5/11/25
started tearing up listening to fancy by twice while reading ch37 of kisses x kiss x kisses Can Kibi be bavk to NORMAL. Stupid angst bro the life of a fujoshi is a Joke. #dumbfujolife (this is the playlist i was listening to.)⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀me n luc⠀v

10/11/25
Nuthin fun has happened. Just that ive been studying like crazy for exams 💤
20/11/25
i have like 4 tests tomorrow and a project the next week And here i am reading Backlight while listening to Sanson Ki Mala Pe by Nusrat on newpipe 💭 This song reached my ears from my cousins ipad just as i got to the line "I never knew the word "love" could be so destructive." Seo-in i hate you but u are the realest fictional character for this
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28/11/25
my #seongtak obsession is getting so bad dont even joke about it lad. im thinking of getting a url for my kins hmmm. 🥄 Also i got a certificate for that project i talked about. 3 out of 5 members bailed out last day but me and my friend still made it ,,
29/11/25
im making that playlist I wonder if luc's ever gonna come across this url and find that im looking at the lyrics of every song and searching deep in my playlist for anything that reminds me of us because my liked songs playlist is lagging. Thats where all the love songs are.
I ranted to nik about one of my deepest worries #️⃣TheOtherDay. Why do i have to relate to the worst characters from the worst medias. Damn these problematic people for creating medias that play out my obsession and emotions too well 👋👋
18/12/25
gave my eng detention exam today ive been binge watching kdramas to distract myself from falling into a worse cycle than the one I'm already in. Well it's not bad i just feel numb and nothing matters. I watch kdramas to feel things tiinggggg 🍴 maybe i have a high pain tolerance because i was born to not feel anything. Is that why im into things that put me on edge
22/12/25
made a doc for thoughts i have that relate very different characters from very different medias or songs that remind me of characters. me and isaac have been talking a lot lately, cant say the same about nik. maybe we've grown too different the past few months and slowly fading out of each others lives. mina's still the same tho, and I've got luc. he's my boyfriend but i cant say for sure if we're close, we're just there for each other. Why does everything feel so dulled out. I skipped exams and i need to retake... mq 23/12/25 and islamiat 25/12/25
" i was looking for a hooker when i found you " ( isaac ) 🎵
8/2/25
What the actual fuck was january. What was THAT. Aunt came back from iran, uncle came back from uae, there were functions EVERYWHERE FOR 2 WEEKS STRAIGHT WHILE I HAD MY EXAMS????????? oh my GOD. Ive been more into music and focusing on my last fm because music was there for me when i had no bitches. When i was an alpha lone wolf sigma chad🧙♂️ Ok ive been waiting for my picnic also i have my board exams starting 31st march and i think i have like 50 days to prepare :) after 6 months of straight up exams and tests everyday i am so burnt out Dying is better actually