The entire text below was written by me in Russian and translated using AI. There may be errors and inaccuracies

I believe I once promised to tell you about botting and other unpleasant matters on my account, but I remained silent for a long time because I was tired of proving the obvious to those who find it convenient to see me as an enemy.

This article exists now because the rumors after my long absence continued to spread, false accusations surfaced again and again, and my name became entangled in stories I never committed. This text is not written to "cancel" anyone. I simply want to explain once and for all - who I am, where these scandals came from, what was actually happening behind the scenes, and why all this dirt has nothing to do with me.

At this point, I do not want to play court with creators on the internet. I do not want to put on a show or gather views on my own or others' pain. I want to post my bots and receive feedback - like any other author who puts their soul into their hobby. However, if someone tries again to pin on me something I didn't do - here is the full timeline of events from my side - only facts, screenshots, and what actually happened.

Warning - a lot, a lot, a very lot of text.

If you want to understand - read on. If you prefer to believe all the dirty stories made up about me - just scroll past this article. But keep in mind: there is not a drop of slander here, only my reality over the past months, and I am ready to answer for every word.

Where to even begin the full lore of the "villain BotMartTV"?

It starts with me coming to Janitor simply to create characters. I had no idea it would turn into a months-long nightmare with threats, doxing, and fake correspondence. But let's take it step by step.

My Janitor account became a "creator" account from the moment I released my first bot - that was Alex Melone (created July 6, 2025, published July 7, 2025). Before that, I had never done anything like this, so I was navigating everything alone from scratch. I didn't even know basic things - for example, that if you open a bot for public publishing, it leaves the trending section within 24 hours and no one sees it. At first, that's exactly what I did - I'd open the bot to log in from my user account (where all my characters are), start a chat, quickly hide it again, chat with it for a few days, and only then release it after making sure it was "okay." But by that time, the trending window had already passed, and the bot simply went unnoticed.

So after some time, I hit zero activity and started thinking, "what do I do?" I remembered other beginners I'd seen in the comments - they'd write under bots something like: "hey, I'm a new creator, you have a great bot, check out mine too, tell me what works and what doesn't." And most authors would respond decently. I decided to do the same - I left good comments and thumbs up (back when they still existed). My problem was that I genuinely spammed self-promo under the bots of big and not-so-big creators, going through trending pages. As I later realized, I rightfully ended up in the "bozolist" (blacklist on one of the largest Discord servers for creators). I was added there by another big creator at the time, but I didn't even know about it back then.

Soon I found the main Janitor server, joined it, and started chatting in the Russian-speaking channel. I don't remember the details anymore, but this was around the time when proxy subscriptions started being introduced everywhere. I bought myself an OpenRouter subscription, and in the chat, people were asking for a verified seller through whom they could get it (in Russia, it's very difficult). I shared a link to the seller I used myself, and that's how I met a girl with whom I later had my first major scandal.

We moved to Telegram and kept chatting. Then the summer event started. She released her bots and was extremely upset about negative comments. As a friend, I offered: "Let me help, support you, write something good, don't be upset." And I wrote nice reviews under her bots, gave likes - purely human, as support.

A couple of hours later, I get a link to some article in the comments under my bot. The link was quickly deleted, but I managed to click it - at that moment, both the girl and I were just stunned. The article accused me of being her twin account for botting and things like that.

Being a highly anxious and emotional person, I immediately panicked. I tried to write something like a bot-announcement with apologies on my page (yes, I seriously apologized for not being someone's twin, for self-promotion - we even wrote to support and directly to the site's administration). The person spreading this article left no contact info, just started slinging mud at me. At the time, it seemed to me that the girl's activity really was suspicious, but I didn't pay it much attention because, as a reminder: my activity on Janitor and the BotMartTV account was my first experience with anything like this. I didn't know what to pay attention to on this site and what not to. I'm not saying her account had botting or didn't - I don't know. But I do know what happened afterward. For example, here's part of our correspondence. I'm sharing it with the girl's consent, with her avatar and username blurred, as I promised.

Translation of the text:

Lira: link to the article
Lira: holy shit
Girl: screenshot with negative comments under her bot
Girl: WHAT IS THIS
Girl: WHAT IS THIS IS THIS A COMPLAINT OR WHAT?
Girl: I'M SCARED
Girl: TELL ME WHERE YOU FOUND THIS IN THE FIRST PLACE
Girl: I'M GETTING SPAMMED WITH THESE LINKS BY SOMEONE...
Girl: WHY ARE THEY WRITING ABOUT BOTTING
Girl: this is just an absolute shitshow

Translation of the text:

Girl: they're also dragging you into this...
Girl: even though there are a ton of comments here
Girl: this is fucking insane
Lira: voice message Someone sent this to me in the comments under my bot. I'm so sorry, but I'll post a text (meaning an apology) in Discord. And in, well, like, the comments under your posts. An apology.
Lira: voice message I'll post them with a dislike, I'm really sorry.
Girl: what are you talking about
Girl: I hid my bots
Girl: what is even going on
Lira: voice message Yeah, well, like, some people just made a breakdown post. And now they're dragging me into it too.
Girl: what do you have to do with it...
Girl: why post a text in Discord...
Girl: I already hid them lol
Lira: voice message I honestly don't know what I have to do with it.
Girl: explain to me what's happening I'm scared 😖😖😖

Translation of the text:

Girl: tell me where to find the Janitor rules?
Girl: I want to see the consequences for botting, which they accused my bots of
Girl: and yeah, where to file a complaint against someone?
Girl: I want to explain to the moderation that there was no botting (my page stats, I didn't even log into these bots myself), and I also want to report the insults directed at me
Girl: you can also write to them (the administration) if needed, attaching screenshots showing you didn't interact with my bots
Girl: apologizing was unnecessary, considering they won't take down the post anyway
Girl: can you send me the moderation? I need it urgently
Girl: rules and moderation
Lira: sends her the link
Girl: thanks

Translation of the text:

Girl: too bad they wrote from alt accounts
Lira: Send me where you wrote to moderation
Girl: sends a link
Girl: I wrote to gmail
Girl: what are you going to write to them?
Lira: No idea yet

My "apology" only fueled that person further - he started writing in the article something like: "SEE, EVERYONE, SHE POSTED AN APOLOGY, THIS ONLY CONFIRMS SHE'S A TWIN, JUST LIKE I SAID!"

After that, the article's author disappeared from the radar, while I, deeply shaken, was afraid to release each new bot and literally sent new characters to Discord servers with trembling hands. Someone even told me this "scandal" was supposedly published on AO3. At the time, I thought my reputation was ruined before it even began.

My state slightly improved thanks to people from one Russian Discord server dedicated to Janitor. From there, a certain Russian creator reached out to me - someone who looked into the situation and found information suggesting this was just a troll trying to drive people off the platform (how true that is, I don't know, so I'm not claiming it's 100% fact). He advised me to just let it go, which I tried to do.

After that scandal, I was thinking about how to boost my bots' activity because I wanted feedback. I started buying ads from Eva Porsche (she positioned herself as a "media personality" with content related to proxy/Janitor/AI bot chatting and such - at least that's how she presented herself on TikTok, where her audience came from), and in her Telegram channel (aside from paid advertising arrangements, nothing connected us). Through her ads, I once came across "NOTKATYA" (aka as xentaksis) account, followed her, started supporting her, reposting her posts so that my small audience would subscribe to her too. I acted within the bounds of friendly interaction - just like with all other creators I'd ever known. Important: we were not friends, we were simply acquaintances who supported each other as creators, helped with various questions, and once took part in a collaboration together.

In October, during Kinktober, the same "exposer" appeared again. At that time, my bot Zorak (created September 17, 2025, published October 28, 2025) took off. This person started screenshotting all my bots that had gained traction during the event, writing new exposes, again accusing me of botting. (Now, I and everyone else know that it was true - the botting did happen, and I know who did it. However, at that moment, I had no idea about any of it.)

He spammed under other creators' bots that were in the trending section with me, trying to draw attention to his article and to my account. I was asleep at the time and saw nothing. I only learned about everything later from Eva Porsche's chat. Eva, seeing all this, decided to look into it herself, search for information on other sites, and wrote in her chat (quoting): "I've been finding quite a lot of this stuff" - attaching screenshots where I was being accused of botting.

(screenshot from her chat)

Translation of the text:

Forwarded from Eva (allora) (Eva Porsche's chat)
Eva Porsche: sends a screenshot where I'm being accused of botting
Eva Porsche: I've been finding quite a lot of this stuff

After that, I took a break - the event was over, and I had spent a huge amount of time and energy. The scandal died down. The girl whose twin account I was accused of being went quiet and never appeared again. People stopped coming after me, and I just rested.

And then... I came back. Released a few bots. And about a month after Joshua came out (Created Nov 20, 2025, Published Nov 21, 2025) - the very one I started my return with - I began to notice something strange.

The numbers on him were jumping too fast for such a short period of time. Messages, chats - they grew sharply. But favorites and comments, on the other hand, increased calmly and steadily. The same pattern repeated with the following bots. It seemed strange to me, because previous bots (except for a couple of successful ones) hadn't gathered that many interactions in such a short time.

I didn't know what it was back then. But now it all makes sense.

In December, "NOTKATYA" (aka as xentaksis) started posting about how she was allegedly in contact with the administration regarding botters (later "NOTKATYA" (aka as xentaksis) herself admitted that she had falsely spoken on behalf of the administration and that the entire thing was AI-generated text, "to catch (me) red-handed"), and that there were rumors about Russian creators all being botters, and so on.

Here, for example, is a whole post from her channel about how all of this was specifically aimed at "catching me in a lie" - twisted in such a way that, according to her, all creators were suffering because of me, while I was staying quiet:

Translation of the text:

Forwarded from: Xentaksis
“Honestly, I'm fed up with this shit, for real. I'll write it a hundred more times so you understand - I wanted to stop the bullying towards the RU community, not to cancel Lira.

I'm tired of hearing stuff like "Katya is bad" or "Katya wants terror." Yeah, okay. I'm a bad person who tried to expose someone by randomly pointing a finger.

But fucking hell, if there was no botting - no one would have been worried, no one would have confessed and made up excuses for themselves.

I did a bad thing by lying about the message. Yeah lol - AI wrote it for me. But that message was needed to catch them red-handed, to catch a person in a lie. And it worked, you know? If the person hadn't been boosting their stats, they would have just ignored it, not played the victim.

I'll repeat, all this time I was in touch with both Lira and my other friends, and I also wrote and sent everything that was happening to Shep.

Personally, I think my fuck-ups were:

1. I didn't write to her in DMs. (Because I was deeply hurt by her lying)
2. I even started getting involved and sticking up for my friends in the first place.

But I'm not the type of person who sits and stays quiet while others are suffering. I'm not the person who will smile and say "everything's fine" while others are giving up and losing their minds over someone else's mistake. And I don't believe in staged tears, I don't believe in legends. Because I put forward a theory without even attaching precise facts. I gave one possible method of "botting" - and the author immediately confessed.

It's both funny and sad, gentlemen.

You can cancel me for simply standing up for my friends and wanting to get the truth through "manipulation." Lying is bad, I won't argue. But it had a purpose. (Yes, I'm repeating myself for the tenth time, but I don't care.)

There won't be any bots, I'm going to play Sims and drink beer. I'm also canceling the collab, because I'm fed up with this whole situation. I'm tired of calling people to justice while someone plays the victim of their husband's great love and tries to shift all the blame onto me.”

And that's exactly when my personal hell began.

Two creators - whether intentionally or not, I'm still not sure - turned their audience against me. 15 thousand followers on Janitor and over 12 thousand in Telegram combined. A person with my small audience (~500 subscribers in Telegram, ~5k on Jani) simply couldn't go unnoticed under such a wave. Who do you think people believed? Naturally, them. Most people don't dig deeper - most see a crowd and follow it.

As I mentioned earlier - I don't want to relive all of this and go through every step again. Especially since various articles have already been written about this December situation. I've gathered all the materials I found related to those events, and you can check them out yourself. And there turned out to be quite a lot available in the public domain:

WE NEED TO TALK: WHAT'S WRONG WITH XENTAKSIS? – Telegraph
Oh, boy, here we go again. – Telegraph
Xentaksis’ return
So... Why am I going to police?
Теневые баны и кто в них обитает - Google Document (It's in Russian, but extremely informative)

I'd like to specifically note that in the articles by the so-called "Perry the Platypus," what was condemned was not botting, but "NOTKATYA's" (aka as xentaksis) behavior as a creator overall. Posts from "NOTKATYA" (aka as xentaksis) herself, where she justified getting married at 16, have also already been deleted - but it's very interesting that Katya shifted her audience's focus specifically to the issue of botting and the conflict with me personally.

Also, this article will include some screenshots of posts from "NOTKATYA's" (aka as xentaksis) Telegram here and there, but since she actively cleaned up her posts - they can now only be viewed through registration on TGStat. And so you don't have to search for her Telegram channel there... I did it for you - Telegram channel "xentaksis" — @janitoraii — TGStat. You can see for yourself that the screenshots of her posts in various articles (including mine) are not fake and were indeed written by her.

There were also several articles with "NOTKATYA's" (aka as xentaksis) avatars and other things directed at her, but I won't attach them because I don't want to spread n*zi images and drawings containing “PDF”-content that were on her avatars alongside childhood photos.

So, back to the topic. What did they manage to accuse me of in just a few days? The list turned out to be impressive - and almost all of it is lies:

• Botting - and they targeted not just on the site, but in the surrounding space. And not just "no-names," but other creators too. Probably the only thing that actually turned out to be true.
• That I'm someone's fake / twin - an old song on a new beat.
• Doxing
• Bombing (spam calls and messages in huge quantities in a short time)
• Harassment - allegedly I organized a chat where I, my husband, and people close to me were planning to drive "NOTKATYA" (aka as xentaksis) and Porsche to suicide and were planning to make deepfakes of them and other nasty things.

And then the "fun" began. I was threatened with:

• Swatting
• Broken legs
• Strangling me with wires
• Killing me
• Filing a police report against me for threatening personal safety (since I supposedly "threatened Katya," as many believed)

Here's an example from my previous article, just a small fraction of what was sent to me: TW - bullying, threats to health, threats of doxxing, calls to organize bullying
Proofs of inciting bullying – Telegraph

Even other creators came and wrote about how "disgusting" I was and what "disgusting things" I was doing. People organized a fake subscriber attack on my Telegram with the direct goal of getting my channel banned and stripping me of my only means of connecting with my audience at the time.

I have screenshots showing how in Porsche's chat, people - fueled by those very fake correspondences and accusations spread by these two girls - were pooling money together to order botting, doxing, and enforcers/thugs against me.

Separately about Eva Porsche:

Eva Porsche herself wrote in the comments under my post where I was talking about the botting, word for word:

"History that cannot be kept silent about😔"

And then:

"How does it feel to realize that all those messages were just fiction, and a spot in the top alongside authors who actually worked their asses off since the beginning of Janitor is simply emptiness. Very interesting."

This is literally her account:

What sincere interest in my "empty space." By the way, later this girl threatened me in private messages that my account would be banned by Shep himself upon her PERSONAL request, since they are very close (she has repeatedly mentioned her close friendship with him in her Telegram channel), if anything "happens" to her or "NOTKATYA's" (aka as xentaksis) account / if I or my husband do anything to them. Again, screenshot:

Translation of the text:

Eva Porsche: You don't know, but nothing can be hidden from me and I see everything. If this person is holding you back and belittling you, why the fuck are you allowing him to speak like that on your channel.

You can ban him and all that, but I cannot allow various words about her. She does things beautifully and talentedly, so restrain your husband, with whom you signed commitments for a shared life, so that he stops spewing that kind of bullshit.

And if he tries to do anything bad to her bots or mine, I'll go to Shep to have his account and yours deleted. Am I making myself clear? This is a warning that there should be no botting, because as he said, I'm friends with Shep.
Eva Porsche: No botting to my friends, meaning her.
Eva Porsche: And to me too.
Eva Porsche: Naturally.

Translation of the text:

Lira: Okay, but why are you directing threats at me? Why can't you just write to him directly if he's bothering you or her? You can literally see that I don't want to continue this drama, but you keep pushing. Write to him instead of threatening me for something I personally didn't do.

Eva Porsche: He's your fucking husband.

Lira: Write to him about what you don't like coming from him.

Lira: I'm not a broken telephone.

Lira: And his DMs are open.

Eva Porsche: I'm not going to talk to YOUR husband, I have my own boyfriend, thank you.

Lira: I'm just asking you to talk to the person who's bothering you about what's bothering you, not to flirt with my husband, thanks.

For those who didn't get it - she came to my DMs to make me "shut up" my husband, because... um... she had an argument with him in the comments on my page... and scene.

I published the export of this correspondence in my Telegram channel, literally the entire chat with her (in Russian):
https://t.me/c/2889801685/352
Since the group is private, here's a redirect to it:
http://t.me/BotMartTV_official

The worst part is that the threats and harassment spilled over onto my loved ones and friends - simply because they are my friends. The fact of being related to me or being my friend turned out to be enough reason for them to also receive nasty messages, wishes of pain, and promises of retaliation.

I'm still in shock that something like this is even possible in a community where people are just making bots.

Now let's break down what I actually did in the public space.

Let's set this straight once and for all. Everything I actually did publicly over this entire period, listed point by point:

1. I found out about the botting on my bots. From a person I trusted. And I apologized to my audience, publicly acknowledging this fact. I wrote that the botting was done by my "close person," but thanks to "NOTKATYA" (aka as xentaksis), absolutely everyone found out that it was my husband, and the threats went directly to him.
2. Made sure that this person would never do it again.
3. Endured accusations of absolutely everything imaginable that I never committed - from fake correspondence to doxing, bombing, and attempts to drive someone to suicide.
4. Posted an article by Perry the Platypus - because all the information described there literally happened before my eyes, and I saw not a single lie in it. I publicly and unafraid state that I do not regret that post.
5. Published the chat export with "NOTKATYA" (aka as xentaksis) and Porsche so people could see for themselves what was happening and understand what our relationship with them was like at the time.
6. Set DNI rules everywhere in my spaces - neither speak good nor bad about the mentioned creators.

That's it. Nothing more. No reports, no coordination of attacks. Nothing. Defense is not an attack. All I did was try to defend myself, refute rumors, and clarify information. Simply to survive socially, because at the moment when I did nothing and just stayed silent, I was already being drowned.

The Police Arc: why didn't I see it through to the end? sounds of Jolyne

At some point, I realized that words were no longer enough. When fake correspondence, threats, harassment, and a multi-thousand audience hungry for blood came after me - the only right answer was filing a police report. I publicly announced in Telegram and on Janitor that I was going to the authorities - to file a report against the person who created that very fake article with the correspondence and against those who spread it.

And I actually went to the prosecutor's office. I spoke with the police, lawyers, attorneys - hell, I even got to a police major. It took an enormous amount of energy and took a toll on my already fragile health (I am a disabled person with a serious illness). But I did it because I was scared and I was trying to do the right thing.

Work was done on drafting three statements:

• To find the author of the article with fake correspondence - regarding the publication and dissemination of knowingly false information defaming honor and dignity.
• Against Katya (Xentaksis) - regarding the reproduction and mass dissemination of information that does not correspond to reality and defames business reputation.
• Against Eva Porsche - regarding the reproduction and mass dissemination of information that does not correspond to reality and defames business reputation.

Do you know why it didn't go any further? Because under our law, to hold someone accountable, you need their passport details. Their real full name - which I didn't have and still don't. I couldn't legally obtain them - we're not in a movie where you can "run a background check" on anyone with a snap of your fingers and a call to "the right people." And when submitting these statements, the subjects of the statements would also have learned my full name and personal details. Although my statements were never officially filed, I still keep them, along with exports of all correspondence, screenshots, screen recordings during conversations, and a web archive of the article with the fake correspondence supposedly between "me and my friends" - just in case this wound opens again.

A huge problem is that I didn't want my personal data to end up with Porsche and Katya through court proceedings. Why? Because I already had experience with a long-term stalking situation involving a threat to my life from another person. I know what it's like when your data is used against you. And I have no idea what else these girls and their overly devoted audience are capable of. What else could they invent about me if they got access to my real name and address?

And on top of that, I would have physically collapsed. Given the state they had driven me into, I made the decision to drop the idea. For the sake of my own health, which was already severely undermined by that point.

And let's be honest. Katya and Porsche had a huge, devoted audience that would have devoured me alive if I had continued pushing for court action. That's not an exaggeration - threats were sent to me every day, and even now I'm still spoken of in less than kind terms.

The most painful part is that those people who were subscribed to both me and them initially supported me. When I found out about the botting, when I honestly told everyone about it - they were on my side, supporting me and leaving comments telling me not to be too upset, because "your own people will always be there." But as soon as Katya and Porsche started pushing the narrative that I was "lying about everything" and "playing the victim" - those people turned their backs on me in an instant.

And then it "suddenly turned out" that neither I, nor my loved ones, nor my friends had done any of what these girls accused us of. No doxing, no bombing, no planned cancelation of anyone (wow, what a surprise - it turns out an ordinary veterinarian knows how to take a cow's temperature, but doesn't know how to obtain someone's personal data from a random profile on the internet, just fucking amazing) - none of it came from me. And then people in Porsche's comments started writing: "I'm ashamed that I wrote nasty things to Lira."

It only became shameful after they realized they were wrong. But before that, no one wanted to look into anything - they believed every word from "bigger" people, and I was public enemy number one. And everyone was perfectly fine with writing to me about broken knees and sending people to beat me up... Interesting.

I wanted to do everything according to the law and properly. It was a conscious, adult step. But even the news of my going to the police was met with negativity. People managed to humiliate and mock me for it - for trying to protect myself and my loved ones through legal means.

Important addition: After Katya finally published a bot-announcement on Janitor, where she acknowledged that all the accusations against me, my husband, and my friends were false and that we didn't do it, she asked me to write under that bot that I had no complaints about the text she wrote.

I did write that, because I truly had no complaints about that specific text - it finally contained the truth. But that doesn't mean I have no complaints about her as a person and her actions in general, nor about Porsche's behavior. This is why I was dealing with the police.

You can write "no complaints about this statement," but that doesn't erase the threats, the slander, or the harassment that lasted for months against me. I did not forgive and I did not forget. I simply recorded a fact - in this particular post, the lie was acknowledged. Everything else is a different story.

My break and the price I paid...uhhhh

One of my last announcements on Janitor before my return was that I was taking an indefinite break. I needed to recover - morally, psychologically, and physically. I didn't know back then just how hard this would hit me in the literal sense.

Now I'm attaching a scan of the medical report (a lot of medical text in Russian, but those who need it can translate and read it). It's written there in black and white: I developed new lesions. After consulting with several doctors, it turned out that this happened due to chronic stress. The very stress that was provided to me by months of non-stop harassment, threats, fake accusations, and sleepless nights in panic.

(just in case, I blurred the logo of the clinic where I had the MRI, you never know)

I won't disclose my diagnosis - for safety reasons (in case particularly "clever" people decide to look me up in registries). My personal data has already been the subject of discussion and mockery in other people's chats for far too long. (I'd like to note that the person who wrote the first article spread my Discord across the entire Janitor community through their articles - I never publicly left that Discord account for contact on my pages, I only chatted on servers and left profiles there, meaning I didn't have a creator account. Essentially, my personal account was leaked to the public with a negative intent. Now I've had to repurpose it from personal to creator). But I'll say the main thing: these people simply organized harassment against a disabled person of group 1 (the most severe category, comparable to what many would understand as requiring full-time care or having significant, life-impacting limitations). A person for whom every single day is already a struggle for normal wellbeing.

I mentioned my health issues on my Discord server. Not everyone knows about them, only a small number of people, so now I want to say this.

"Thank you" to everyone for their "kind words" - to those who simply mentally crushed and harassed me all this time. To those who wrote threats, wished me death, "broke my legs," and promised retaliation by others' hands, telling me in private messages "walk and watch your back." You did great, you helped a lot. Thank you for your "support."

And now, real thanks to those people who truly believed in me and supported me throughout this difficult journey. To those who became my friends.

I was doing so badly that I would spend endless hours in online calls with them. We literally slept together in calls. Ate together. Watched all sorts of things for days on end. Because I was afraid to be alone in my own home. And they also showed me "Galavant" - that was one of the few things that kept me afloat.

Literally: (wiz the femboy VERY insistently asked not to blur his nickname. Alright, hon)

Panic attacks overwhelmed me, and I genuinely feared - what if they actually send a swat team or those "enforcers" after all? The threats didn't seem like a joke back then. I didn't know if I should leave my house. I didn't know if it was even safe for me to be on the internet at all.

And I had no support other than them - my friends from Discord calls and a few people from my Telegram channel who helped me keep it together. Without them, I would have simply broken down.

I'll say it again - I'm not asking you to pity me. Maybe at one point I was waiting for words of support. But now I just want you to understand: behind every "scandal" on the internet, there are real people. With illnesses. With nerves. With a life beyond the fucking screen.

This story took a part of my health that I'll never get back, because my condition is incurable. And I still don't know if I'll ever fully recover morally. But I'm still here, and I'm still making bots.

About Perry, racism, minors, and hypocrisy

Well, I'll repeat myself once more - I posted one of the first articles by Perry the Platypus. Yes, I did it. And I'm not ashamed of it. (edit: what I meant is that I REposted the article made by someone else to my channel, for other to see. I was not the one writing it, sorry for the confusing phrasing - again, it was translated using AI)

Why? Because, after briefly reviewing the article that existed at the time, I saw that everything there was true - hundreds of other people saw the same thing. It was about "NOTKATYA's" (aka as xentaksis) statements and her avatars with explicit images - let's call things by their names, with "PDF"-content. By the way, apparently the person realized this was not normal and removed them by the time this article was written (May 23). However, this doesn't erase the fact that they existed, and the person simply refuses to comment on it in any way, other than "they're just small women." That's their right. However, I agree with Perry - I wouldn't want to stand next to a creator who supports early marriage of minors, degrading jokes about minorities, and other remarks for which she never apologized to her own audience.

As for the accusations of racism in that article - the participants in these creators' chats (both "NOTKATYA" (aka as xentaksis) and Porsche) repeatedly used insults toward various groups of people. Including the N-word. The administrators of these chats paid no attention to it. They still don't. Strange, isn't it? To pull stunts like that and allow it in your chats and on your pages - which are literally accessible to anyone who wants to see - and then teach others about "tolerance" and kindness toward one another.

By the way, are you all fine with minors discussing school homework in your chats while you're posting your intimate tattoos there? Seriously?

For example, in "NOTKATYA's" (aka as xentaksis) old chat, there was a 15-year-old girl. From Perry's article, I learned who she was (based on messages, speech patterns, and avatar decorations), and that she was also in my chat at some point. She once wrote something about school or something similar in my chat, but I thought it was just a joke since the information was presented in a deliberately playful manner. After reading the article, I immediately removed her from there (and soon after, I removed everyone from the chat entirely and created a new one, where entry was possible just like on the Discord server - only after age verification through documents). After that, we had a conversation in private messages where she confirmed she was 15 (as of December 2025). I won't say who this creator is, since I don't intend to spread personal information openly, the way it was done to me. But after this incident, on my part, I'm doing everything I can to moderate my space as much as I'm able.

Another unpleasant point regarding this - the hypocrisy of a certain author, whom I also won't mention by name/nickname. But the gist is this: they not only defended but also repeatedly promoted and openly lied about the age of the aforementioned minor creator in their chats. Moreover - they encouraged their presence there. For me, this is shock and betrayal.

From now on, I will simply ignore this person. If you're reading this, please stop endlessly apologizing to everyone. You know perfectly well what you're doing wrong, all while hiding behind a mask of friendship and innocence.

First you openly say that you're uncomfortable being in a chat with a "kid." Then, suddenly, you start promoting the "kid" in your Telegram channel and on Janitor... Now, you're in my blacklist, and I don't want to know anything more about you.

Katya (Xentaksis) and Eva Porsche: what I expect and what is known about them.

Before I continue, I want to make one thing clear. I do not want people to "cancel" "NOTKATYA" (aka as xentaksis) or Porsche. That is not my goal at all. I simply fear a repeat of the December events, since these authors have faced absolutely no consequences for everything they caused, and they show no intention of doing so.

I do not deny that "NOTKATYA" (aka as xentaksis) may have faced real doxing, bombing, or threats from unknown individuals. Such things are terrible, and should never happen to anyone. But it's very hard for me to believe her words, because Katya has been caught in public lies on multiple occasions. Including the fact that she extorted money from foreigners as a child, using lies and tears - something she herself admitted (this information is in one of the articles I attached at the beginning).

I stand by every word written here. Because after the public apologies I made, these people, through their actions, did not allow me to live in peace, damaged my reputation, and ruined my health.

Translation of the text:

Honestly, I don't trust anyone anymore and I don't expect anything.

Let me break down my grievances with these authors point by point. Here, for example, is the result of these creators' actions that affected me personally:

• I was banned from 90% of the servers I was on, following false accusations of doxing from Katya. Not after my statements about botting, but after she publicly declared me a doxxer to her entire audience in an open source. This is an important nuance, because after that I lost the ability to communicate with my favorite authors and share my bots.
• She dropped an unverified fake article onto an audience of 15 thousand on Janitor and over 2 thousand in Telegram, where I was supposedly planning to "eliminate" her and Porsche. Porsche instantly reposted it to her 11 thousand subscribers (in Telegram). After that, Katya miraculously disappeared - she didn't respond, didn't get in touch. Porsche, meanwhile, fanned the flames, commenting: "I don't know where she went, she's not answering." In our DMs, Porsche tried to get answers and some comments out of me, trying to extract a confession that it was all true, while I was dealing with investigators. Throughout all of this, all Janitor users could freely view this article, as it was pinned in Katya's comments and in the bot-post about her "departure."

But here's what's interesting. As soon as I publicly (and in DMs with Porsche) said that I was handling the situation through legal channels and advised Katya to do the same - Katya appeared online with a huge, well-formatted post.

And by the way, no one asked me for my full name for any statements - meaning no statements have been filed against me. If I had actually been guilty of doxing, harassment, organizing an entire chat with the goal of destroying someone's reputation, as well as ordering various services to the address of someone's parents - and if all of that had been REAL - I think that person wouldn't have sat idle and would have gone to the police with statements against me.

• I also want to touch on our last conversation. Katya acted strangely from the very beginning. She kept pushing me to respond faster, demanded an immediate reaction, kept emphasizing that I was writing "weirdly," and generally created an atmosphere of moral pressure. It felt like she was trying to provoke an emotional reaction from me, to make me slip up or say something that could be used against me. But when I told her that every message of mine was being written under the supervision of a lawyer - she suddenly calmed down. The demands for quick responses stopped immediately. And that speaks volumes.

• Katya also tried to force me to confirm every word she wrote for her own post. That very post where she eventually wrote that I, my husband, and my friends were not guilty of what she had accused us of. But why should I have confirmed that? Why should I have agreed that, according to her, "WE came to the conclusion that it was a third party"?

Who are "we"? Are they with us? In the same room? Personally, I only dealt with "NOTKATYA" (aka as xentaksis) and Porsche (not counting their audience). I don't know and cannot know who exactly Katya was trying to blame (according to her, it was some random teenager). I can only be sure of what I saw with my own eyes and experienced myself. And I saw and experienced harassment, slander, and threats that came from Katya and Porsche - directly or through their audience.

Katya's actions at that moment are unclear to me. Why did she need me to confirm the words in her post? Why was she trying to drag me into the "third party" narrative? However, I directly told her to write about the third party on her own behalf, since I personally am not aware of anything.

• My own subscribers, who supported me in the comments under the post about botting, wrote to me. They said that "NOTKATYA" (aka as xentaksis) was going through their personal messages and spent hours trying to prove that I was lying to everyone, "playing an actress."
• Going back to December - in my DMs, when I was in a suspended state at the beginning of the conflict, Katya came with words like: "look at what rumors are going around about you - that you do CSS for money." She sent me screenshots of a conversation with another creator, where she (Katya) replied to the creator (quoting Katya's words): "lol guys, she doesn't know how to do CSS, it's a lie," and wrote to me: "this is an example of the sins they attribute to you." Why did she do this? Unclear. Either to rub salt in the wound, or to position herself as a "friend" who warns, or to turn me against other creators. In any case, it felt like moral pressure to the point of exhaustion.
• Katya also decided that I, my husband, and my friends were Perry the Platypus - the people who wrote articles about her, exposing her as a "PDF"-supporter and a racist. Even in the comments under her own post, she harassed a random troll-commentator, thinking it was my husband's twin account, and addressed him with the words (quote): "Better go fuck your wife and calm her down, bro. Stop writing from a fake account."

Translation of the text:

Forwarded from …: Proofs, I don't care why you already deleted the post, you already answered.
Forwarded from xentaksis: better go fuck your wife and calm her down, bro. Stop writing from a fake account.
Forwarded from xentaksis: it's all clear anyway.
Forwarded from …: Chickened out, funny. 💋

Translation of the text:

Forwarded from …: Oh if I had her, I'd happily do it. 😔
Forwarded from xentaksis: Bro you literally write the same way from two accounts
Forwarded from xentaksis: Well at least change something in the text
Forwarded from xentaksis: idk
Forwarded from …: Show me the second account plsss.
Forwarded from xentaksis: You do realize the whole chat is roasting you here
Forwarded from xentaksis: Like I know how you there rumadir zuedei or whatever

The situation is the same as when I was called a "twin." I can't prove that I'm not Perry. People can't prove that I am Perry. So what to do about it? Accusing without evidence is not justice - it's lynching.

• Let's return to my "husband": the fact that the botting was done by my husband, I only mentioned in private correspondence with Katya (not counting one friend who helped me catch him doing the botting. Later, when it came to light publicly, I discussed it with a couple of other people). It was "NOTKATYA" (aka as xentaksis) who spread the information that it was my husband to her audience and in DMs with Porsche (and then Porsche came to my DMs with threats).

The botting happened, it's gone now, and it won't come back. Don't meddle in anyone's family relationships on the internet. I'm just a creator who makes AI bots for communication, putting soul and effort into my hobby. What business is it of yours anyway who's in my family?

Translation of the text:

Eva Porsche: Lira, hi. I can ask Shep to delete that article.
Eva Porsche: He said he has connections.
Eva Porsche: Want me to?
Eva Porsche: If anything, just let me know.
Lira: Why delete the article that's part of an ongoing investigation?
Eva Porsche: Ah, okay.
Eva Porsche: My apologies.

• My dislike for Porsche. Yes, at this moment I feel dislike for Porsche. I don't wish her harm, but she is simply unpleasant to me as a person because of her actions. I'm afraid that Katya and Porsche might use my attitude toward them against me, so I'd rather say it myself. Katya could say: "I, as a friend, passed the info to Porsche that the evil terrible Lira hates her." Even though "NOTKATYA" (aka as xentaksis) herself discussed Eva in not the most positive light with me in private messages.

Porsche did strange things - she endlessly said she was leaving, then coming back, then not making bots, then becoming a "useful account." What's with the eternal emotional rollercoasters for subscribers? She advertised scam proxies (for money/referral links that gave her some percentage from top-ups, etc.), set her audience on people who bought ads from her (because she didn't check what she was advertising - authors who steal other people's bots). She's been involved in various scandals multiple times. But she has a very devoted audience - one of the largest among Russian-language Janitor channels. At least, it was at one point.

Again, I bought ads from her myself. And the only thing I regret is that I accidentally "leaked" her phone number when publishing the export of our correspondence - which was made as evidence of her threats against me - in my Telegram channel. But it's worth noting that she gave her phone number to absolutely everyone who wanted to buy ads/other services - money was transferred to it (in Russia, payments are tied to phone numbers). You could come, say "I want to buy ads," and she'd immediately send you the number. You could even not buy the ad if you just needed to get her number. But for the "leak," I apologized publicly and privately, notified my subscribers, and replaced the number with symbols in the export almost immediately. That's it.

By the way, that was her only complaint. That is, she did not dispute the fact that she threatened me with account deletions through her friendship with Shep.

At the time of writing this part, Porsche announced the closure of her Telegram channel (on July 6), stating that she was becoming "just a creator." But the chat with her subscribers is still active, and she herself openly continues to use ableist language. Even in relation to characters, in my opinion, this is completely unacceptable. I hope she's aware that society does not welcome such behavior, regardless of how you package it.

• People came from Katya and Porsche with wishes of retaliation and death directed at me. But now I'm not afraid to speak out. I am describing what I saw with my own eyes and my own experience. There is no slander here. I have saved all screenshots and correspondence (exports and video recordings of chats). This was done for the investigation and in case of new accusations. If they come up with something new - I have the entire timeline of communication with them.

Back then, people thought my goal was to destroy the reputation and "cancel" two creators. But all I did was find out about the botting on my account, feel betrayed, and watch as fake information was spread about me. Because of Katya's false accusations and their subsequent dissemination by Porsche, my already small (after the botting accusations) activity dropped even lower. That was the last straw, after which I made the decision to take a break - from which I have only recently returned.

About a platform that doesn't care.

I've asked myself more than once: what exactly does Janitor's administration even do? Because the situation on the site gets worse with each passing month.

Here's what can be done to you with complete impunity on the site right now:

• Report your bots - just like that, for no reason. And it works successfully. Posts from other authors are full of complaints that the administration doesn't even review appeals, gives dismissive replies, and hands out bans left and right.
• Harassment and threats - the administration doesn't care. I personally received threats of violence, and all of it on their platform. I'm not the only one.

Let's even discuss one specific case: there is a screenshot where "NOTKATYA" (aka as xentaksis) writes that her friend is in that very fake chat with us (the article with the fake correspondence). This same screenshot appears in two of the attached articles - apparently I wasn't the only one who noticed this inconsistency. In it, she claimed that her friend was in the chat with us, and that Katya herself "knows everything and is just laughing." After that, she deleted that comment and said that "an anonymous person told her everything" and that she was not aware of anything at all. I remind you that she communicated with the "informant" directly in Telegram, and also saw and forwarded messages that were supposedly sent from my account (even though we had communicated in DMs before, and it would have been easy to check whether it was actually my profile).

This is just another strange moment where she was caught. But that's not the point. I sent a request to Janitor support with this screenshot. I mentioned that I was going to the police, that this was no longer just "drama" but threats and slander, and that I needed confirmation that this comment actually existed (I'll remind you again - Katya very actively cleans up after herself, including such comments).

Do you know what they answered?

"We can only provide information upon police request."

That's the extent of the protection. No "we'll look into it," no "we're sorry." Just - give us a request from the authorities. And everyone else can figure it out themselves.

Although, after the coverage of moderation processes by a former moderator who decided to leave their post, it's not surprising that everything turned out exactly this way.

Before that, I had already contacted the administration - I asked them to protect my account from botting and to generally shed light on the situation so they would know what was happening in the Russian-speaking community. The result? They replied with text that carried no information whatsoever about whether they could help in any way with this situation.

And here's something else I realized. This whole situation with botting, complaints, and authors being "nitpicked" - it doesn't disgrace the authors themselves, but the site itself. Because I increasingly come across comments from small creators who are simply afraid to post on Janitor. They're afraid of getting caught up in some scandal, of being reported for no reason, of simply having no one to protect them. And they're right.

I'd also like to note separately about the Janitor community lately - the overwhelming majority of it is faceless, toxic, and nitpicks at everything. They can impose on you that you're someone else, that you're someone's twin, fake, and so on. And it's almost impossible to prove otherwise, because the mob doesn't need proof - it needs an enemy.

I no longer expect any help from Janitor's administration regarding harassment. They don't protect their users, they don't monitor threats, and they don't block obvious offenders unless they directly violate their crooked rules. I'm simply stating a fact.

Let's wrap this up?

I'm still dealing with the aftermath of what "NOTKATYA" (aka as xentaksis) and Porsche caused. Every time I log onto the platform or open Telegram, I don't know what I'll face. I don't know what new lie, what new fake they and their circle might come up with.

And I still feel uneasy in my soul about posting bots. Running social media as a creator at some point stopped being a joy, because there was always this anxiety in my head: "What this time? What story will they make up about me now?"

But you know what? Over the past six months, they fucked me over so hard that I almost stopped caring. I'm tired of being afraid and flinching at every notification. I just want to post my characters, get feedback, and do what I love. Everything else can go fuck itself.

Speaking of good things. While I was away, I fully moved over to SillyTavern and barely log into Janitor anymore. So even if I get banned here because of some reports (things have been dark on Janitor lately) - I don't give a damn. I still have Telegram, Discord, and making a new account takes two minutes. I'll just re-upload my characters and won't stop enjoying interacting with them. The platform is just a tool. I won't be afraid of losing something that never protected me in the first place.

I'm already mentally preparing for the fact that all my bots will be reported by the aforementioned authors and their associates. They turned all of this into some kind of popularity race that I never wanted. All I wanted was feedback on the characters I love, the ones I made and posted. In the end, it turned out the way it turned out.

I'm not trying to cancel anyone, I'm just defending myself and clarifying the situation from my side. At this point, I take it more lightly, but I'll still be very happy if people leave me feedback.

I want to release characters like I used to. Make bots, put my soul into them, and be glad that my creativity helped someone cope with loneliness or simply brighten their day. Because all I ever wanted when gaining subscribers and sharing my bots was to know that people like what I do. Not everyone has to, but every comment makes my day better because I know: this work wasn't done in vain. My creativity stirred emotions in someone.

If you want to believe the dirty story they made up about me - that's your right. But know this: I have no interest in lying. I don't need your pity. All I need is peace and the ability to keep creating.

And now, after all this hell, I'm putting a hard period on it.

My decision: I don't want to "fight" with anyone anymore. I don't want to cancel anyone. I don't want to "expose" or "take revenge." I just want creators and people who went through something similar not to give up on their creativity, just like I'm not giving up on mine.

I'd like to note that the support of the people close to me didn't let me give up. I wrote a ton of things thanks to them. Came up with new characters, new worlds, and survived the worst moments of my life recently. Thank you for believing in me and supporting me. Thanks to them, I'll keep doing what once brought me joy.

That's all I wanted to say. From here on, it's just bots and creativity.

Translation of the text:

You thought I'd hang myself? Fuck you, I'll keep working.