Merry Christmas :D

I wasn't sure how to tell you this outright, but I may or may not have a crush on you? It was difficult to discern if it was love, and still somewhat is, but I am relatively confident that is the case.

I recently recalled that you were aroace (if I am remembering correctly), so I don't think I'll gain anything out of confessing unless you're one who is open to romance or other closer relationships (see: queerplatonic relationship, though, I'm not sure if this would be sstisfsctory on my end). I was wondering if I should confess at all with that in mind, but wanted to tell you anyway.

I am also not the best partner either, which is why I'm unsure if I'd want anything to go further from here regardless: I hold much distance, can't keep a conversation for long, can be insensitive, callous, dismissive, etc. This isn't an intent to self-deprecate, it is some important qualities to note that could hinder a relationship.

If this is something you'd neither wish to discuss nor think about, we absolutely do not have to. I would prefer it if that's how you were to feel, as mentioning all this is awkward for me to begin with, and I truly do not want things to change between us. Regardless of anything, it won't change that you're one of my closest friends.

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Pub: 24 Jan 2026 22:32 UTC

Edit: 24 Jan 2026 23:56 UTC

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