hello to the people this may concern,
i am 'quitting' the internet.
over the past 3 years ive formed many IRL friendships and ties with people who now mean so much to me: and i decided i would rather spend energy strengthening those ties rather than being online.
ive started reading books again; heavily studying for my finals and playing online & IRL games with friends who live close by.
my personal life has gotten significantly better, as ive been doing my all to get out of toxic situations and scenarios; as well as ive been giving it my best to focus on my studies and my health. i have healed from my many issues, both mental and physical, and im currently ongoing even more tiny treatments to further ensure my full growth and healing. TLDR; i love myself and my life now, ive spent a lot of energy reaching this point and i am proud of where i am.
the internet is a very twisted place. despite there being a few hidden gems, alike my amazing online friend 'Y': i dont wish to stay active any longer. i believe the negatives of the internet far outdo its positives. therefore, whilst still having a 'presence'; i will not be active or participate in any online related event. 90% of my socials will be kept insanely private & gate kept as to further increase the detachment from the internet. for those who already know them, i dont mind you popping by to say hi.
i will no longer chase the people who wish to be me: i will no longer interact with people if we will only have an online tie to one another. i no longer see the worth in that.
ill be changing my mindset and be treating internet—'freaks' as nothing more than a compliment. therefore; you can try to harm me, but ill be ignoring it: as i know what i am, and thats enough for me. im proud of myself for the progress i have made and im proud to say i have healed and grown past a point in which i dont need the internet. you cannot harm me no matter how hard you try.
and for all of those who hold grudges against me: i wish nothing more than for you to grow as an individual. i will be joyous to see you develop a unique identity for yourself which does not carry the guilt and harm that comes with copying from others.
as for my rentry URLs: chances are ill still be using some of them. you can try to reach out to me to request certain URLs; and i might just give them! however note that ill probably be handing most of the unused ones out to my friends.
for the URLs which i will use; most of them will probably be turned into hebrew—text only/mainly, as hebrew is my home language.
i will not be participating in trading/selling/claiming URLs: i will be staying with my current list, nothing more. (and again many of the unused ones will just be given away to either people who request them or my friends)
as for my designs: i still would rather not be copied; but some people will go to lengths unimaginable. for those people, i want you to know that i am grateful. i am grateful my designs are adored so much to the point of being repeatedly stolen: and i am grateful for the boost in confidence i surprisingly have gotten from many of you.
though, still, i wish for you to develop individually. many of you, specifically one, hold such great talent that could really be spent creating original content unique to you and your theme. explore that opportunity.
for the time being: unless my new expression is heavily copied, i will not be seeking justice. i wish to remain original, so do not copy me/take inspo off of me/steal any of my new assets; because for my new self, i will fight. i care less for stuff dated more than a year back, though.
summary
i am happy with my life and i am happy to say i involve myself very little with online activities.
my socials will slowly turn into texting only the people that matter most; 99% of them being IRL friends.
i dont trade URLs, i wont befriend anyone and my online presence will be known by a few pages only: barely any real/actual words from me will be placed on the internet. (i believe the only place ill be semi active in is my personal atabook https://rachelgardner.atabook.org, but thats only if people direct any questions to me) as well as the pages that will be kept 'active' will mostly be translated into hebrew to further isolate myself from the online english speaking space.
dont copy my new style or expression of identity; as for that i will strongly fight. however for those who hunt down my old information: do with it as you will. is this an invitation to take inspo? no. i still dont want inspo. im just stating ill fight for it a lot less; so go wild, as i no longer care, and i cannot be hurt by ridiculous and immature tactics.
i state my inspo rules so heavily as a mere 'warning'; just for those who do decide to be 'silly' to be aware that i will be standing my ground when it comes to my new self and theme.
last few words
thank you for reading this; and i apologize if you stumbled across this and have no idea what you just dived into.
i am also aware of my many mishaps that might have happened in the past: and so for clarifications, requests or questions, i will always be available to reply. i wish to apologize for any wrongdoings as well as clear up questions and mysteries that mightve gone unanswered.
P.S: my friends dont know im doing this; so dont involve them with this or with me in general. again, im very open to everything coming my way; so please direct it at me rather than at my friends.
to the friends who ive cut contact with: you were great. to the friends ill keep contact with: אתם כנראה יה!דים מסר'ח'ם, אבל זה למה אני אוהבת אותכם
abbys maybe final letter just dropped no clickbait 14 minute long documentary @baishanit admits to having had a time in which she liked foxes more than sheep, is she lying about her sheep obsession?