diary vent.

im turning out to be like him.. paranoid, annoying, overwhelming, too loving, and a liar. I don't know what's up with me, I feel sick for what i fanatize about... I feel sick for remembering. All of those things he said to me.. "He lied about liking your boobs, he was disgusted by you" and yet i went back because i needed the attention of someone older loving me. Him telling my friends all i did, making them get away from me, isolating me. this fucking suck, i hate you all and I need to close up again(I hope my fucking name haunts him as the 12 year old who manipulated him. . . and also put qoute marks around the word manipulated bc i didnt do fucking shit other then be petty.)

I should have stayed quiet in that call, telling her how i felt was so stupid, i wanna run away from this hhhh it's so ugh.. "It was stupid to avoid you" why would i say that? I know im gonna let go and be led on again. it's all lies and i know it, i can't believe anything and it's starting to suck. hh i have a major headache. I dont wannna go to school, i feel sick and disgusting of myself for what i did on that call. YES I REPLASED :rofl: stryos everywhere lol ok this is so edgy i feel so stupid for being sexual first and i feel bad because what if she's just.. thinking abt others instead of me LOLLLL MICHAEL KVAMMEN YOU DID THIS :rofl: "I didnt have attraction to you, i was scared" lol lol lo l lo lol i'll never change from the obsessive abusive freak iam

2:42 AM - i've been so paranoid abteveyrhting and i keep hallucating
3am - i styae dupo all niht for her and hahduddiwihdw she hans tcime online i msi her ohh my god im soclingy thi sisot emabrasiingn.

#AROMANTICSRULES!

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Pub: 24 Jul 2024 06:22 UTC

Edit: 02 Feb 2026 10:59 UTC

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