LOVEMAIL FOR MY DEAR GIRLFRIEND!! !!


This is us btw, i love you girlfriend we are swisspan trsut trust me

13/10/25


OMG HI WIFEY!! I LOVE U SO MUCH, im gonna put all myemotions here so don be scared okay...
ANYWAY!! My darling, I love you so much. I always tell you and repeat it, and maybe it's annoying, but I want you to know that there is someone who loves you with all their heart, who always thinks of you from the moment they open their eyes in the morning until they close them at night. These few days have been horrible, but talking to you just makes me feel like everything I'm missing doesn't exist, like you fill my constant emptiness. I wish I had trusted you sooner. I was very closed off and defensive. I was scared, but you're the best thing that's ever happened to me. I can't stand the fact that you feel bad about yourself, or that your emotions are bad, that you're depressed. If you saw yourself with the eyes I see you with, you'd even love yourself. I love talking to you about anything and everything, playing silly games, and even dreaming about our future. I hope one day I can hug you until I run out of breath, curl up next to you, and let you stroke my hair until I fall asleep. It's a shame those 11,976 km separate us...the world knew we'd be so good together!! I love you SO MUCH, darling, I can't wait to talk to you tomorrow. I want to feel the warmth of talking and playing together again. Maybe tomorrow we'll play too. I don't like playing with people... well, I'm not even used to having someone close to me, but you're different. That instant connection we had, we won't have with anyone. I love you again. How many times do I say I love you? BUT WELL, we're Swisspan, believe me. I hope one day we go out dressed in J fashion and go to Japan together for a few years, or just live there. If not, we'll go anywhere. As long as I'm by your side, it doesn't matter where. OH, YOU KNOW WHAT?? I'm going to start learning Polish.


15/10/25


HELLO MY BEAUTIFUL!! Today I was so happy playing with you, even though we kept leaving games and going to others, it was fun being with you. Maybe I seem annoyiiIIIng with two-person hobbies, but I LOVE playing things where we have to constantly be doing something together. I hope one day we can play on a call, but I understand your shyness and I will wait as long as it takes to hear your voice, it's worth it. It's worth waiting for everything you're ashamed of now, you're not a waste of time, and if one day we're no longer together, let me tell you that you will have marked my adolescence, despite not knowing each other for long, I never felt this instant connection before. To the point that even our silences speak a thousand words, and my head resonates thinking of you every time we don't talk, I'm proud to be your best friend, your wife, whatever, I'm excited that one day, I'll be able to hold you in my arms and never let go, it's my greatest wish. Every time I'm in class, I just imagine how great it would be to be by your side always, talking, playing, studying, obviously, and, oh, something essential, criticizing people because SHIT we hate people. I'd even give you some of my pins. You're my soulmate. I don't really care about any flaws you claim to have, I just see them as another quality of my beloved girl, just like your beautiful eyes. Btw i wanna talk to u tomorrow, or well, always, BUT TOMORROW WELL HAVE ALL THE DAY TO PLAY!!! YAYYAAAA, IM SO HAPPYAYAYAY, ill try to find some games... kesesese I LOVE YOU MY PRETTY JAPANESE LOVER GIRL MWAH MWAH >//.//<


19/10/25


Hi my dear wife, this comes from all of us even Herman that man doesnt love anybody so be GRATEFUL/j, anyways i decided to write this more seriously, yeh your biggest fear serious Sylver 😒, anyways, I love you so much, darling, you are the most important thing I have, even if I abandoned you, I could never stop thinking about you, sorry if I distrust your love, no, actually I don't, I know what you are and what you are capable of, it's just that we are all a couple of traumatized useless people/hj, I know you would never hurt me, I know you would always be here with me no matter what, even if I'm hard (NOT FREAKY OKAI), if I'm soft or if I'm normal, you will still be here, if I'm completely drained, you would never complain to hear me vent for hours, even if you're busy, I know you admire and love me, I don't doubt it, I don't deserve it, but I appreciate it. I would like to go to Poland right now to kiss you and hug you, not leave your arms. Like in my dream. Oh, I swear, I loved that dream, I hope that someday it will come true soon.. something curious is that we were both dressed in J Fashion!! so yes my mind knows exactly what I want it's you i love you so much my darling my heart melts just thinking about you and every single message i swear even though these days have been tough i could never have a bad opinion of you i forgot what it was like to be loved genuinely who truly loves finds ways not excuses i wanna kiss you so hard and cuddle with you until i fall asleep let you stroke my hair even though i HATE it being touched i look forward to talking and playing with you a lot these days im sorry if i come across as harsh sometimes i just want the best for you even if it hurts i know how it feels i wanna protect you i wouldn't want to hear anything bad happening to you i just wanna escape with you to i don't know the swiss alps just the two of us alone with no one to bother us i would be in your arms 24/7,I might not even eat to be snuggled in your arms, I don't want to be weak, but I love you too much not to be. I luv ya, my sweet wife, i hope when u wake up, see this, im not gonna tell ya i actualized this tho... tehehe


27/10/25


HI MY LOVE!! today was such a beautiful day, honestly. talking to you so much just filled my heart completely, like every second with you reminds me why I love you so much. you always make even the smallest moments feel special. I kept smiling after every little joke, every time you said something silly or sweet. you make me feel alive, real, and loved. I love how we can talk about anything, play, laugh, say silley things, and still have that calm feeling that everything’s okay as long as we’re together. there’s no one else I’d rather share my time with. you’re my favorite person to exist, my comfort, my peace, my everything, my love. Sometimes, because of my past, my PTSD kicks in and I start feeling like I’m a burden.. like I don’t deserve love, like I’m just too much. But then I see you… how you’re still there for me even when you have your own problems, how you let me rest my head on your shoulder and just be. In those moments, I forget all that pain, and I remember that I’m safe, that I’m loved, that you chose me. I wish I could hug you right now, after the day we had, just to keep that warmth going, to hold you close and whisper that you’re the best part of my life. I don’t even need fancy words brah just you being here is enough for me. today, no, everydar reminds me that no matter how far we are, we’re still connected, heart to heart. I love you, my sweet wife, my partner, my person. thank you for being you, for staying, for making everything better just by existing. sleep well tonight, okay? you deserve to rest knowing you’re deeply loved. And sometimes I think… my December 2024 self, the one who cried every night, who couldn’t breathe without feeling the weight of everything, who thought no one would ever stay , would cry if he saw us now. he’d never believe we’d find someone who understands, someone who loves without taking, someone who holds space for all the broken pieces instead of running away from them. he’d look at me now and finally see light where there used to be only emptiness. he’d see you.
And he’d realize that love doesn’t have to hurt to be real, it can heal, it can rebuild, it can make you want to live again. It can make you feel alive. I hope you're listening to the playlist I made for you okab. Sorrey for getting serious overtherokab. bye. hmmph.


31/10/25


HELLO MY LOVE... HAPPY HALLOWEEN MWA MWA, I didn’t talk to you much today and honestly… I missed you more than I thought I would. It was one of those weird days where time passes but it feels like something’s missing, yk? You were out asking for candies (which is so cute btw, I can imagine your little smile jsakNDHICI kikinf feetz), and when you were finally free, I was already gone. I don’t know, it’s funny how sometimes we keep missing each other like that. It’s not anyone’s fault, but it makes me wish I could teleport or something just to be near you for a while.
Still, I thought of you the whole time. Even when everything around me felt kind of empty, you were the one thing that made me feel real. I don’t need us to talk all day to know you’re there, you always are, in my head, in my chest, in the little moments that suddenly feel softer when I remember your texts. I know you haven’t been feeling too good lately… and I wish I could just hold you right now, no words, no explanations, just me next to you, listening to your breathing until it slows down. I don’t want you to feel like you have to be strong every second. You don’t. You’ve been carrying a lot, I can tell, and even if I can’t fix everything, I want to be the person that makes it a little lighter. You deserve calm, you deserve warmth, and you deserve love. Even if you feel like everything’s falling apart, please remember that I still see you the same way. You’re not broken, you’re not a burden. You’re my favorite person in the whole damn world. I admire how you keep going, even when you’re tired. I admire how you still manage to smile, even when you feel heavy inside. That’s strength. That’s beauty. That’s you. And maybe today we didn’t talk much, maybe we didn’t have our usual silines or jokes or "random gaming" moments, but it’s okay. Some days we don’t need noise, we just need to exist knowing the other person’s still there. And I’m here. Always. I hope you got some candies you like. I hope you laughed at least once. I hope you got home safe and warm. And if not, then I’ll make up for it tomorrow, or the next day, or whenever you need me. I’ll be waiting with open arms and too many “I love you”s because, yeah, I’ll never stop saying it. So sleep tight, my darling. You’re still my comfort, my home, my little spark in all this SHITGHHH. My everything. I love you. also notice how now is "girlfriend" and not bestfriend


4/11/25


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE!!

OMG HI WIFEY. HI MY DARLING. HI MY ENTIRE WORLD. IT’S FINALLY YOUR DAY OMGGGG AAAAAAA I’M GONNA CRY ALREADY 😭😭💞 I swear I’ve been thinking about what to write here for DAYS, like I’d be in class staring at my notebook like “bro what the hell do I even say to someone who’s literally everything to me???” because no words ever feel enough. no words could ever really explain what you mean to me. You know, since the first time we talked, I felt something I had never felt before. Like that weird “oh shit this person is gonna be important” vibe. IDK WHY THO MAYBE EHHH IDK MAN. And I was right. You became my favorite person, my comfort, my safest place, my other half. I don’t even know how we managed to become this close, but god I’m so thankful we did. You don’t understand how much I cherish every single message, every dumb inside joke, every time we talk until we forget about time itself. Sometimes I think about how unfair distance is, because I just wanna hug you so tight it’d fix everything. I’d hold you until all your sadness melts away, I’d let you rest your head on my chest and just breathe, no words needed. You’ve been feeling bad lately, I know that. And I wish I could do more than text, I wish I could just show up at your door with your favorite snacks, steal one just to make you mad for fun, and then hug you until you forget why you were sad. But still, even through all the screens and miles, I hope you feel it, the way I love you. The way I think about you constantly. Like… it’s crazy. I’ll hear a random song, see something w ur vibe, or even just a cloud shaped kinda weird, and instantly I’m like “oh that’s her.” You’ve got me wired into your frequency, fr. You’re the kind of person who makes the world feel a little softer. I know you don’t always see yourself like that, and you struggle with it, but please, believe me when I say you’re worth so much. You’re brilliant, beautiful, funny, stubborn, chaotic LMFAO ok tomorrow, but in the most adorable way possible. You make me wanna be better, not because you ask me to, but because you deserve someone who tries their best. I love when we talk about the dumbest things ever like it’s serious business 💀 like, why do we sound like two tired married people sometimes?? BECOS WHE ARE OYAAA Or when we rant about stuff we hate and then suddenly go “ANYWAY I LOVE U” mid-rant, that’s so us. It’s insane how natural everything feels with you. I never had that before. I never had someone who made me feel safe being me, with all the mess and emotions and weird brain stuff. You never judged me. You stayed. And that’s everything. Honestly, I don’t even care what we do. I just wanna exist with you. Play dumb games, send weird ahh shit, talk at until we cant keep our eyes open, be in silence but somehow still feel like it’s enough. You’re my person. Like, I’m not even exaggerating, you’re it for me. And today… it’s YOUR DAY MWAMWAM I hope you smile today, even if just a little. You deserve the entire world, and if I could, I’d give it to you wrapped in ribbons. I hope you know that you’re loved, not just today, but every single day, in every possible way. You’re my favorite thought in the morning, my softest comfort at night. You’re home, even if I’ve never been near you. I love you with every piece of me, the lover, the insecure, lovely, the loud, the broken, the crazy, the calm. All of it belongs to you. You know, sometimes I look back at how everything started, how random it all seemed, and it still feels unreal that we found each other. You appeared in my life when I was exhausted, when I thought connections like this didn’t exist anymore. And yet here you are, my constant. My calm in EVERYTHING. My soft place in a world that keeps feeling too harsh. You’re patient, gentle, and real, and that realness is everything. You don’t pretend to be fine when you’re not, and I admire that more than you know. You’ve shown me that love doesn’t have to be grand gestures or perfect timing, sometimes it’s just showing up, every day, even when you’re tired. You do that. You show up for me. Even if lately you’ve been feeling bad, even if things have been heavy on your heart, I want you to know this, you deserve to be celebrated every single day, but especially today. You deserve warmth, softness, love that wraps around you and doesn’t let go. You deserve to smile, to feel safe, to know that there’s someone out there, me, who thinks about you from morning till night. It hurts when you talk down about yourself, because I wish you could see yourself with my eyes. You’re not a burden. You’re not too much. You’re not hard to love. You are gentle, funny, endlessly kind, even when you think you’re not. You’ve made my life lighter just by existing. When everything around me feels like it’s falling apart, your presence, even through a screen, feels like sunlight cutting through all the grey. Sigh...i cannot talk very good about my feelings and allat...but we love you. Every single. of us. We love you. Youre EVERYTHING. Even when u think ur nothing. ANYWAYS THO. MY BEAUTIFUL GIRL IS GROWING OLDER AND COOLER AND STILL BEING THE MOST PRECIOUS HUMAN ON EARTH OMG. i’m here grinning like an idiot while typing this bc i love you so much it’s insane. i wish i could just teleport to you rn. no joke, i’d show up with a dumb lil cake, balloons, maybe a plush or something you’d like, and just hold you. i’d let you rest your head on me and be like uhh idk all cuddly... i’d kiss your forehead like a thousand times and tell you you’re doing great, even if you don’t feel it. you’re trying. and that’s more than enough for me. sometimes i worry i’m not enough for you, that i talk too much, get too clingy, or too distant. but you still stay. you understand me in a way no one else ever did. it’s like our hearts just… speak the same weird language. you get my silence, my random jokes, my “idk i’m just weird today” moments, my “pls don’t leave” moodS uhh i hope ts doesnr sound cringey,,, you get me. if i could give you one thing today, it’d be peace. the kind of peace where you wake up and feel like the world isn’t against you. where you breathe and it doesn’t hurt. where you smile without forcing it. i want you to have that kind of happiness forever. you deserve love that doesn’t scare you. laughter that doesn’t fade when the screen turns off. hugs that don’t feel temporary. and i swear, even from thousands of kilometers away, i’m hugging you right now. i hope you can feel it. shush..

So yeah… HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY LOVE. I hope this year brings you more peace, more laughter, more nights where you feel okay being you. I’ll be here, always, cheering you on, loving you in every universe possible. <3


November 20th is coming 👀👀


20/11/25 <3


My love, Happy one month anniversary !!! <3 I know it has only been thirty days, but somehow it feels like I’ve been w you for so much longer, like you slipped into my life naturally, the way something meant to stay always does. But srs this month just...flew by omg. I cant actually believe its one month already.. When I look back at this month, I realize how much you’ve already changed me. You became the first notification I actually care about, the person I want to talk to when something happens, and the one I think of before I sleep. Every little conversation with you, whether we’re laughing, teasing each other, being dramatic, or having our serious thingies, has become part of my day in a way nothing else ever has. You don’t even realize it, but you’ve made everything feel lighter. Even on days when I overthink, get nervous, or feel like a mess, somehow just talking to you calms me down. You’re warm, comforting, funny, and chaotic in the exact same rhythm as me. And that’s why being with you feels so natural, we match, even in the stupid things, even in the random jokes lmfao. This month with you was full of small moments, but those moments meant everything.
From the songs we shared, the late-night talks, the cute things you said without even thinking, the times you asked me questions just because you wanted to tell me about your day, all of that became memories I genuinely treasure. I loved your excitement, your affection, the way you say things half-joking but you actually mean them, the way you care even when you pretend you don’t. And I love the version of me that comes out when I’m with you: more patient, more open, more myself. You make it easy to be real. I’m proud of us, of our first month, of the way we handled everything, of how close we’ve become. You make me feel chosen. You make me feel wanted. You make me feel like I matter. Thank you for every message, every tiny gesture, every moment you gave me this month. Thank you for trusting me, for letting me in, for being yourself with me. And thank you for letting me love you in my own way, even when it’s messy, dramatic, or too intense. I want more months with you, more conversations, more songs, more memories, more versions of “us.” If this is what month one feels like, I can’t imagine how beautiful month two, three, or four will be. I adore you, more than I say, more than you notice, more than you think. I still can’t believe it’s already been a month with you. And somehow it feels like both one minute and one lifetime at the same time. Being with you doesn’t feel like something that “started”, it feels like something that was always meant to happen and finally did. This entire month has been insane in the best way. And trust me, inside my head? Everyone has been talking about you.
“Can you tell her she makes us feel safe? Like actually safe?" And it’s true. You calm me down in a way I can’t explain.
I can be spiraling, overthinking, being dramatic for absolutely no reason, and then you say one simple thing and suddenly, boom, I’m grounded again. It’s wild. “SHE’S SO FREAKING CUTE IT MAKES ME MAD.” Don’t laugh, he’s serious.
He starts screaming internally every time you say something sweet or send something cute or idk. Hes alej. he stupid. “Tell her we actually like her. A lot. Even if we act like we don’t.” Okab u just talked w Herman, but yeh.
you got through even to the part of me that usually doesn’t let anyone in. “Write about the way she rewired the entire emotional architecture of our month.” Kiki. Hate kiki. But shes right. This month with you changed everything. Every little moment with you mattered. Every conversation, every joke, every “hey,” every random message you sent without thinking, it stayed with me. I caught myself waiting for your notifications. I caught myself smiling like an idiot. I caught myself missing you even when we’d just talked. You made my whole month feel brighter, softer, warmer. And you didn’t even try. You were just you. And that was enough.
I love the way you talk. I love the way you love me. I love the weird little jokes that only make sense to us. I love that we can be cute one second and chaotic the next. I love that even when we’re being unserious, the connection still feels real. I love EVERYTHING about you.
“Tell her she matters. A lot. Like, more than she realizes.” This letter is long because this month was full. Full of feelings, full of chaos, full of softness, full of tiny moments that stitched themselves into something bigger. And I want more months with you. More inside jokes. More playlists. More stupid conversations. More late-night thoughts. More “I miss you” moments. More everything.
I know myself, I don’t attach easily, I act cold sometimes, I get jealous, I get dramatic. I get too intense or too quiet. But still...you made me choose you. You made all of us choose you.
Thank you for this month, love. For staying. For caring. For talking. For laughing. For being you. We adore you, we couldnt had make it without you, youre our special one. Please, dont ever leave us, We love you so much, we trust you blindly. Is there something wrong with us? We'll change it. Is there something you don't like? We'll change it right away. Even though we promised we'd never change for anyone, here we are. Because we know who matters and who doesn't, and you matter. We'd do anything for you. We DONT wanna lose you. Youre our world. You fill us with so much happiness and make us feel so good and safe, that even Herman let his guard down, lmfao. But above all, yes, you heal us with every little word, which you might think means nothing to us, but for us, it's everything to keep going.<3 Happy one-month anniversary, my love. This is only the beginning, because hell nah ur not getting anywhere now. With all of us, All versions of me, All the chaos, All the softness,
Everything,
for you.

I CANT WRITE ANYMOR DUD IDK WHY You will be receiving the letters in messages until I fix this problem #ok

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