Just give me time

I feel... light, I don't know where I am, I feel like I am floating... what was the last thing I did? I remember playing with my Pokemon, walking along the path, then night fell and we all were supposed to go to bed... but I don't remember going to sleep.

After who knows how long, my brain told me to open my eyes, and in front of me was my family's mansion, which surprised me, I have not been here since I have started my Pokemon journey.... oh yeah, I remember, I was supposed to come over here because something happened, I wonder what happened.

As I walked through the garden I remembered how before I just played around it, not worrying too much about the future or what I should be doing with my life, playing with Eevee or I was learning with the teacher my parents hired to homeschool me, As I got close to the building I opened the door, and it was pretty dark, if I didn't live here my whole life here I would be pretty lost, the switches weren't working either so I just walked around, trying to find my parents or one of the maids.

I felt like I walked a long time, the hallway just kept going and going, I should have gotten to the end by now... wait, where is the end? Its too dark, I can't even see the walls.

After I got tired of just walking through the hallway, I entered the first door I saw, coming across a mirror, and another, and another, and another. Everywhere I look, there are mirrors, but something is off about these mirrors, when I look at them, I don't see myself, or rather, I see myself but in other ways, in one mirror I have a labcoat, on another, I have boxer gear, in another I have an apron and seeds on my hand, every mirror had me, but that "me" is someone I didn't recognize.

I was trying to find my way out of this labyrinth, I felt suffocated by the view of myself, all these "me"s looking at me, all these posibilities... wait, they are all actually looking at me.

Every mirror started moving by itself, they were all looking at me, fixated on my movements, then, I saw one stepping out of the mirror.

I ran.

Every "me" started to come out of the mirror, I was focused on running but I could feel it, the pressure, they are all catching up to me, I could see the hands attempting to grab me, to hold me down, I was getting tired of running while avoiding every hand trying to hold me down, I was trying to avoid every possibility, thanks to Arceus I finally saw a door, I mustered the last strength I had and managed to get through the door, closing it behind me.

After a few seconds of getting my breath back, I looked around the room, my team was here, resting.

"Guys we need to get the fuck out of here, Something really wrong is going on... guys?"

My voice didn't seem to reach out to them, I walked towards Serperior, trying to get his attention, but when he saw me, he looked... disgusted, he started to slither away and before I could catch up to him, he disappeared.

One by one, I tried to reach out to all of them, but they all just looked at me and started to walk away, even my childhood friend Eevee just... left, why are they all against me?

"They are disappointed in you"

A voice came out of nowhere, I felt those words hit like a brick, while I tried to find the source of that voice I scanned the room until I saw a man, it was my dad... or was it? I don't know, when I looked at his face, my sight got messy, like he was filtered by static.

"They all saw how you behaved, how you acted, and they all saw someone that was utterly hopeless, a failure, Someone worthless."

Bullshit, everyone willingly came to me, Eevee loved me, Zubat liked me, not the fruits, Mimikyu was free to do whatever he pleased, Riolu saw something in me that made him accept me as his trainer, and even Snivy despite being a gift, I felt a strong bond with all of them.

"I know what you may think, so let me rephrase my statement, They all saw that you could be so much more... and yet here you are, worthless, with nothing to your name, and no achievements to speak of, they are disappointed in you"

Disappointed? Why? because I haven't chosen my future yet? Its not my fault that I feel scared of this choice, I need to think, I need to experience the world before I make my choice.

"Have you ever thought that maybe these are all lies you tell yourself? So you don't face the future?"

"Even if it is, there is nothing wrong with taking your time, you told me tha-"

I was cut off by my statement as my dad started to grab my neck, I was trying to fight it back but his grip was too strong, my sight was starting to fade...

"And like your Pokemon, I feel disappointed in you, I wish you were never my son, Someone so utterly spineless, useless and worthless like you doesn't deserve the title of Crowell."

I was trying to retort to my dad, I was fighting back, And yet... nothing happened. my sight was disappearing little by little, I felt like I was about to die...

"JUST GIVE ME TIME"

Then I woke up, I got up in a sudden motion from my sleeping bag, my Pokemon team was surrounding me with a startled expression, all eyes fixated on me, worried about me.

Oh, it was a nightmare.

"Sorry, must have been those berries that I ate before, probably shouldn't have eaten those."

After a few judging looks, everyone started going back to sleep, but they moved closer to me, as if they are trying to defend me....

I went back to sleep, the warmth of my Pokemon felt.. reassuring.

I have time, I don't need to worry yet, today has been a long day, just take a rest.

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Pub: 04 Nov 2025 05:00 UTC

Edit: 09 Nov 2025 17:05 UTC

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