" 2025.06.29⠀—⠀5 months w/ you "
my dearest 🥹 it's already been 5 months since you came into my life & changed me as a whole. it sometimes feels as though time really isn't moving. it's weird!!
honestly, it's been quite tough for me these past few weeks. the thought of you loving me was such a blur & felt so far from my reach, as if it's such an impossible thing. maybe one day, i can feel your sweet love again 𖹭 though i won't ever let anything stop me from loving you this much!!! you will forever and always be my #1. i will never get tired of reminding you this, but i am forever so glad to have met you. thank you for making me feel whole.
to me, you're beyond what the words "precious", or "special" could ever convey. you're more than perfect to me, and it feels as though someone like me could never come close to someone like you. but still, i want to try. i want to keep on loving you. you will always be so loved and admired through every little thing you do. i see you in a way no one else could ever come close to. for now, i will keep on loving you as i am.
everyday that passes by, we drift further away from that day we first met. everyday, we are creating even small memories together. everyday ever since you captured my heart, held me tight and never let go, i spent every single moment of my life loving you and wanting to dedicate my entire being to you.
i was never good with words, but i hope my love for you can one day reach the depths of your heart. nothing will ever be able to make me fully express everything. i wish to spend so, so much more time with you. everyday, i am glad to be have met someone as perfect as you, and to spend time with you feels so much like a privilege — it feels so unreal. i want this to keep happening. i want you to be here with me until the end of time. i hope you never have to leave me.
even during tough times where it's hard for me to see that someone like me could ever be worthy of loving someone like you, i still always want to push on. it sometimes feels like its such a selfish desire— to keep loving you while i'm just me. but maybe it's the way my love just wants to go beyond everything. so despite that, i still want to stay by your side. i hope that's alright— i hope it's alright if i stay by your side a bit longer. i don't want to ever have to let go.
i hope we can stay together, longer and longer. you have become such a very important person in my life within such a short time that it sometimes feels as if it's fate. i do not want to waste this very precious thing we have together, so i want to spend every moment in the best way i can. i hope i can continue to love you this much, always. i love you, my ritsu. thank you for entering my life. you will always be my most precious person ever.