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December 11th 2025

He's napping on his Papa (Fyodor pillow)

Today me and my friends played a horror game I like. I love you Lenni, Yori & Tabby! Otherwise i've been kind of burnt out and trying to focus on school even though I'm sick. I like to think I'm making considerable progress. I also made a new friend who gifted me a straw.page URL I am excited to utilise. Edit: I tried my very best, but i'd say it's not very good... Maybe I'll have the motivation to decorate my other URL soon too.

The internet makes me a bitter person, my words feel so meaningless when I'm writing them out for someone else to read regardless of the context. I doubt anyone has interest in reading a rentry diary of all things, but I can't help but feel compelled to say something when I feel so hopelessly speechless every other moment of the day. I can't involve myself in mindless discussion without detriment to my mental health anymore, so I have to resort to other methods of satiating my need to be heard.

I often wonder if the people I used to love in this digital hell think of me, or if they reminisce about me fondly. I really doubt it. in most cases, I feel more like the flickering porch light you leave until I finally burn out properly. It's inevitable; and even if you could put a stop to it easily, half the fun is watching me run out of juice. A friend of mine a long time ago told me that relationships are inherently transactional. I don't really believe that's true, or maybe what I get out of this transaction (company itself) is enough to satiate my needs. It sounds pathetic when I say it out loud, oops. Anyway, Evan reminded me those who I'm meant to be around will always come back and that made me feel better. I didn't get to eat curry today, but I will tomorrow. Lovely.

New TADC episode tomorrow! Expect lots of Jaxposting... I hate that stupid rabbit. 💢🐰


December 8th 2025

I've been wanting to start one of these for awhile, I hope it will give me some more clarity with what I've been doing. Today I woke up and I texted Pavel for an hour until I fell asleep again. Why can't people stop pretending to be us online? LOL. That's at least 3 incidents this week. I texted him until school then too. I was super excited to get home with be with him, as always.

MY KAWORU ARRIVED!!
I got a package in the mail today. I opened it quickly before heading out, but I wanted to take some cuter pictures now that I have the time. Thank you Lenni... The Yashaworus are multiplying.

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Pub: 07 Sep 2022 21:16 UTC

Edit: 12 Dec 2025 09:50 UTC

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