hi i will edit thisdiary later imntired and i hate u all goodbye now
i had a dream everyone didnt hate me, but they kinda did but at least they spoke2 me. and xavir wasnt a stupid cheating slut. the end.
stella is so cute and elegant with how she drinks. im heavily ill and everyone knows it but at least stella is around. i only wokeup because she stood on my back and just started laying down.. my arms hurt and i an rlly rlly rlly rly behind in school now and uhm idk i wanna sleep but i know i shouldnt. i brushed my teeth.. after a bit. id like2 be mentally sound again, so thats the goal i guess.
i wtote somethign and it crashed and now i dont wanna retype it so like wha
3:06pm helo i am waiting 4 crafty2 wakeup. we set up a system so that i can get homework done. (thanku crafty) i uhh went2 the store, i got a lighter, a cup and uh bandaids. dnt think i need 2 explain WHY i goy banaids, but as for the cup its so i stop howrding drinks in my room.. and the lighter just looked cool, plus i want candles. and what have u. and2 burn shit. so. yk. uhh its been snowing alot which means i have2 shovel which i rlly am not so far agaisnt.. im jst in a weird state and fairly sore.. i am okay. people keep asking me that, the answer is yes i am okay. ill thug ut out thats what i do best.
6:06 pm
hello me and crafty put on youtube and did work, i got 3 things turned in before someone called me and now i cant focus. whateva shit got done. i cut my finger well reaching for something, and that pissed me off deeply because it was hard2 type and scroll. (peep it)
owchie ow i uhh put a bandaid it so it ok. cuz it kwpt bleeding and it was also pissing me off SO BAD. thankgod i bought 120 bandaids guys! it looks so stupid so so stupid whatEVA dude. thanku crafty 4 doing work with ne👀this will become a daily thing i think for us both, it seems 2 help us both!! so thats super nice
im not sure about all this anymore
10:41 pm
hello i an thinking. i havent ate in a few days, well ive been drinking stuff thats good. according2 kaitlyn uts been 2-3 days since we got icecream and thats when i last ate anything. i ate some goldfish as i stated before but they didnt stay down. suppose i am stuck wirh liquids for now. ill figure it out. lol.. im dizzy alot and i feel i stay in bed alot, i only got up so i could go2 the store (hassle) and so i can feed my pets. i havent had2 use the bathroom so... i can just kinda sit here. (oh and let my dog out) these bandaids are useless and it is doing nothing but making a bigger mess and its mkaing me angry but at the same time i feel so i hust dont care lol i feelike im gonna pass out. godbless america
11th
shhh shhh shhhshhhhshh shshhhhhh ah ah ah shhhh
hello i had a weird dream im rlly tired i might just sleep all day idk i dont KNOW i dont know. my bad
i starting to realize that im not sure you ever really liked me2 begin with. what DID you want from me?
why should i care? nobody else cares as much as i do, so whats the point. its better2 let go thn 2 be miserable. id rather sit in my own shit and piss thn mourn and yearn for people who simply do not care. life lessons everyone, life lessons.
hi again danny replying2ur rentry.. uuuuuuuu danny has it worse thn me i feel bad. awfully nice guy, hope he feels better. stella and me are just kinda sitting together. my brain is kinda empty and i dont have any thoughts rlly.. i might go back2 bed but
maybe i shouldnt be writing here OR talking2 anyone until im mentallynsound enough. put myself first i guess thats what kve been told. i just spew whatevr bullshit i think and thn my mind chanegs 5 minutes anyway. i also kinda just wanna be alone i think? there was deer, deer across the frozen river. i hate them. there was 4, and thn more came. ans normally i do hatr them but this time was different. i didnt hate them, they were just there and i was just watching. up until they ran away. and run away they did. but together.
7:59pm
me and crafty do homework soon. i made tea. ok? stupid irish danny hasnt hadgoldfish before and i got so so so sad it made me so sad ohmygod.
welcome back king, you were missed well.
11:35pm
hello i do not feel sad rn. or upset or idk YAHOOO! im sure that will change in a few hours but for now im happy and clear headed and thats good. rrrr i drew wit josef (and kaitlyn) on roblox and thn me and josef (and kaitlyn) played minecraft ((kaitlyn kept joining us shes cute)) i dnt have much else2 say i suppose thats it 4 now ohu wait ya "who is josef kenny." duhh dannys friend.. obvi.. "who is danny!!!" new people in the dull verse. i met danny nd dannys friends in a server i think i said this b4👀but inknew danny from 2024 soz yaaaa
12th
DEATH GRIPS SUCKS!! (joking) hi guys.. i am not sure what2 do! its not my bedtime yet (its almost 1am) i am just kinda doomscrolling, i wanna do a QNA that would be fun.. wouldnt it.. yeaa i think so 👀QNA dropping when?!
1:43pm
sleep sleep sleep sleep wake up cry sleep roll around sleep sleep think watch consider regret repeat
injust threw up but HELLO LONDON 
is that like aimmed @ me or 👀..
aint she so cute!!! she wont stay onnthe stand so ill have2 use a backup or prop her somewhere
id love2 know ur end goal here but i dont think you even know that yourself.
haii i am waiting
soukllllljiaabiyyyyy ohhhhmy little souljiiiaaiabaaoyyyy ill be thereee forrrr youuuuu
7:51pm
imso tired i dontknow whyi slept solong. kaitlyn came over2 help me shovel and ilooooo that was AWFULL she carried somuch thanku kailtyn holyshit.
10:47pm
halloooo hallo hhhhhhhhh idk
im 18 i cant be childish like this anymore.
there is no peace, there is only war. we can't fix our sorrow unless we step forward. we cannot fall, because god looks down on those who cannot continue, for they are weak. with weakness shows great misery, and i cannot stand by that. and although you look at me with such disgust and repulse, i cannot hate you. for i am weak, and you are not.
13th
rentry cover page REDONE (check it out) ((thanku fay for helping with layout..) and AND crafty has one2 (thanku fay for also helpingnwith the coding on that2) i promised kip id do his.. so.. shld probs do thay soon.. (kip if u see this im sorry) ahhhhhhhh
3:37am
its been a weird fucking week. ive been confused, and sad, and mad, and happy, and guilty. up and down up and down and repeat. its so tiring. i dont want issues with anyone no more i dont wanna fight like we are children, i dont wanna go back and forth, dont wanna be petty, dont wanna cause anymore problems, id rather talk things out but i assume thats off the table. suppose a bit of that is my fault i will admit. i dont hate anyone, im not angry or bitter, i dont want anyone to be upset or be hurt. i dont wanna beg for anyone back, ive played these games many many times before. if things work out they do, if they dont they dont. i cannot change anything ive done i can only change myself. the end yo
3:41pm
i just woke up andd i checked my phone anddd i have one text message soo im going back2 bed, byeeeo
4:10pm
wait i cant fall back asleep goodmorning usa
6:35pm
fionna and cake episode 7-8 made me cry, me and fionna are twins gSTOPPP
ir feels like i bit into a fucking rock my jaw hurts and sore and uhhh mrownrowneow i wonder if im gonna be uo all night again but imfeeling oretty tired despite sleeping 9 hours.. hhhhhhhyhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
14th
yaa ya ya ya ya ya yeah yeah yeah shut up
hey thats kinda mean
FAWWWWK THATTTTT

BLESSUP
show meee ur teethhhh look at meeee look at meeee everythings gone so perfectlyyyy so say cheesseeee

i hate amazon trucks i hate amazon trucks i hate amazon trucks i hate amazon trucks i hate amazon trucks
ok how long can you hold ur breath well chewing on the end of a popsicle stick in the car well staring at the back of a... amï‘€zon truck. i can go about 10 seconds of a poppy song before i get distracted with something else. please report back.
15th
hello i had a good day! i talked2 many friends, and yeah. very fun. my lips are dry idk where my chapstick is, me and ethan are talking abt a shooting that happened in aussieland its pretty brutal. makes me sad2 think about. i spke2 someone 2day which made me shocked but it was very quick and overall good so yay! they are well so thats good!! (i think) i have not much else2 report
oh by the way if you chew on popsicle sticks you gotta be dehydrated or ur spit will split up the wood tm and u will be eating wood.
12:35
i wish my spit was acid so i could spit on people and they would be like OWWWWWW WTF!!! but like i can handle it but like they cant. yk? i think its a WONDERFUL idea dude
BLESSUP

"WHY ARE HER SIM CRYSTALS ATTACKING HER" - crafty
get the fuck outtaaa here!!!! ???
my teeth hurt! only when i eat hard foods, #ihatesouplovers because that shits gross so STOP telling me2 invest into SOUP. i did homework wit crafty!! i got alot of stuff done! me and neo and crafty have been playing roblox (neo keeps joining us he is NOT invited bru!!!) our bathroom is almost done. i finaly have2 stop dragging msyelf all the way uostairs at 6am dudeee
16th
"do u think u cld ever hate me"
"neva"
oh how times change
10:04am
yhhhhh whorhe fuck wakesup at this time willinglyimso tired but i hve shit2getdone ahhhhahaahhahahahahahhaahahahahhaahahahgaahhah... im gonna so take a nap todaym stomach hurtsso badiysnshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh roblox roblox ageplayers
5:32pm
i have nothing2 do rn, or much 2 sayyy.. im kinda waiting4 people 2 wakeup (crafty and mr ethan) as they are everyone i talk2 on a daily basis.. ((i wanna play roblox ok?))
i rlly missed my poppy era deeply and its back deeply and aughhh auhhhh poppy plz. someone talk2 me about my favorite albums thankz. i need2 poppy positive rant.

waitt this is my diary i can just do it here 🤔 hi i love poppy very much. i think i miss whenshe was blondee but i also lovee her black hair.. i miss her rlly crazy dinky outfits doe. not saying her new outfits arent good
hello plz send me stuff here secret messages using this is such a blast from the past yo
hiii reply page respones will go here!!
8:13pm

LMFAOOO

hi if YOU see this, i found dis poppy cosplay and i thought of u👀
here is other poppy cosplays i found 4 the curious peeps

17th
lets kidnap dullrifle and shoot him in the head awww thats nice sweetie. i miss crafty shes havign a WEEK long sleepover!! oh man how exciting for her but still! i played roblox wit crafty and ethan last night and it was supa fun. ragebait kids on roblox
jst so everyone knows if you see anyone use
blessup
i did it first. ok?

4:14
i hate stupid people, like STUPID people. i hate people with tiktok humor, i hate sluts, i hate amazon trucks, i hate people who THINK theyre better thn me(and only me), i hate fat people, i hate FAT entitled people, i hate people who have a really big ego but theyre ugly as shit. i hate uhmm🤔🤔skateland, i hate people who overly swear, like the hazbin hotel niggas, i hate corny TCCERS(did system larps, fat, black+dylann roof fan, delusiional, draws porn of perps etc) i hate people who like the nickname "daddy/mommy" in relationships. i hate AMAZON TRUCKS. i hate people, i hate the french, i hate riverdale, i hate people who act 13 when theyre a adult, i hate 20year olds harassing 17 year olds, i hate pedophiles, i hate rapist, i hate people who HAVE a rape kink, i hate people who think theyre good at something they suck at, i hate sleepovers(mostly) i hate people who have bpd (thats notme) i hate furries who make porn art, i hate people who draw porn, i hate people who WATCH porn, i hate porn, i hate onlysluts,
i am busy.. i will add2 this.
8:54
ohhhhhhhhh ihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ok which one
10:16pm
just because you HAVE a problem with me does NOT mean i have one with you OR care about said problem. stop dming me stupid shit nigga i plz im laughing.. get a grip mama, youre overthinking this tm ok? itll be ok log off discord.. it ok dont cry nurrr

imso cold
18th
. plz. if people have a issue wit me talk it up with me, anonn messages are for fun things. im socoldim socold
ijust gotsotiredsofast holyshitn dudeehat the fucknigggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh nyyyyyygssss nysaayagaa nyaaaaagaaaaa inson sonimcrine imncrine fluffsy likae aeh bunnay
12:03
shut up nigga i dont care- morning usa usa ! i wokeup ar 8am and went back2 bed shoot me i shouldve stayed up but i DIDNT UGHHHHHHH
Shut UP SHUT UPPPPPP!! Anooying annnoyyyingggg ur gonna get BANNEDDDDD OOHHHHHHHHKAYYYYYYYYYY pop pop pophellooooo, i kept waking up and passinf out and this song was playing the entire time song jst so everyonr knows
hi if anyone is asking i rlly like this song from the album gulpssss song2 hey when is christmas againnnnn
i
4:09pm
i can name ten people off the top of my head who dont like me rn, ive said this SOMUCH but plz leave me alone. i have no intentions of starting shit wit anyone andi dont need more weird annon messages telling me2 slit and kill myself. ive been leaving people alone so i would hope people do the same, again, if you have a constant problem wit me, talk2 me about it.. or really just deal with it idk! just. leave me alone, and leave me out of this weird drama shit i keep being dragged into. i dont HATE anyone i just wanna be left alone. thankyou guys.
anyways on a nice note im trying2 animate for my class, i think it looks nice so far!! (no u cant see) yayayay.. cracty nd ethan are both asleep nd or busy.. i missu guys come home
im so tired of this ssss plz leave me alone im trying2 mourn people and move on. i dont want anythinf2 do with u guys. you guys are so utterly childish, i dont know why you cant call it quits.. plz.. fuck off.
(side note: 2 person who sent message confirming not them, thankyou,,, i didnt think it was u or anyone yk but i appreciate it. much love hope u are well man)
this is so upsetting i cant even focus on my stupid animation now. its one thing after another constantly all the time. besides all this pointless bs im doing fine, i hate ranting on here because it makes me feel like im gonna get jumped or made fun of for having any sort of negative emotions. im trying2 piece my life together and so far im doing good, like very well. and im proud of that, so please, piss off... like a great white man once said, i do not talk2 whores.
im really sorry for alot of things
10:01
thanku crafty' ihnmmmm i realize this was not my fault. i mean the situation thats happening in this moment, as for everything else yes. but right now no. but still,, uahhhhh ahhh one thing after another i want a uhhh what do i want, i would like poppy to preform live in my living room.
hello no more sad things on my rentry, only good happy things okay? look at this poppy outfit
i rlly like how red ut is.. so very red. SO RED!!!0

if i madea a rentry talking about poppy wld u people read it.. idk i might jst do it anyway idk.: plz reply via stupid anonn message board thing i have, tell me here no rude shit tho cuz i wont reply.
11:03
ive been drawing alot alot, i think i have a few people2 thank for that.. idk it just ahhhhh i think ive gotten better at it! i mean udk. but ITS FUN! I LIKE IT!! i will not show u foids and larps tho. becauseim a critic of my work. BUT U CAN PRETEND!1!1!!1!1!1 YAYAYA!!!! (if any1 rlly wants2 see u can dm me!!)
19th
hi i wanna say hi2 people idk im happy rn
hi crafty! hi ethan! hi ryo! (new friend) hi trey(???)) hi fay! hi evan! hi andrew(??) hi danny! hi pimpalimp (?!) hi hermit! ok idk inthink thats everyone who might ever see this or reads my diaries ^^!!!
hi everyone else if i missedu ok? i love everyone no matter who they are i am so joyous right now!!
3:41am
i cant SLEEP!!!!! i normally pass out around 1-2am this is bothering me.. ahhhhhhhhaha ahhhh i wanna sleep