
Happily bethrothed to her since 07/02/25 ♡
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04/01/26
Hi Ayana, I know it's taken me about a billion years to finally get around to making this, but look! I finally made a lovemail for you. Well, I technically already send you lovemail but it was all over the place in our dms... Take this more like a way for me to archive this stuff. I guess this also counts as PDA. I'll try to write atleast once every few days if I feel like it, I have some ideas of what to write anyways because 1) I'm a freak and 2) I love you a lot so there's a lot to talk about. Y'know? Do you like the layout? I like it, I think it's really cute. I wish there was more blue but I made the layout like this because it reminds me of you. Plus, since this url is dedicated to you, it would only make sense if it was nice and pink and cute and frilly and pink and god it's so pink because I know that's what you like. ( You better love this... ) I'll write more at a later date but you are genuinely amazing, and I love you so much. You're the best partner I have ever had and I want it to stay that way, there is no one who could ever be better than you. Calling with you is so fun I genuinely adore it. Yes we can play GnB Roleplay yes we can play some stupid game yes we can just sit on call and talk I don't care what we do I just want to be with YOU!!!! If we were to be together right now, I wouldn't even care if you were doing something else, because atleast I would be with you, and that's all that would matter. I know you always say 'Thank you' to me for staying with you this long, but thank YOU FOR BEING MY GIRLFRIEND and just my friend. You are an amazing friend and an even better girlfriend . I love you . I love you so fucking much . You mean the world to me okay T_T... You genuinely do. I love you ssoo ssooososossooossooo much. Ok goodbye. I'll write you stuff here I promise,,,
05/01/26
Dear Kiku, you are genuinely the best thing in this world. I love you so much, in so many ways (and yes I tell you this always but I just love you so much that I cannot contain it) and I will forever love you. I see a future with you - a genuine future. Stay with me for eternity, darling, because I love you so much and I want to be with you forever. No matter how I feel, or whether I'm busy, I'm always finding myseld thinking of you. Thinking of us. I can't help but adore us. I already love you but knowing that someone out there loves me as much as I love them, it makes me actually care for myself - actually love myself. I'm not ashamed to say that I love you, and that I love everything about you. I love you for being one of my best friends; I love you for being my PARTNER; I love you for being in my life; I love you for you. Thank you for just being yourself, whether you're at your best or at your worst. You're so straightforward with me and that is all I could ever ask for. Thank you for being comfortable enough that you speak to me about your struggles and don't just lie and say you're fine, as cliché as that sounds. Thank you for treating me the same and actually caring for me. Even if you don't tell me that you love me, I know that you do. I could go years without hearing you say it but that wouldn't matter because, deep in my heart, I will remember how much you love me. I genuinely cannot express how much I love you, sweetness. You're just amazing and so cool and funny and charming and god, you make me feel good. You make me feel happy about being alive. You make me want to live. Being with you and everyone in my life is the best thing I could ever ask for. Being able to have a purpose in atleast someone's life brings me joy. Knowing that you genuinely care for me is all I could ever ask for. Thank you for staying with me. Our 11 months is in 2 days, I CANNOT WAIT. I want to spend the entire day with you but lord I can't due to school, but it's okay. I love lots. Stay with me forever, darling. I love you so much.
+++ You're just super cute in general I can't help but just fawn over how beautiful you are. Your personality is enough for me but, lord, you're truly a beauty.
09/01/26
Dear Ayana, I don't know when you'll see this but I hope you're doing well. I'm currently in my car writing this to you, and, God, I cannot stop thinking about you. I've been thinking about you for hours, days even. I fantasise about us talking about anything. I fantasise about being able to hold you in my arms and so much more. In 27 days, it will be our 1 year anniversary. This last year has been the best year I've ever had. You've contributed so much to making my year better and I genuinely couldn't tell you that enough. I will always tell you how much you matter to me because I want you to know that someone cares for you, and loves you as you are. Even if you change, I'll still love you regardless. So what that you have flaws? Everyone has flaws, so does it really matter? I've grown fond of them anyways, because it's just what I do. We all have flaws, especially me, so I will love you for them. I will love everything about you. I can find something to love you about everything. I love your personality; your face; the way you talk; your accent; your interests; your flaws and the best thing ever is how you're just an amazing friend. You're more than a friend to me(obviously, you're my GIRLfriend) but, if we weren't friends, we wouldn't be dating. I cannot explain how my I adore you. We met over a year ago now, towards the end of 2024. Meeting you was the best thing that could've happened to me, I'm sure of it. I think about how we first met so much, especially because it's so stupid,,, but hey, look at where we are now! I literally love you so much, yes we are Asakiku yes Sweetheart we are please keep on telling me that we are. We've always been asakiku. I remember how we used to act before dating and god we already acted like a couple. It's so cute. you're so cute. You're the cutest ever. I love your eyes, they are like black pearls that glisten in the light. I would love to stare into your eyes for hours withour change. Every feature of you is beautiful. I love how you always paint your nails and LORD YOU NEED TO TELL ME MORE OFTEN I WANT TO SEE THEM AGAIN!!!! IT'S BEEN FOREVER!!!! And I just adore how your face looks, it's so gentle and peaceful. I could imagine you as a grand statue with a melancholic look on your face, and I just think that's beautiful. You're truly so beautiful and I know I said this last time but jt just adds on to how charming your personality is... Like oh my god you're so cute please never hate me for when I act like a tease because gooddd I love you You're so cute and I love how we can be serious and have chaotic moments. Love doesn't always have to be big, over-the-top displays, even a simple kiss would be enough. All the times we've just played together and spoken and just spent time together is heavenly. You're genuinely so fun to hang out with. I mean it. You don't have to be energetic with me all the time, I will just appreciate being able to talk to you or see you. I love you sweetheart. I'm so glad it's been 11 months, and soon it'll be a year. Just before we realise, it'll be 5 years. The best 5 years of my life. Thank you for being in my life♡♡♡
25/01/26
Dear Ayana, It is officially under 2 weeks until our 1 year anniversary. I cannot wait until it is our 1 year finally. I have so much planned for us and I cannot wait to show you everything that I've made/I'm making for you. I keep on thinking of our 1 year anniversary and every time I've mentioned it's nearly been a year to anyone they're genuinely shocked (in joy). Genuinely, You mean so much to me and I feel like sometimes I don't convey that well enough. I fear that you don't believe me when I say that I love you but I truly do. I'll love you no matter what. I'll never judge you for anything. I don't judge you for anything. The closer we get to the 7th February, I can feel myself get more excited. I think about out anniversary every night. I think about how you'll react and what to say and how to plan out everything so it can be perfect. I want us to hang out all day on our anniversary but that probably won't work out since I don't want you to spend all your time with me... But still, I have plans. I actually cannot wait. I want to kiss you everywhere every day and just tease you in so many ways and dig my face into between your shoulder and neck and hold you close to me. I want to slow dance with you to music and kiss your hands and AAUGGHH AYANA GOD KISS ME EVERYWHERE PLELALlslseeee pUHHLLEASEEEE. Ok. I actually cannot wait for our anniversary aaughh I can't wait to see what you got me and I want to just go down memory lane and I'm gonan cry and we can watch stuff together and play roblox and play some random game together and I'll sob everywhere because it'll be the best day of my life. You're genuinely amazing. For the past year, we have had our ups and downs but we've managed to overcome them. Thank you for staying with me for so long. I genuinely appreciate it so much. You're so much to me, Darling. I'm sorry this isn't as long as usual. I love you, Darling. I will love you forever more.
+++ You're so amazing & I love you so much and you're actually gorgeous. You're the most beautiful person in this entire world and I'm honoured to be your partner. I hope we last for the rest of our lives, my dear.
01/02/26
Hi Sweetness, it's officially 6 days until our 1 year anniversary! I cannot wait to spend time with you on Saturday, and I cannot wait to see what you got me and for me to show you my gifts. I keep on thinking on how you'll react and I'm begging that you'll enjoy them plleaseee.... Please do........... It would be really cool if you did.... thankyou..... Ilove you, Ayana. I love you so much. You are genuinely so precious to me and you're so smart and cool and amazing and awesome and wonderful and funny and sweet and kind and fun to be around and you're so extravagant with how you dress and your face is just so cute I . Ijustlove you.and you're also very beautiful and gorgeous I loveyou so much darling please kiss me kiss me please you have to plleasee please kiss me Ayana please you're just so amazing that I need you to kiss me lleasepelaseplaDsseee please sweetheart. Ilove you😢😢😢 I'm sorry that this is so short. I miss you so much. I hope you wake up soon . please . pretty please I'm lonely and bored and I miss you
++ Hi I'm back I want to write more. I love you so much Ayana... Sealiriously....... I really do okay. ILOVE YOU SO MUCH I LITERALLY DO OHMYGODNI CANNOT WAIT !!!! FOR OUR 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!! Please. PLEASE. Please let me kiss you much. I WANT TO KISS YOU and I want to please you as much as I can,,,,, hhhh I love you darling. Please kiss me darling and hokd me tight and I'll brush your hair softly and dig my neck into your shoulder and smother you with kisses and drag my hands across your arms and hold you tight whilst you're cold and flirt with you and tease you so much just so I can see your reaction and AUGHHHHHHH Ilovenyou please just. appear . into my house. on our anniversary. and kiss me. I'll come to your house. I loveyousomuch please kiss me everywhere and hold me whilst you do. You're so beautiful, my sweetness. I really do . PUHHLLEASEEEEEEE!!1!1!1!!1!1!1!1!1!! AUAGHHHHHH!1!!11!1!1! ILOVE YOU AHANA I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU ILOVEYOU Let's be chaotic and casual at the same time. pelase let me play with your hair and lets run around the house like idiots and you'll give me massages and we play games and scream about it all the time. I love you darling. please. kiss. me. NOW. 💋💋💋❤️❤️🤍❤️🤍🩷🤍❤️🤍❤️🤍💋🤍💋💋
02/02/26
5 more days... 5 more days! I LOVE YOU AYANA!!!! I genuinely cannot wait for Saturday please plealseplase can it come quicker. I cannot wait. I genuinely cannot. You're genuinely so perfect. I'm so glad that we've been able to be together for so long, and especially due to the fact that you were ready to date me. I'm genuinely so happy that you were ready to date me, because, without that, we wouldn't have had an amazing year. you're genuinely the best person in my life and I love you. This entire year with you has been so fun. I love spending time with you whether we're playing roblox, watching something together or we're just talking. I love being able to sit on call with you and be able to just talk about anything without any worry that you didn't care or just didn't want to talk. I love playing roblox with you becase there is genuinely endless opportunities like... hello??!? Sure, we usually play the same games, but it's so fun whenever we just mess about on some random crappy game. That's what makes it fun, being able to play with you. We don't often watch stuff together, but in the times that we have, it has been so much fun. Yes, I want to watch movies with you, yes I want to watch literal youtube slop with you and even as far as doomscrolling because it's fun IDK. Even the times where we just draw on call on whiteboard or even discord and we just draw stupid things or even playing like RPG and other games together like, for instance, when we played Mneumophobia!!! Like that was genuinely so much fun and we need to play a game like that again. or just any game. It would be so funny if we like... IDK played dreamtalia or something... or even something like Undertale for the laugh. It would be so fun. Plus, even when we don't call, we still talk alot about anything. I love talking about our ocsnwith you, and talking about recent events or just anything. It could be the most random crap and I'd still want to talk to you about it. YES tell me about what you've been doing, I want to know. YES, tell me about Gunma please. Please I love her. Please Ayana just tell me about your interests because I love when you do. It's so cute. I love getting to know stuff. I love just talking to you. I love joking around with you. I want to be able to talk to you in person and see how you react in real time, in front of me. okay? I love you Ayana, you're genuinely so fun to hang out with . please marry me and kiss me and just talk to me about anything, and I mean it. I should've said this earlier but your voice is genuinely so soothing. You have the voice of an angel, I am SO serious. Please continue talking and never stop. I want to listen to you speak for an eternity. Ilove you SO MUCH KIKUNAAUAGHHHHHHHSHSHHDHD I DO. I DO I DO I DO!!1!1!!1!1 5 MORE DAYS J CANNOT WAIT I CAN'T WAIT AYANANI ACTUALLY CANNOT OKAY I'm. so happy. please. bro. it's gonna be. literally. awesome. Okay. I love you so much, you mean the world to me sweetheart ❤️❤️
++ Also I love our super serious conversations too in the way that it helps to get us to understand eachother better in different ways rather than passively learning and it just . feels so BLOODY INTIMATE WHEN YOU TELL ME about your interests or just our super serious conversations because it... just does... I don't know... Ilove you please don't killme
03/02/26
4 more days... untill saturday... I CANNOT WAIITTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!! I genuinelt cannot wait for saturday ouughhh Ayana I'mliterally shaking. I love you so much. Soon, It will be a year and I will be able to show you how much I love you in my carefully contructed ~50 slide powerpoint show. I really hope you'll like it. I really hope you'll like what I made for us. I really hope you do. I love you so much, Ayana. I know that I've told you this many times but I genuinely admire how passionate you are with your interests. That's a stupid thing to admire, sure, but it's genuinely so ... inspiring in a way? I'm not sure but I love how with every interest you have, it's so strong and that it's clear you're a fan of it. You make it known, which I admire, because it shows that you really like something. Especially with interests that are history based or related to history, you know so many facts and genuinely enjoy the source. That shows, to me, how passionate you are. Yes, like I said, it's stupid that I admire this about you but it just shows how genuine you are, in a way? It shows how, when you like something, it's CLEAR that you do. You don't hide your interests, nor do you just do it/ watch it once and then never care about it again. I just love how you're so dedicated to Japan aswell like HELLO Japan is literally all over your room and you have so much merch of him. Like most of your hetalia merch is Japan and I JUST LOOK THAT?!?! HELLO?!?! I don't know. In some weird way, it just shows how you can dedicate your life to the thing that you love, care and think about all the time. Having qualities like that really make you like x10000000 more attractive (You already were, Sweetheart),, youknow,,,,,,,,, And I just admire stuff like oshikatsu culture because, oh my days, look at your toom, there is Japan bloody everywhere. Also I love how you have military memorbillia. Like that is genuinly, so seriously, absolutely cool. and I love how you talk about your interests to me and show me clips and talk about the characters in particular or show me stupid images of the characters like YES please do that because I love hearing you talk, genuinely, and hearing you talk about your interests makes us closer in my opinion and just talking about interests is so fun in general and learning stuff about it like YES tell me about the napoleonic wars YES tell me about the difference between oirans and geishas YES tell me all about Golden Kamuy and just anything ever I genuinely love hearing you speak. so much. You could talk to me about anything and I would listen because your voice is so soothing and you talk about your interests with such a passion and, I know you think otherwise, but you're so good at explaining things, atleast to me. I love how you explain stuff and I just love the way that you talk, the jokes you have and just your accent. Like yes talk to me more let me hear your beautiful voice, doll.... yes.... yeah continue speaking and I'll listen to you . PLEASE AYANA I JUST LOVE IT WHEN YOU TALK TO ME ABOUT YOUR INTERESTS YOU HAVE TO DO IT MORE PLEASE I LOVE IT I LOVE KNOWING MORE ABOUT YOU AND ABOUT DIFFERENT MEDIASPPLELASEEEE PLASE AYAANA PLEASE okay. thank you . I love you sweetheart, I cannot wait to hear you tomorrow,, genuinely,,, I can't,,,,,, I miss your voice already darling its been . so long. since I last heard you. I love you. I can't wait to talk to you aughhh I LOVE YOU AYANA AND I LOVE YOUR VOICE!!!!! I DON T KNOW HOW THE TOPIC CHANGED THIS MUCH!!!!
04/02/26
Ooooo... Ayana.... 3 more days.... 3 more days until it's finally been a year... I CANNOT WAIT. EVERY DAY BECAUSE MORE UNRESTFUL AND I ROLL AROUND BEGGING FOR IT TO HAPPEN!!!!! Ayana, I'm genuinely so happy that we have been together for a year (in 3 days). You are the most beautiful person I've ever met and I admire everything about how you look. I love the way that your fact is structured and how your smile is always so soft and delicate, along with your round dark eyes which remind me of a seal pup. I love how your eyelashes look, especially with how they're heavier at the top. It really makes your eyes pop out, and they're one of my favourite features, granted I love them all. I love the shape of your nose, it helps bring all of your feature together and your bone structure is just so soft, in a way. The way that your hair wraps inwards towards your face really helps emphasise your features, bringing my eyes towards your own. I genuinely adore how your face looks, its so cute and adorable. I want to kiss your face all over, whilst staring into your charming eyes. I want to be able to kiss your soft lips and wrap my arms around your waist. I adore how your hair is slightly wavy, as it provides volume to your hair and really makes you stand out, in a good way. I love how you paint your nails and I admire how you do it so often, because all the colours are so beautiful and I WISH YOU SHOWED ME THEM MORE OFTEN EOLAORLEPALSEE!!1!!1!22! if we were closer, I would probably notice it every time and/or beg you to do it with me there becahse I love painting nails and I'd love to paint yours......... I love everythint about your appearance, and I want you to know that. No, you're not chopped, you're genuinely so beautiful and cute. I want to be able to stare at you all the time because I just love your face so much. I don't care what anyone says, you're the most amazing awesome pretty cute gorgeous adorable hot sexy charming beautiful extravagant person I've ever seen like PLEASSEEE MARRY ME . I want to be able to touch you, to graze you with my hands and run my fingers through your hair as we lay there. I want to be able to see you in cute outfits, and be able to stand by you and AUDGSHSHHSS AYANA PLEASE I LOVE YOU I LOVEYOU SO MUCH ILOVENYOUNokay I love you. So. Fuckinf. Much. Ayana. Genuinely. I love. Everythinf. abour you. please. I love you. I want to see you, to touch you, to sense your body near mine and kiss your lips until we can't breathe. please. for the love of god. marry me. genuinely . You're all I've ever wanted. You're the PRETTIEST PERSON I'VE EVER SEEN AYANA. NO ONE COULD EVER COMPETE WITH YOYUUUUUU!!!!!
(sorry this ones is short... :'''cccc)
