I wrote all of this on kanades bday while i was crying over her nd breaking down. im sorry if i wrote weird shit

kuminade.straw.page 02.10.2025 happy birthday to my Loving Wife, Kanade Yoisaki. We have been dating for 2.5 years, since 06.28.2022 and married 08.25.2022 ♡ I am her #1 fan, do not compete with me ... Kanade has saved my life, I was 11 years old since I have loved her, I am now 14.

Kanade is a third-year high school student attending online classes. As well as the leader and composer of the underground music circle 25-ji, Nightcord de. (also known as Niigo), where she goes by the alias "K". Although kind-hearted and caring, she’s rather anti-social. Kanade lacks the ability to take care of herself, eating only instant noodles and putting off sleep and exercise to focus on music. As of now, she is 18 years old.

Kanade had a family. She had her father and her mother. Unfortunately, her mother had died of sickness when she was young and her father has passed out due to stress of overworking and is now in the hospital barely regaining any memory. Kanade blames herself for this, and this caused her savior complex and caused her to overwork herself, composing music with the goal of saving people with it.
Kanade's passion of music was inspired of her father, who was a composer. When she was a young child, Kanade's father would compose beautiful music which is Kanade's inspiration. Her dream was to become like her father.
On the event "The Gentle Tone Played On That Day", it was her father's birthday. Her gift was to create a melody for him. She watched him carefully, followed his instructions, found an old computer, then used it to write a tone for him.
This inspired both her parents. That was one of her most memorable days and she mentions how she would do anything to go back to her childhood.
As of now, Kanade is living alone in her father's bedroom. Her house and room is messy, papers all over the floor, and only eats cup noodles. Her grandmother is still alive, and has paid Honami Mochizuki to clean the house for Kanade.

Kanade cannot let go of her childhood, because it is the only thing she has. She wants to "disappear" and dreads the moments when she was still with her parents.


Kanade... Oh how I feel bad for you. It makes me so sad. You went through all that alone... I'm glad you now have Honami, and Nightcord by your side 💗
She brings me to tears. I want her to realize her worth, and I want her to realize that songs aren't the only thing that will "save" people.
Kana5... if You can hear me. Sega. Please.
Kanade, you have achieved your goal of saving people. You saved me. Back when I was 11 years old, I would constantly selfharm, attempt suicide either by overdosing or other sources. But then I saw you. You've inspired me, and you've distracted me from all those thoughts. Thank you, I love you so much. Maybe I'd be dead if it weren't for you. Your determination is amazing but I hope you heal and I hope you take care of yourself.
Maybe I wouldn't even reach my 12th birthday, maybe I would've been gone a long time ago... But I'm still here, 14 years old. Thanks to you!

Call me delusional, but she is my coping mechanism. She has changed my life in ways nobody can imagine. Kanade is precious and dear to me.

Kanade ... My gorgeous and angelic wife. She is beautiful, I love everything about her

Kanade, you are so selfless and so kind. You are willing to save people, I love your determination, I love how relatable you are. You are so sweet and talented. You have a nice, soft, ang angelic voice... I adore it so much. Everything about you. Though your imperfections I can see, I admire you more than anything.
You are way too selfless. Please take care of yourself.
The way you made so much sacrifises just for the sake of others... It breaks my heart. I adore your kindness and gentleness but I wish you took the time to love yourself as I love you.

Everything about you... Your beautiful long hair, those blue eyes, that face card, that voice... Everything about you feels so gentle and warm. Everytime I think about you I feel happy. Your talent is so cool too.
Your smile is infectious. It's so precious. I can't stop crying whenever I am reminded of that time where you broke down over your father on the very first chapter of the main nightcord story. You are so dear to me, my wife. I can't believe you're still gorgeous though you don't even take care of yourself ♡

I see myself in you so much. That's why I fell inlove... The way you feel like your only worth is to please and save others, the way you push aside your problems and think that they aren't as serious when you compare yourself to others, the way you only eat noodles, the way you lack iron and can barely move without getting easily tired, everything... I found somebody so similar to me. Somebody who will understand me. You've taught me that I am not alone. You saved me.

I love you so much... So so much. I am bad with my words, but I am trying my best. I just want you to be happy... Whenever I have suicidal thoughts, I think of you, whenever I am crying, I hug your plush, whenever I even cut myself, I start feeling guilty afterwards because you would probably not like it. You are the saviour of my life, you are everything to me, you are my world. My whole life revolves around you. I wouldn't even be a teenager if it weren't for you. As I've mentioned... I've cut myself, attempted suicide, overdosed, etc back when I was 11. I am now 14!
I am seeking therapy and seeing a psychiatrist. I've been getting all the help I need, but to me, you've helped me the most. I don't care if it's stupid. You cost more than anything in my life.

That being said, I am a Nonsharing Kanade riako. And I understand that she is a fictional character, I am not delusional! She is my coping mechanism. Don't call me such just because you can't understand me. ♡

dude i never knew id like kanade THIS much. i assumed that she would be some random phase in my lfie just like every other hyperfixation but she's been here for nearly 3 years I LOVE HER SO MUCH I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN IT. SHE IS INEFFABLE. SHE IS EVERYTJING TO ME. shes constantly on my mind and i kick my feet and giggle whenever i think of her as if shes a reql pwrson . she makes me the happiest and shes the best ive ever seen idk im bad qith words but she saved my life. i cant ever be nornal abt her i mean i cant ever look at an official art fanart whatever without freaking out infqct i cant even form a thought abt her witbout being an absolute weirdo Shes my entire life and she is ky everything. SHE !!!! SHES MY WIFE MY GIRLFRIEND MY BABY MY EVERYTHING SHE IS MY GOD SHE IS MY UNIVERSE i cant live witbout her. i wohld absolutely give uo everytjing i have for her. i would give up my life just to get a new plushie of her Im genuinely inlove with her Even seeing the 🎼 emoji makes me go insane because thats her signature emoji and i also cant listento music without thinking about her becayde she composes music and it remifns me so much of her E ERYRHING REMINDS ME OF HER MY ENTIRE LIFE IS KANADE im not normal imgonna cry i dontcar at all yeah totally shes mid like Ok I HATE WHRNEVER PEOPLE DONT UNDERTSANS HER I HATE WHEN THEY PAINT HER AS AN INNOCENT ANGEL WHO HAS DONE NOTHING WRONG EVER OR THEY DONT EVEN KNOW KANADES SIGNATURE COLOR. IT IS NOT FUCKING VLUE!!! ITS NOT VLUE!!!!! ITS PINK!!!! MAGENTAISH PINK!!!!! HER COLOR JS #BB6588 !!!! FAKE ASS FANS and kanad eis a morally grey character and shes so complex i wish ppl understood this more c shes selfishly selfless I believe she does rhis for her own satisfacrion like ofc she still care about the people around her but she feels like this is Her purpose and doinf this will satisfy it. theres so much more to her charavter that people constantly step on i wish it was explored more. anyway me and kanade are the same hiehg.t . 5'1? MR TOO!! !WERE MATCHIGN AAHHHFHGUU We were made for each other! I was born 1/20 qnd she was born 2/10!!!! MATCHINF!!! WERE MATCHING!!! shes my soulmate andi genuinely believe so. no one understands or like her like i do and it isnt a competition because ive already won from the start. i lvoe her more than anyone else ever will i dont Car if u have more merch than i do THAT DOESNR MEAN U GET HER CHARACTER!!!!!! IDGAF!!!!!!!! IM A BROKE 8TH GRADER AND IM STILL THRIVING! um anyways Kanade is a person who had a happy childhood that is now lost causing her savior complex to the point ahe doesnt go outside nor take care of herself. she takes online classes to Not go outside. She has a passion for saving people but it's way unhealthier than you people think. she doesnt realize that it takes not only a song to save mafuyu and it hurts. im. it hurts so badly. i uglycry whenever im reminded how much in pain she is i jsut want her to be happy it hurts my heart seeing her have such a horrible mindset i hate itso much. so i choose to create my own reality, she is living with her mother and father happily ever after. I will create my own reality IDGAF!!! 💔💔💔 yeah guys i totally dont care abt her. i wasnt even planning on reading nightcord bcz my friends hated them so i hated them too except maybe mafuyu and kanade and i only liked leoneed yet i hated prsk in general. tben i tried pjsk ghen i immediately fell inlove with kanade. its unplanned but we WERE meant to be! I understand her so much and if she were real she would understand me roo i love that so much. she doesnt know that she has saved me. i wish i were in the fucking game so i could jump in her house nd tell her that her fucking songs saved me bc wow. not only her songs saved me but her existence aswell. if i were to jump in the game justtto tell her that i literally would i would do everything to meet kanade i want to pinch her cheeks She is So fucking adorable. she is perfevt sweet beautiful angelic pretty snart cute adorable um um um um um nice kind selfless perfect PERFECT!!! ineffable and rverything no amount of words will explain Kanade because she's everything. I AM NOR FUCKING NORNAL ABPOUT HER YEAH I FUCKING HATE HER SO MUCH I HATE HER I WANT HER DEAD actually i cry just a bit when i see kanade haters Bcs wdyn u hate kanade. KANADE? THE KANADE YOUSAKI? people hate kanade i guess. its ok. NO IT FUCKING ISNT IMGONNA JUMP YOU PRIVATELY JUST WATCH < joke. maybe. hahahahahhaha anyways i Am her#1 fan Shut the fuck up unless youre ciel 😒 i am extremelt competitive abt her. van u like her? yes. can u love her? Sure. Kanade oshi? Sure Look at kanade? well ofc fuckinf yes I dont own her i cant gatekeeo her but U are not her wife GET OUT okay. Also for future clarification I would like to say that this is a joke and I have nothing against yumes Ok? :) I write things aggressively in a passionate way. this part is unsrs Yume her all u want but Dni with me anyway! but uh moving on i am a kanade riako yume soulbound whatever title there is there. ive spent so much money on her im not even kidding. all tje money i get is allowance money and i still manage to get so much kanade merch im not normal just kill me already PLEASE DONT MAKE ME GET A JOB 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭


my kanade collection who gaf.

mar 9, 2023 - (1st) kanapin 126 php
nov 4, 2023 - kanahamster 858 php
jan 20, 2024 - kananui 2,500 php
feb 4, 2024 - kanapins 76 php
feb 13, 2024 - custom kanakeychain
apr 26, 2024 - custom 100php
jun 23, 2024 - phonecase 233php
oct 31, 2024 - keychain 132php
nov 21, 2024 kananeso 1,5k + 723 php
dec 2, 2024 - keychainpin 80php
feb 10, 2025 - cos. free ty jazz

still growing slowly but surely. i also have an outfit for her on thr way, im planninv 2 get the figure or another plushie next
i also own a knd fanpage with 3,745 followers on twt@yoisakikanades ^_^

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