc i kinda kin him oh YEA i got a new fixation, Pierrot, nt tellign from where bcus im gatekepinf hell yea im so intoxicated i want her to hold me alr to kis me idc i wanna marry her so bad shes my EVERRYYYYTHINFF OhHEHEHEH im so friggin fixated on swissuru rn i want them to adopt me hmmmmmm i think i will redo the fanart,,

20/11-SOOOO, WIFEYS ANNIVERSARY ONE MONTH!!! Feellling happey what bout dat, not feeling berry well emotionally but at the same time, yea, also if i hab an error here dont correct me i have 0% respect to ts fucking language sybau ALSOOO im not eating a lot, im smoking more and drinking mor VODDKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ANNYYYWAYSSS...... i dont think im feeling verryyyyy bad im jusr not feeling very motivated umm but not for smth bad im having a decent life rn but yeah deprezion doestz just go it stays and u manag w it sossooso uhhhn normal ig also im missing som meds maybe its tat ANYWAYYSYSYAYAYYA IM FEELING BETTER NOW LIFE IS GOOOD DANGG I SRS MEAN IT, im healing guys, yeah, maybe tat thing the smoking and vodka thingie not notmal but iiidgafff as long im being happy i will consider that im healing. Also im trying new styles, i REALLLYYYY WANNA BE JIRAIIIII, but gotta get sum moneyy firsttsss.... One good thing of latin america is that ur not js spoiled, u win ya money even tho ur a minor, These last few weeks I've been saving the money my dad gives me for school. And I'll start walking pets soon...it'll be so easy. Besides, classes are almost over, life is good, I'm finally getting the break I deserve.

20/11 - Girl stfu nobody wants u and nobody cares bout u here, js because I used Japanese words doesn't mean I'm copying youu It's not all about you. Shut up already, damn itttt you're driving me crazyyyy also stop stalking meh i literally find out that u talk shi about me because of one of your moots, friend, or I don't know what the hell it is, u think all of ur friends are helping rn but bad luck u have a rat now!! And it's not even from my side, because apparently they known you for a while. but leave me alonnn girlll nobody wants u here trust me and dont act like my gf is a copycat bc she likes Japan since 2019 and trust me 70-90% of history likers like WW1/WW2, and lolita is very common dawg shes more into morikei and heisei retro anyways and stfu she was never mentioned in ur shit, Don't lower her to your level either, that's disrespectful 😂😂 Shes way better than u girl pls already mind ur own business nobody cares about u and u look pathetic having a one sided beef bc im not giving a fuck im laughing w her w ur shit girlll😂😂 Js bc i slightly mentioned u in a vent doesnt mean i still want u girll it means im getting over it bc i found someone WAYYY better, and i know her before i know u soooo sybauuu lil bro has her friends checking on me and making a whole rentry for talking about me while im happy w ma wife😂😂 i wonder whos the obsessed one lmfaooo 😂😂 And by the way, I won't talk about this anymore, so I hope this has satisfied your need for attention!

ALSO GUYS, look at the drawings we made for wifey anniversary hheheheheheh
Ts one was made by awesome me, Rai, but the colors by Kiki
Owww owww Herman
STUPID Alej

23/11- ouaAAAA ONLY ONE WEEK LEFT TO LEAVE FUCKING SCHOOLLL HELL YAHHH!!! im tryna spread swissuru hehe-.... also i had the best anniversfay wa ma girlfrienf she the nBESSTTTTT SHE MADE A LOVEMAIL FOR ME I LITERALLY CRIEDDDDD BRUV I NEVER CRYYYY DAMMIT I LOVE HER SOOOO MUCHJJJJJ also got emabarsed don not ask me if i gawt freakasoid thoughts im literally hyper wha do yo expect. AMNYWAYS IM DOING THE BESTTTTT im da best version of myself rn and i can smell who is hating it haaaa also hi stalkers!!!!! anyways!!! SPREAD SWISSURU!! Lately, I've been losing interest in my yumeship... I'm more interested in SwissUru, tbh, and I'd like to make it famous somehow. And I will!! You bet!!! Even so, I LOVE Switzerland, my beloved! But my girlfriend has simply made me stop thinking of him as a real boyfriend. I'm not a riako anymore, I'm a yumeshipper. Well, it's not like my girlfriend said, "Oh, stop being a riako," no, it's just that I love her so much that I can't think of anything else...smsmsmsm anyvay got the best anyfesary gawt berry cute time w ma gf and made my ex stfu berry proud my head was hurting alredy I LLOVEEEE MY GIRLFRIEND DUDDDD MAWAMWAMWMA IF UR WATCHING THIS PLEASE KISS ME HOLD ME CONSUME ME IDC MANNNN I WANNA MEET W HER IRL SO BAD I SPEND 99% OF MY DAY DAYDREAMING ABOUT THAT, AND YK WHAT ITS KINDA POSSIBLLE BC HER MOTHER KNOWS ABUT IT AND SHE WILL BE A BERRY GOOD MOTHER IN LAW IF TEHY COME TO URUGUAY!!!

27/11- MY AWESOME WIFE IS COMING TO URUGUAY!!!!!!!!! BEST MOTHER IN LAW BRAHHHH I LOVE HER BUT MOSTLY HER DAUGHTER HIII HIII WIFEEEE IM KICKING FEET RN I WILL BE ABLE TO HOLD HER AND KISS HER MWAMWMA I HOPE SHE GETS ALL HER THINGIES READY AND I WILL PERSONALLY KISS HER AND HUG HER SO BAD UNTIL SHE CANNOT BREATHE!!! YALL ENVY ME!!!! ALSO WIFE SAID IF I WAS A WIFI I WOULD BE WIFEFI. WIFEFI 🥹🥹 Im a wifefi 🥹 I LUB MY SILLEY GIRLFIE SHES GONNA BE MY WIFE WHEN WE GET OLDER AND THE MOTHER OF MA CHILDS!! AAAAMMMM, i drew morikei japan... for her btw, i will post it tomorrow, i lowkey pawt a lawt of effawrt (ok ill stawp) and it has a lot of mini details that not everyone will see, but she will because she truly cares<3 (she alredy saw it and noticed sooo) anyvay. Today my psychologist gave my father feedback... they gave me a 3-month extension with the specialized team, but really, it's only because I haven't been able to open up much about THAT specific issue... but she says I'm much better, and that I've accomplished a lot. I still need to improve talking about my emotions (something I'm actually improving with my girlfriend) and be more social... I don't think not being very social will affect me, since I see it as normal and it doesn't bother me... I owe a lot of this to my beloved wife; without her, I couldn't do it alone. <33

7/12 - DAMMNNNN I FORGOT TO UPDATE THIS!! Okay, I’ll make a quick summary. I passed the school year without any subjects going to exams, which is normal for me since I’ve never had to do that. But considering I skipped around two months in total + the month I was hospitalized… wow.
I also started classes in a bad state, I wasn’t okay… and mid-year was even worse, but now I’m doing really well, hehe. I’m starting to genuinely love myself more, not just the protective narcissistic shell. Maybe it’s time to listen to the people close to me and my former teachers (from dance and singing) and actually start something more.. professional?? They say im very good but my old insecurifssdj idk how to speell wer making me say no, but now idrgaf.... One day I’ll be like Daniela, Te Amo Latina Mami, mwa, I swear. ALSO THEY GAVE ME PERMANENT LENSES, meaning I cant js wear glasses only when I feel like it anymore… damn. What else? Oh, right, I’m buying a Kusuriuri plushie yeehaw my man!!
I’m kinda lazy with explanations because at the end of the year I’ll say everything I feel I’ve achieved… this feels refreshing!!

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