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" まだイキって 調子に乗って "
i am commonly referred to as nikolas, but i don't mind the usage of jupiter , jason , and/or names of my kins. see this. i also do not mind if my more uncommon names are used, but i prefer if you stick with the first three mentioned. masc terms are preferred, neutral is fine too, but never feminine terms. i assume you found me on ponytown, if you came here from github @westernhigh and reading this, iwc/iwec. i'm really terrible at comforting people, please bare with me :')
i am currently recovering from psychotic episodes, suspected to be schizophreniform disorder. the complete details i rather keep private. i don't go through severe episodes anymore, but there might be certain times where i behave 'strangely'. i am not often online on any platform when i am in that state, but there are moments where i prefer to stay online and hang around quietly around certain friends if i am feeling out of it. i usually don't tell more about it unless you ask first or we are close friends. but it's my decision on whether or not i tell you about it, don't be an asshole if i refuse to give more details about this.
i may act irritable or oddly moody, i am constantly feeling very exhausted mentally and psychically so that could be why. i am also prone to having mood swings especially during bad days. on those days i'm easier to irritate so please interact with caution / extreme caution, i could unintentionally get snappy. if we're not close then avoid making freaky jokes if i appear to be moody ok.
my online schedule is unpredictable and i have a horrible irl schedule but i never completely disappear for more then 3 days max unless i'm very busy / on hiatus (unlikely). i have fears of abandonment and being forgotten, i attach to friends easily, this can causes me to overthink very irrationally and get very upset, on the worse scenario i could get jealous as well. i won't and will never be controlling over my friends, but if you're gonna be friends with me and then forget about me in less then a week then i prefer you didn't friend me at all. i could get really really clingy, if you need space then just tell me. i prefer we communicate any problems we have rather then start distancing from eachother/get into an argument.
basic do no interact criteria applies, also with this and this. absolutely do not interact if you romanticize/make fun of any mental illness. please tread lightly if you are mentioning topics of psychotic episodes to me especially heavy ones. do not compare me to ANY schizophrenia stereotype, i despise being characterized as any harmful stereotype. please have common sense.
this is for ponytown specifically, if i have dni in name then respect it. but if you're a friend then you're still totally allowed to c+h with me, i'd be really grateful for it.
" 自信過剰で 死ぬほど馬鹿になればいい " back