this is moreso a schizo rant highkey
hi 
I'm very certain in the fact that I am Buckshot and or related to him in some way, wether that be a family relationship or something else entirely, he is a real part of who i am. I will refer to myself as Colm, or even Buck, because I view myself as him. I still go by Ivan/Oscar/Etc, but what i refer to myself as will switch around. I try to be like him because that's how I want to be. I may shift between personalities, but I do associate most of them with Buckshot.
While I do mostly associate them for my own comfort it also helps me cope with trauma I have. It may be an unhealthy coping mechanism but it's the only way i know how to cope.
Im way more lighthearted about this in actual messages.
I am uncle buck buck