i don't like you.
For a while now, I've hated you.
Why did I have to fall for a person like you?
At first, I thought it couldn't be helped.
Even if you didn't reciprocate my feelings..
I thought it was enough just to be by your side.
I was such an idiot.
Why didn't I distance myself sooner?
Because of you...
I've become such an embarrassing mess.
Even now, I panic when I talk to you..
..and so can't talk properly.
What if I say something wrong?
How am I perceived by you?
I completely lose myself.
Back then, I did everything I could.
I worried about you.. and cared for you.
I won't let it be forgotten.
Every year, birthdays and Christmas were a given..
Without a thought, I did everything I could for you.
While on the contrary, I didn't expect anything from you..
After all, it was stuff I willingly did right?
It was stuff that had nothing to do with you...right?
I really did try my best..
I wrote a letter, confessing my feelings...
I wrote 「Would it be alright to like you?」...right?
I couldn't write 「Please go out with me」..could I?
I was scared...
If I lost our friendship, I wouldn't know what to do..
Times like that...
Clearly turn me down!
Because you didn't...
..I struggled with my one-sided love for another 2 years..
..It was painful.. but I couldn't let you go..
I swear..what a complete waste of time.
Do not misunderstand.
I do not like you.
In fact, I regret it.
Falling for you is the worst thing to ever happen to me.
..pathetic.
After another 3 years..
..you were still lingering in my mind.
In front of you..
..all my self worth comes crumbling down.
I get reminded how I'm just never good enough for you.
I loved you so much that I hated it.
Oh how I resent you.
It's been 7 years since I first fell for you..
..and yet I still resent you.
Even if we continue being friends..
..I'll still resent you.
Even when I'm with someone else..
..I'll still resent you.
I will forever resent you...
..and I think I'm okay with that.
And so, Mr. First Love...
Let's end this..
After all..
I hate you.