
for casey & jewel 
casey, we did not get along at first, but over time, you became such a big part of my life. one day, something clicked and i wanted to protect you from everything bad in the world, you seemed so hurt and lost and i look at you now and youre so different. you smile everyday, you laugh at my jokes, you're the one person in my life who understands loss like mine. you let me know everyday that i'm not alone, that there are others who go through the same thing i go through, and im so happy i found one. im so happy youre my little brother, ive always wanted brothers and when you started to open up to me, i cant possibly explain how happy i was, how proud of you i was and still am!! you're such an amazing guy, i don't get how the hell someone can hurt you. you're strong, stronger than you should be, but even after everything you'd been through, you're still kind and caring. i am so, so lucky to have a brother like you, you put up with so much from me and still open your arms to me when i need it. thank you for not shrugging me off and wanting to share interests with me, it means so much to me! i love you soosososooo much hermanito!! WE NEED 2 FINISH AVATAR THO!!
jewel, we may have met in a friendgroup that wasn't the best, a friendgroup that almost drove us apart, but i'm so happy it didn't! i know i dont show it often, but you are so genuinely important to me. i know i can be an ass and i can be annoying, but i promise i'm going to get better, you deserve a brother who will sit there and listen and offer support when you're ready to open up, and i haven't been that brother lately, so i'm going to step up and be the brother you need, i promise. you have such a kind heart, you make me smile and laugh harder than i have in years, you introduced me to a family that helped me through so much, and despite my shitty behavior, you still helped me through everything you could, you've hugged me when i was scared and lost, you've made me laugh after i'd been triggered, you've done so much for me!! i want to do better for you, i want to be the brother you need, someone you can count on! i'm sorry for how i behave, i want to be better and make you as happy as you make casey and i!! you are such a silly brother, i love hearing your autism rants and i love that you listen to mine, thank you for being an amazing brother, im here for u forever!! i love you!! :D
overall, you two mean the absolute world to me, you have gotten me through some of the roughest times and i couldnt find better brothers. you both are truly my found family, and while we aren't blood, you have shown me more love and compassion than my blood has, and for that i am so so grateful. i know i haven't been the best brother, i let my disorders win and you two don't deserve that, you deserve better, and i will work to make sure i can be better, so i can be a good brother. i love you two more than anything in this world, i can't wait to live with you guys and have a great life together, i love you guys soooo much!! kisses your foreheads