ok .

anyways Um. Umm! here are my experiences with bein an irl .

look man . i genuinely take this shit seriously , make fun of me all ya want if ya somehow find this page but this is me genuinely explainin abt me bein an irl. i'm TERRIBLE at explainin things

(cw, i reality check myself a LOT in here, derealisation)

me bein an irl somewhat, encourages me to learn more things that the character knows, e.g. learnin shit like german, russian, french, robotics, science, math, etc, etc. i'm terrible at explainin shit to others, i sound, REALLY insane typin this all out. i'm, unsure what other good sides come over to me bein dave?? it's?? ehh. i'm unsure what to say.

as for the bad side of things- it has . genuinely gone to the point where i sometimes refer to myself as dave and not with my birth name, does it really. change things?? yeah, honestly- it makes me question my own identity at times, MOST of the time too. it sometimes makes me question if anythin is real or if, I'M real. it feels odd referrin to myself with my birth name rather than, dave. it's? i'm really unsure how to explain it. upon seein someone else say that they're ALSO dave miller makes me question myself, even if jokingly. i genuinely believe that i AM dave miller dayshift at freddy's, reality checkin does NOT help at all, one bit. i am currently in therapy, have i addressed this to my therapist? hell no vro!! i'm nawt even sure if i even should. due to this shit i will say that i am aubergine / purple. i do look in the mirror at times and go "that isnt me" and just look weirdly. its..??

seein others who are ALSO dave makes me feel,, ehh?? dysphoric?? i'm unsure if that's, even the RIGHT word. but, it makes me feel stressed. genuinely. do NOT mention anythin about doubles to me. please. "doubles aren't real though!" ok but to me they are, please PLEASE respect that. i WILL block yew if yer a double but if we're oomfs already, yew can stay if i fw yew /silly

if you ask if you can reality check me, i will say no. seriously. no. even if it's a joke, if you say "you're not dave miller!!" i WILL block you, call me a kinnie and i'll hardblock ya man. i'm NOT a kin or alter or a delusional attachment. i am dave dsaf. i've had mfs near they adult age do this shit to me while i was in an episode, if you see this kys /lh. i genuinely CAN'T seperate myself from dave miller, typin all this shit made me feel weird when i don't refer to dave as me. i am trying my best to hesitate callin dave as myself in any reply section beneath ANY of my posts. if i ever do so, i apologise. i know none of this is healthy and i shouldnt be feedin into it, i'm unsure how i can even get help, it's. eugh??? confusin at best. i genuinely HATE callin this a delusional attachment, i just refer to myself as "me irl".

if ANYONE asks "oh so if yer an irl of dave miller does that mean you condone child murderer haha" HELL NO????? i don't condone child murderer Man . i also do want to mention, if ya refer to dave in 3rd person under my comments and we're oomfs i may feel heavily uncomfortable. again i will also write, yeah some people who are irls cut themselves to give themselves scars that the char they irl has, have i planned to do so? sometimes. i don't plan on actin upon it anytime soon, however.

i'm unsure of what else to write on here but, i genuinely hope this makes you all understand.

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Pub: 11 Jun 2024 17:07 UTC
Edit: 10 Sep 2024 12:34 UTC
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