FEDYA'S DIARY
before you read :
i'm #problematic (not really eheh) but this IS a digital diary so beware of ANYTHING. main themes can be sh, ed, suicide, mental health etc etc. i also type weird sometimes sorry
Links: check my main!
17 September 2025
Yu gave me this url so i can write this journal and wtv. i think it might be actually therapeutic! its currently 6:42 PM as im writing and nothing too crazy happened in my day. i went to school and had 3 classes, the italian teacher explained how to get credits while i just doodled lol. it's my third day of school hah! this feels like a documented case. school might kill me soon, im balls deep into an ed and im dealing with a crazy ass situationship. will fedya survive till they're 17?
i'm currently 57kg and fasting for 2 days and 4h. i do not wish to eat for this week, i'm so sick and tired. besides, my mother wants me to lose weight sooo
also, i applied for a commission today! hooray! i hope they accept my request 👀
i started writing some more lore for my other yumeship with mr big shot over here and its gonna be peak... trust me. i'm drawing chibis rn so i could become a marketing god and sell chibis (since i've got no clients rn ;-;)
i also finished my monster energy and i feel sad... but i also don't feel hungry anymore. i think im gonna lose my shit if my mother forces me to eat dinner. i want to sleep and draw and starve ok?
18 September 2025
i lied, i did eat because i was starting to feel really tired. it was good as hell tho so i won't complain! even tho i really wanted pizza...
its 7 am and i did my makeup, i won't update this until i get out of school :p
and today i should probably get my package!
it's 7 pm and i didnt get my package but a commission should come to me in a bit... heh. i'll get pizza today because i'm also a bit sad. nothing much to add, i tried making some sona lore tho
22 September 2025
help its like 4 am rn. i drew my yumeship and i napped,,, i also got my fav type of yogurt :p
my new clothes came in so i can shoot my shot with JK style jirai. i'll need to wake up in less than 2 hours so i can do my hair and my makeup... this is hell
while we're at it, spamton is an intersex transmasc butch lesbian who uses he/she. #wokeagenda iam WOKE!!! i love drawing her, especially the big shot era and my yume big shot au,,, save me from this evil woman i am trapped in an almost 4 year old yumeship. speaking of yumeship, i'm trying so hard to save for a commission of my yumeship with ness and oh my god its so EXPENSIVE. it's from a popular artist,, who made that one jetskii ness fanart. i totally want a leximi jetskii. i am big and greedy, everyone will know ness only loves misha ouhh yes i will feed my leximilings.... welp, i should go to sleep.
29 September 2025
i always write these at late hours lmfao,, tomorrow i have P.E. kill me pls... 〒_〒
today i drew and i was productive! yay! hell yes! wow! i wanna get commissions so i can afford a new tablet that doesn't have a broken screen lol. imagine how powerful i'd be with a nice and stable tablet. ha.
also blue lock season 3 got announced and i'm so sosooo scared to see ness on the big screen... i'm afraid of the new fans too. i'm still his #1 fan no matter what. i might not draw him a lot but i'm tryinggg ( ̄. ̄) i'll try drawing every day and get better at art in any way i can,, also thank you so much procreate for the gradient mapping option 🙏 ts saved my life i swear, my colors and art pieces look sooo much better after trying the grayscaling method.
yesterday i had a huuge headache and got sick and i really CANNOT afford to be sick like. ever. but i'm the type of person with an autoimmune system of a victorian child. that's why i always carry some type of medicine with me all the time,,, but i guess life is great! i feel very lonely but my online friends are here for me always so that's fine! ੭ ˙ᗜ˙ ੭
also my teachers complimented my outfits and said i look cute while other people in my school said i'm a diva and that made me really happy