i don't like you.

For a while now, I've hated you.

Why did I have to fall for a person like you?

At first, I thought it couldn't be helped.

Even if you didn't reciprocate my feelings..

I thought it was enough just to be by your side.

I was such an idiot.

Why didn't I distance myself sooner?

Because of you...

I've become such an embarrassing mess.

Even now, I panic when I talk to you..

..and so can't talk properly.

What if I say something wrong?

How am I perceived by you?

I completely lose myself.

Back then, I did everything I could.

I worried about you.. and cared for you.

I won't let it be forgotten.

Every year, birthdays and Christmas were a given..

Without a thought, I did everything I could for you.

While on the contrary, I didn't expect anything from you..

After all, it was stuff I willingly did right?

It was stuff that had nothing to do with you...right?

I really did try my best..

I wrote a letter, confessing my feelings...

I wrote 「Would it be alright to like you?」...right?

I couldn't write 「Please go out with me」..could I?

I was scared...

If I lost our friendship, I wouldn't know what to do..

Times like that...

Clearly turn me down!

Because you didn't...

..I struggled with my one-sided love for another 2 years..

..It was painful.. but I couldn't let you go..

I swear..what a complete waste of time.

Do not misunderstand.

I do not like you.

In fact, I regret it.

Falling for you is the worst thing to ever happen to me.

..pathetic.

After another 3 years..

..you were still lingering in my mind.

In front of you..

..all my self worth comes crumbling down.

I get reminded how I'm just never good enough for you.

I loved you so much that I hated it.

Oh how I resent you.

It's been 7 years since I first fell for you..

..and yet I still resent you.

Even if we continue being friends..

..I'll still resent you.

Even when I'm with someone else..

..I'll still resent you.

I will forever resent you...

..and I think I'm okay with that.

And so, Mr. First Love...

Let's end this..

After all..

I hate you.

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Pub: 25 Aug 2025 08:29 UTC

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