I became a person who i thought i'd never become again, i've lost friends because of my lack of effort. I became a pathetic, lonely loser, and i'm fine with being that way. Being my friend is the most time-consuming thing anyone can consider. I don't deserve to have friends; i rarely talk, i barely reach out, i barely respond, i am a person meant to be alone. I suffer alone, i cry alone, i am fine with being alone. I am not worth any effort, i am not worth time, i am not worth it.
Don't ever consider being my friend, don't ever consider befriending me or trying to spend time with me; im not worth it. im boring, im lifeless, i only bring negativity, you will only ever get tired of me. Ive lost so many friends whom i held dear because of the way that i am, i wish i wasnt this way, but at the same time i will not change. im not going to change myself, this is the person ive become and this is the person ill forever stay as.
i dont have a bright future; nor do i plan on making my future bright. I'm fine with dying a lonely death. If you knew/know me, i am sorry that you ever came across me, i am sorry for wasting your time, and im sorry for being a terrible friend. i dont know why i became this way, but im not going to put any effort into fixing or changing myself again. im a lost cause.