hello it's Aya and this is my diary for me to keep track of everything happening in my lifeヾ(≧▽≦*)o you're welcome to follow along on my journey but tread lightly because there's more than a few issues up in my noggin. got it? have fun reading!


12/22/25
third layout remake since october. hopefully this will be the last?? idk. the last one was cute i kinda miss it already... it's just that it didn't fit the theme of this rentry somehow. it was too..... polished. whatever that means. I'm serioufly missing the old yowamushi montblanc theme on here Uhh well its too late now 😂😂

So! what else is new! not much. christmas is in!!! 3 days!!! whoo! i'm especially excited because my brother will finally be getting his own room as a present. we've been sharing a room ever since we were both wee little lads... which gets uncomfortable once you've both reached double digits. but that ends soon! very soon! oh so very joyous. i'll finally be able to decorate my room the way i want it i have soo many ideas for the new year heh. on the topic of gifting when i went to church yesterday the pastor gave out $10 amazon gift cards to me and my brother. wasnt exactly able to afford anything meaningful with that but hey! it's the thought that counts right 🩷 it will come in handy eventually since i am planning to get a huuuge haul from amazon soon soo it all works out.

To raise another topic i sold a few of my urls last night/today and i'm actually quite sad over it Ok well not sad but like Bittersweet. especially /godish and /inumimi Idk they were my babies.... and /hibiki was a gift from a friend. actually looking back maybe i shouldnt have been so eager to trade and i shouldve slept on it or at least considered it for more than 10 minutes :,^( HOWEVER i did get some really cute avatar decos ive had my eyes on for a while. the person i traded /hibiki to was especially friendly and seemed really grateful and i DO like making people smile. it all works out in the end its just very bittersweet to part with them Ahhh

I kinda miss my bf i sent him a message 30 minutes ago and he still hasnt responded LOLOL i think hes at his job. How sad. im playinf saihate station as i write this Oh its soo good. i freaking love shion. And my boyfriend JUST replied!!! The world is alright again. once the weather isnt balls to the walls cold i'm going to get a job......... either babysitting or dogwalking. if that doesnt work i will seek chick-fil-a or some other fast food joint but someone irl told me they dont rly hire anyone under 16 so i dont wanna waste my time searching if thats the case... i jyst need money ok especially to get a phone

Idrk what else to say i think this serves long enough as an entry post ♪〜(´ε` ) buh bye


12/24/25
HELLO IT'S CHRISTMAS EVE HERE good evenjng hello hi. i helped my mom cook fried rice (or um. Prep for it anyways) all morning and my brother hung around and it was actually really fun. we had a good talk about how social media is making everyone reclusive and how nobody gathers for stuff like parties anymore and stuff. Very very insightful yes.🐶 then i had a nice nap ohh man this is the life.

Also today wasn't even that cold for december it was enough to walk around in a t shirt. oh and my mom bought these christmas candies they're hard and cherry/apple flavored and they tasted sooo fucking good i had like 15 of them i should know. call me a big back but you'd do the same if you were in MY position. in fact i just had 5 more oh god

i'm going to get 150 dollars for christmas (it's really just 50 but my mom owes me 100 from a while back so we agreed to put it together) and i'm thinking of what to do with it...... do i either save up for that phone i've been wanting OR do i blow it right away on cute room decor and clothing?? i've been tossing and turning it in my head Maybe i'll just split it halfway. save some and spend some. me and my mom talked about why i need a phone nowadays anyway and she was very understanding to be honest. which is nice! me and my mom have never always seen eye to eye but i feel like right now we are making peace. one step at a time :^)! Joy joy joy....

i dont really know what else to say but i really am very content right now. when i decide what to spend with my christmas money i might showcase it here. i am off to finish saihate station C u later


12/25/25
(didn't finish saihate station)
Why am i so slow at finishing games 🫩 i'm TRYING!

CHRISTMAS DAY!!!! HAPPY HOLIDAYS there's only a week till new years THATS ABSOLUTELY CRAZY. me and my brother and mama watched a movie in the morning. not a christmas one but still a great one nonetheless! it was akeelah and the bee. we stumbled upon it by chance on youtube and we had a lot of fun with it 😊😊. i will give a more detailed review on my letterboxd. agter that i spent a lot of time talking with my friends and i even managed to find time to revamp /watamote i love it a lot right now. Here it is i would normally just put the image but its a bit long.............

i am trying out the names ava and yona right now. My friends said that they fit me! so yay! i love the name aya and i always will but every so often because i have Issues™ i switch around identities to see what works. but to be honest i feel like as of the past month or so i've felt? slightly more stable? for a long time i've always felt like there are parts of myself which i don't understand and so that is why i used to heavily project myself onto others and obsessively copy people's mannerisms or personalities that seemed normal/acceptable. I had some serious untreated issues back then and i still kind of do. but i think having a support system now definitely helps 🐕 i really love my friends now they make my life soo much brighter. they help me embrace the parts of myself i DO understand. and the parts i still dont? we can figure it out together!

On monday my brother and mother will go to the mall to do shopping with their gift money but i've decided to invest towards a phone instead and lean towards a job for any other purchases. i already got my mother to give me 5 dollars today because she and i struck a deal where i write poems and she will pay me for it since she likes to read them :) i think i'm fairly good at it? maybe i will place some of them here... Maybe. for dinner i had leftover fried rice and plantain that isnt related i just feel like flexign. me and my mommy will make bofrot together next wednesday so i'm extremely excited for that. I fucking love bofrot you have no idea

Thats all. Yay


12/29/25
HELLOLOLELELELE.... today i went to the ophthalmologist! i've actually been going for a while now, since around october.... they've mostly been follow-up appointments for my eye surgery since i had a cataract. and the reason why i had a cataract.... i wont be specifying here. it's deep aya lore! you either know it or you dont. but today was pretty good since in a little bit i wont be having to go anymore. very excited about that :^)

in just a week fromnow i will be going back to school THAT FEELS SO CRAZY TO MEE i feel like christmas break passed soo quickly. and in just two days its the new year. i have no idea what i want for a new years resolution Uhh idk if people even still do those. i guess i'd hope for better grades... on the 31st night my parents will be going to church for this all night prayer thingie we do it every year. no thoughts on that... it's kinda boring i guess. but it's a family tradition so there isn't much you can do there

today i found out a friend of mine cant be online for a while :( sad sad sad. i miss her lots Ahhhhhjhhhh.... Moka Riri Reika Mei if you're reading this i miiiiissss youu.... though i guess i can't speak much since when school starts up i won't be able to be on much either! Ahh! i've been playing dol a LOT i rhink it's an issue uhh i lowkey have an addiction but thats okay. i reallylove kylar? can i talk about kylar? of course i can. Kylar is so cute. i wish i could get a free bag of chipsughgghHHHHHH dude i have brainworms. i cant even explain why i like him. i just do. he's so pathetic and i see soo much of myself in him and he's gross and he's obsessive and i likethat. Hehe. first time around i got masc kylar but i got a soft bad end in the forest soo i had to restart my game since i was too lazy to get out. then i got fem kylar. Fem kylar is so?!??!?!!?! i have to admit i prefer masc kylar but its so close ITS SO CLSOE ITS SO CLOSE like i love them both i just like masc kylar better since i feel like the story flows better as thats the default. i got the stockholm syndrome ending/trait for him but when i came back THE GAME DIDNT SAVE! IM SO MAD ABOUT THAT. but i guess it gives me a chance to explore other routes or endings for him. i also like whitney but that mf is TOO hard to please i lowkey gave up after a bit. i might go baxk to her (yes i got fem whitney most of my npcs were fem for some reason) and try again. i loooooooove sydney though. Like a lot. not as much as kylar but still a LOT! i'm on her route right now and shes just so sweet. i like robin too not as much as the others... she just happens to be the easiest to woo and interact with. i feel like her character is better when she is heavily traumatized or drama is happening in the orphanage because otherwise she feels a lot like a stock "girl next door" character. but hey! it just turned winter in the game so there's still time to discover more about her character. I also like harper i hope someday he can be a romance option. i havent gotten too far into other romance options like eden but i'm planning to! And the mod i am playing on is soo cute kyahhh i love this game soo much Ahhh

Here are my kylar headcanons so far If you're still reading.

  • All his nails are chewed like bitten STRAIGHT off
  • he drools when he sleeps
  • also has a terrible time sleeping and requires pc to cuddle him or at least to feel close to them (thats also why he breaks into your room and sleeps on the floor sometimes if he can)
  • He plays with clicker pens
  • he has very soft eyes almost like a kicked puppy thats why when hes manic or jealous its even scarier
  • he self harms with the knife his parents left behind and makes pc cut him or at least watch Eww Eww He's nasty
  • kylar doesnt read books much but when he does its all pathetic shit like graphic novels aimed at kids or like manga where theres lots of fanservice
  • He stinks. Like not even ironically he has really poor hygiene
  • OH AND HES INTO SOME REAL FREAK SHIT i guess thats implied in game but like he's a reaaaaal degenerate................ I cant go into the deets here. But. Ya know.

i really love my baby. Goodbye Lalalalala


1/1/26
HAPPY NEW YEAR YAY oh my god it feels so weird writing 26 instead of 25 now. i cant believe we finally made it. 2026 is going to be my year!!!!!! Trust me!!!!!!!!!!!!! in just over a month i will be turning 15 i'll finally be the age i lied about for so long. umm thats kinda scary honestly i feel like i spent such a large portion of my life being a phony and now that i'm finally faced with the truth i just. Don't know what to do. Today was honestly really chill. i spent some time talking to my friends. new years greetings and all that. then i spent some time with my mom we made tomato stew together. Yay!

i restarted my dol game soo that i could attempt the whitney route... i'm locked in!!!!! i had a really nice chat with a friend of mine today it was really refreshing. she's very insightful and kind. we're in the same gc but we've never taken the time to get to know each other Intimately like that. but i feel like now we're making progress! i'm so glad! i am a bit worried about another friend of mine she isn't doing too well :^( but right now is about the positives. My dad was working on moving me and my brother's furniture around today. the room my brother is supposed to have a guest room right now but we haven't had overnight guests in like ~5 years. but there's a big ass queen bed in there that needs to be dismantled go to the garage. so he was working on that! tomorrow it will be all finished i think. then my brother can move out properly! while cooking my mom and i came to an agreement..... if i pass the remaining quarter with acceptable grades i will get a phone! Ahh! i'm soo excited. i'm happy. I'm hoping for peace and lots of love and happiness this year.!!!!! goodbye i hope everyone who reads this has a wonderful year too.


1/4/26
My dad moved the beds!!!!!!!!!!!! me and my brother now have separate rooms ^.^ it happened yesterday actually but i forgot to write in here. my room still has a LOT of work to do but its looking soo much better already anddd i already have so many ideas for what to do. my mama and i will be going to the store today (HOPEFULLY) to buy some things to spruce it up a bit. i feel like 2026 is seriously off to a great start. manifesting itll stay that way! today has been pretty chill so far uhh it's 3pm as im writing this i spent some time with my family earlier. and cleaning my room... kinda. there's still some furniture that needs to go. Like this big ass vanity ive had since i was 7-ish and its lwk broken. so my dad needs to dismantle that and take it to the garage too. he said he might do it by my birthday :p ive also been chatting with my friends a little I HAD A BADASS IDEA FOR A RENTRY idk how to go about it but its gonna be wicked cool i might put it on /watamote

Tomorrow i go back to school im so sad. It feels like the break went by soo fast.................................... but then again it was pretty fun! i need to fall back into some kind of routine anyways since my sleep schedule has been so skewed. i go to sleep at 3am and wake up at around 1pm help me. this year i gotta lock in for my grades Uhh lets aim for 70% and higher. i have such a good feeling for 2026 i keep saying this but i truly believe itll be my yesr. or well. better than the last 4 years! ive decided on the phone i want for my birthday and i want a samsung note 10+ in white. lalala! and for my birthday too my mom is letting me get my hair done Ok well i always get my hair done but its a kinda tradition in my house to get a special one for my birthday IM SOOO EXCTIEDYEEYYEDDD AAHHHHH!!1!!!! Ok i need to calm down. im gonna watch a movie today by spinning a wheel on my letterboxd watchlist. Buhbai


1/6/26
Hello everywan. i am in history class but it's a free class right now and i'm a little bored. i have some work to do but i will finish my entry in here first. i'm listening to deco*27 right now :) Dilemma was on earlier and right now its parasite. hehe. i looove deco. i still havent been sleeping well and honestly now i rhink its the mattress. Its not really the most comfortable since right now i have the bed that USED to be the top bunk. i'll talk to my mom aboyt it. today is a day 1. i like day ones because theyre more fun. i have geometry on day twos. Kill me!!!! on day 1 i see my two friends in french class and we sit beside each other. wellll... theyre my only friends 😢😢 but i am grateful for them nonetheless. one is a sophomore and she is very nice. she skips class a lot though. i really like her fashion sense we talk a lot about gyaru and we have similar tastes in music. the other one is also friendly. we have the same sense of humor. he got me a bear as a gift and it was really cute. i might put an image here someday. He likes tyler the creator and arthur morgan

today i selected my courses for next year. i really like them to be quite honest. I selected psychology and film theory. oh and culinary arts. My friend chose culinary arts and afda like me soo hopefully we will get placed in the same period again!!! i think thatd be awesome sauce. for my alternate electives i chose guitar and ceramics. I really wanted chorus but for some reason they only had advanced/intermediate chorus and i didnt fit the requirements to be in that class :^( Soo sad. I wanted to choose intro to fashion design but i decided to leave that for next year... along with drivers ed. And study hall. I also found out that the saya pop up parade figure will be officially released on my birthday. i wont be able to buy it of course but I think thats just a fun little thing to mention

i've been planning to watch laid back camp. maybe i'll start over the weekend. Idk what else to say. do people even read these? i hope so. is it entertaining? i hope so! either way it's a nice way for me to get my emotions out. talking about the events of my life grounds me. Makes it more real somehow. ya dig? 😉 ookkaaayyy i gotta do my work now Bye stream android girl by deco*27


1/9/26
i accidentally bought a keychain and earbuds with my gift card christmas money on amazon haul BRUH I DIDNT MEAN TO CLICK CHECKOUT and they already started shipping like IMMEDIATELY so i cant even cancel the order. Oops. im not too mad since it wasnt my Own money and it was only 8 dollars total but still. I wasnt exactly gonna buy the headphones right away i wanted to check the reviews on this other brand..... i guess we'll see when it comes.

these past few days have been fine. last night wasnt too good :(. or i guess it was? in a way? im still processing it. it's not really something i can list publicly but it did have something to do with standing up to my parents. i dont know. right now today has been okay i had a killer headache last night but thats all gone now. Uhh. what else can i talk about. i honestly havent been doing anything lately im a fat fucking chud all i do is stay in my room all day. my friend recommended this youtuber to me i really like her. Her name is sabrina lilliane and she is soo mecore she does dolly fashion and vlogging and its soo pink and pretty :^3 ive also been watching misstada as well. very happy she collabed with moka from illit!

i'm kinda hungry right now but i think i'll thug it out till dinner. i'm in art class right now. i had a talk with my teacher this morning about my academic progress. I dont want to talk about that. Yesterday someone my friend was messaging who kept acting like her best friend spontaneously blocked her. thats not relevant at all but its funny and i just thought of it Omfg niggas really do be fake sometimes. i need to make the list for my mom of the things i want for my birthday. I love mynmom. And i dont like school. gootbai

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