for my lovely girlfriend baby bell
𝓥anya x 𝓛ea
she / him
he / him
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february 19th 2024
you've made a bunch of cute rentries for us and it's about time i make one for you too. i love you vanya. i love you so so much. from the day we met i found you so captivating and interesting. you made me feel like i immediately became close to you; including me and teasing me, listening to what i have to say, and i'm so happy we only got closer since that moment. i feel so at home listening to you and being with you, talking with you about anything and everything. i don't feel judged by you and it makes me feel so safe and loved. i had no idea what love was supposed to be before i met you. often i'd fall into depressive episodes because i felt like i didn't really matter to anyone. but then... one day, after i had met you, i noticed you were feeling paranoid about a noise you were hearing out your window. i thought you were just being silly, as i was unaware of how cute you are like that, but i'm so glad my autistic ass noticed you were serious. i then comforted you and we became increasingly affectionate since. it's so adorable... it made me feel so needed that you were afraid that night. i knew i could be there for you. thank you for being so patient with me over all this time. it took me a while to learn how to feel safe in my own skin again after being used by sandra, and to allow myself to feel pleasure without it being tied in with feelings of nervousness. i'm so so happy you stuck with me all throughout that. i genuinely don't believe that i'd be out of that phase by now if i hadn't met you. i feel so much more confident with myself and all my needs are met. you're so fun to talk to and i love how silly you are. i love that you tell me about all of your passions and conflicts, and allow me to help you - even if you're being stubborn<3. i wholeheartedly would not be able to connect with anybody else the way that i've connected with you. so many shared interests!! and you're not a weird person! God, Did I Win? ...? Um ok . anyways KEEP READING

i really really want to keep helping you feel safe and loved throughout your life, just as you've done for me. i love being yours and i love that you are mine. i would never choose anybody else<3 my darling first choice~ i love youuu<33 UGH and when we call and you're able to talk Oh My God . YOUR . Your voice. :).. i go alpha mode when i hear your voice dude it's so fucking cute i wanna wrap you in a tortilla and eat you YOU'RE SO ADORABLEEE. thinking about your little baby hmph sounds helps me sleep at night i hope you know this. you're actually my angel btw just saying. i love how safe you've grown to feel with me<33 acting so cute towards me and nobody else~ YOU'RE ADORABLEE<33 all mine too<3 heheeheh my little babyyy<33 i can't wait for you to see this when you wake up . mmmwaa mwaaa kisses youu~ you're so sweet and funny you knoww i love how we have such a similar sense of humour and i don't have to feel embarrassed about myself to you. you're really so accepting and silly and it makes me feel so nice<333 Eats u<33 thank you for always listening to me when i rant or vent and always taking the time to console me. you always defend me and ground me and u make feel so special ehehehe,, KEEP READING<33

this is my reminder to you vanya that i fell in love with you because of how many interests we had in common. how you were unashamed to talk about your interests to me and it made me feel like you trusted me not to judge you. that made me happy and showed me how you want to talk to me about our interests with no judgement<33 over the time i knew you, i began to find out just how much more cute you could be, making me fall in love with you even more. along with this, i found out how bad you used to be treated... it made me want to help you<3 i wanted to show you how much love you deserve, and prove to you that people do genuinely love you for you, unconditionally. my love for you will never dissipate <3 (that means it won't die down, baby~). i know that you can have emotional outbursts, sometimes so severe that you're not sure of what you want or need. i know it can feel confusing for you, and it makes you doubt us. but vanya, no matter how often those surges of emotions may be, i will always comfort you and remind you of my love for you. i never ever want to let you go. ever <3. you're so so dear to me and my life has only gotten better once you came into it. i'm so much more confident, comfortable with myself, and happy. so, so much more happy. i remember even on the first day we met, i was giggling and smiling talking to you like i never have with anybody else. you're such a cutie pie and i love embarrassing and flustering you~ i love that you trust me enough to share your personal conflicts with me and let me help you through them. i will never ever judge you for anything you tell me, sweetie. i'm so happy we met<33 i can't believe how coincidental it was; i genuinely believe that the universe wanted us together. the universe made us both interested in death note at the same time, it made you stay up late randomly that one tuesday night, and it gave me the random confidence to follow you back to your group of friends. all of this is so coincidental and i'm so fucking glad it happened. you've brightened my life so so much, and everyday i am reminded of how lucky i am that we're together and i am grateful for how close we have become<3 sleep well my baby~ KEEP READINGG

hi again sweetheart<3 i love love love how passionate and sweet and trusting you are. something that really gets me about you is that you usually really hate sharing your favourite things with others, and i understand this feeling, but you exempt me from that boundary and you like to get me into things i would've never given a chance before. you include me and associate things with me that make me feel so fucking loved - especially when you're SO RIGHT about the association too. like ... girl are you psychic?? be honest. i love how you find difficulty trusting others and you dislike opening up too much with others, but for me you are comfortable expressing your feelings and sharing your fears. it makes me feel so special knowing i'm the only one you trust like that<3 i am always going to want to protect you and make you feel safer about the scary things in the world, even if they are exaggerated or imagined fears, they're still valid to me and i will do what i can to make sure you feel safe and loved<3 also like. isn't it so perfect that you need to know everything about your interests and i Do Not at all HELP. like?? we're literally meant for each other bc wdym you have that comfort in knowing that i won't try to outsmart you about your interests bc i hate going on social medias for fandoms and i literally don't watch/play shit unless you ask me to BYE. i swear i'm not a simp (am) but it's so silly how i want to follow your opinion on everything. like when i put mikado in the 'wtf' tier just because i know you don't like him BYE. we actually get along in so many aspects i'm so glad we found each other. you love to talk i love to listen, you love so many fandoms and i don't get into any (unless u drag me there <3), we even have so many character ships it's like . Marry me already? Thx!<3 i really really mean it when i say i wouldn't trade you for anyone else in the world. you're my first and only choice because of how much we get along and how lowkey perfect you are for me<3333 EEK eats u<333 you're so loving and accepting and passionate and auuugghgh,,<33 need u so bad u're too cute<3 MORE TO READD~

babwbab who's a little cutie pie~ it's u~ EEEEEEK YOU'RE ACTUALLY PRECIOUS I CAN'T GET OVER YOU<33333 i'm so so happy that you're so comfortable with me to the point you've better learnt how to communicate and do so with me<3 i know you used to struggle with putting your feelings into words and asking for things, so it makes me so damn happy knowing now you're able to better do both those things<3 YOU'VE MADE SO MUCH PROGRESS YOU SHOULD BE PROUD OF YOURSELFFF<3 it also makes me so happy that you're comfortable with calling me things / treating me in ways that a parent would be called/treated..<33.. it makes me feel like i really am a very comforting and trustworthy figure to you and i fucking love being so proud of you, treating you like the talented little girl that you are<3 my precious daughterrr AWWWW I'M SO PROOUDDD PICKS YOU UP AND SPINS YOU AROUND NUZZLING OUR NOSES<3333 I LOVE TEACHING YOU THINGS like how to read a clock, how to draw poses and hands, how to...hehe~ i think you know<3 i love helping you out, calming you down and grounding you, helping you think clearly<33.. just like how you do for me<33 also i need to mention. you're literally . my favourite person ever. i'm so fucking prone to being really angry with people to the point i hate talking to them, but whenever i'm feeling irritable...talking to you . fixes me. it relaxes me so much it's like i was never angry in the first place... i don't know how you do it; you're just so damn comforting to me that even sending you one message calms me down. you're so special to me for that<33.. my special baby<33 lala~ <3
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