jan 15th

3:51pm
few of my friends asked me2 bringthis back (its been like a day in a half guys.) i said NO at first and thn i decided yeah!! i wana write! yay! so.. here i am. i cleaned someof my room yesterday, very nice. it looks nice, i think,, yeah? idk.. i like it. ive also been thinking about alot of things, i went 2 like 12 differrnt people2 ask for their opioins on every situation(unbiased and biased answers. 2 be honest.) in the past day or so ive came2 a few conclusions, for one edating or dating overall is very gay.. it causes2 many issues, its time consumming and i cannot be bothered. TWO although ive been thinking this for awhile im kinda over TCC, andrew nd ethan said this is a good thing aswell as ani so thats good,, i dont rlly care much for th community @ hand and most of the people are 15 yr old did systems, quite bothersome. ill still research and what have u, but my interactions with others will be limited for my own sanity purposes.. THREE i might start taking my meds again,, i thought about it but id rather not be reliant on meds, lulz thats all

jan 16th
i am not someone u shld look up2 under any circumstance. i am not a "good" person by any means nor did i ever state i was, i dont know why people have that impression. i am simply just, me. everything about me changes constantly, so i dont even know who "me" is. im just saying though, please do not get false ideas about me.
im trying2 tweak and change some of my behavior and reflect on past actions but by all means i am not a perfect person, im still unwell in many aspects,, so. stop.. doing thattt.. please.. it 狼狼狼狼狼
😐😑😐😑😐😑😐LMFAO the fucking ok shut up kenny

3:08pm
im watchinf everyone around me fall apart and its quite interesting. hahahahahaha.. nobody is well in 2026 yo!

7:34pm
me nd my king ethan are talking abt stuff,, out of all my CURRENT friends ethan and me have vry similar view points on certain topics,, its refreshing. everything is a endless cycle and everyone dies. the cycle restarts
i hate petstores. all the animals are mostly neglected its so sad, most people who own fish, small rodents and reptiles are often shit @ owning them,, it irks me2 the core.

when you think of all your biggest regrets and mistakes i hope im the first thing you think of. with all the hate you have i hope i am your drive to keep going forward, show me you are better than i can be. for that is my will, and that is what i want.

jan 17th
im confused on my days, i thought it was the 13th, and thats probably a bad thing!! i have much on my mind! ive felt kinda burnt out recently, although i have for the past few months. i think the start of my decline started around august? i think maybe because last august i waa going through alot of stuff, and maybe everything just hit me all at once. and ever since 2025 august everything has just got weird and bad. i feel weird, i feel like everything is all wrong and twisted and it shouldnt be the way it is, its weird. really weird. from losing close friends 2 having people return after a year or so, 2 alot of other personal life changes and shit its all so weird. and if i have2 be honest i hate it all. i would like 2 say its not my fault but i feel like alot of the changes that happen are my fault, i suppose i know it is, and thats okay because changes happen all the time, and youre supposed2 accept it yk? but i guess im dwelling on it all, and i feel like ive been avoiding everything and just letting everything go forward but i havent really sat down and thought about everything? so now everything is kinda hitting me like BAM! i feel like ive been on auto pilot and now i just snapped back into a reality and i dont like where im standing, if i look back at my old diaries i just sound so, depressing and sad, and watching myself be like that just irks me. i dont think things will ever go back2 the way they were, and everyone thinks its just because #### is gone but thats not really the case, as much as i think about that i couldve prevented that. that chapter is closed and i think its closed for good, and i know that i would wish otherwise but, if i think about how i act and how ive been in the past few months it makes sense. i suppose the reason i talk about it so much is because it makes me sad, maybe its sad because i lost people close2 me but it also makes me sad its because i repeated the same thing i did in 2024, it irks me. i know i was damn worse in 2024 with grian and what not, but i shouldve known better this time and i still did the same thing, just with someone else. i dont know why i did that, not that i think im a whore. i think im just a sad person, 2026 is a NEW year, and it just started so id like2 fix myself as much as i can, ive taken small steps and its going okay. i cut off alot of people for my own well being recently, i hope they are okay even if we dont speak anymore. everyone says that all my old friends are mean but i know where they are coming from, and why they view me the way they do now. which is why i dont hold any ill will towards them. it kinda upsets me 2 talk badly about any old friends, unless they are bad people anyway.. ANYWAYSSS ive been yapping alot so, im gonna leave it at that. yolo

2:03pm
hello.. i wrote alot last night, i wanna try more weird editing styles, so im gona do dat.. yahoo! i closed alot of tabs and shit, so.. yay! kenny is not keeping tabs on any1 or any ex friends anymore so thats good, step forward ya?

5:45pm
i cant think about things4 2 long before i start2 get overly upset, maybe thats sad but its true. i think a lot of people r like that yk?
9:25pm
I AM THINKING. I AM COOKING UP A TIMELINE AND A FUTURE 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥I KNOW WHAT MUST HAPPEN!

jan 18th
i sat and watched all 3 madagascar movies.. why? idk.. but i did.
mort is my favorite, he is stupid and odd and weird nd i like him.. i like the penguins2 but mort is coolest...
4:43pm
ive been sleeping like all day, im so so tired today.. im not soing anything so it works out. i might go back2 sleep yumyuymyum
new england isnt real okay?

oh mort mort mort
8:15pm
i love mort, he is my favorite little critter, i am going2 do a full research on him. just for you guys, ru excited? 2 learn about mort? "yes kenny!"

jan 19th
its 11:48 but it feels silly so.. jan 19th ok? i need a haircut so tmr i will call the salon 4 one,,, my hairs gotten2 long its driving me NUTS!!!! me and karrisa are pals again yay! hi karrisa if u see this i missed u.. my throat kinda hurts uhmmm idk not much else2 update on. i love mort from madagascar and i rewstched the first movie again today and yeah thanks
hiiiii amy! hiii ahri! hiiii karrisa! hii crafty! hiii chy! hii trey! hiii kib! hey sexy (coughs) hiii ferris! hiii danny! hiii fay!!!! (hi kim?)
ok hi guys wanted2 say hiiiii

2:27am
hii guys.. my dms r rlly dry recently, i dont really text anyone, infact karrisa is the longest convo i had today (or i guess yesterdaybits 2am) or maybe my ONLY convo? i spoke2 crafty and kib a bit, im kinda okay with that,, ive been kinda stressed out and tired and socially drained and id like2 keep my close close circle very small atm, im trying not2 use discord alot alot and like find other things2 do with mytime

11:44pm
WHAT RU ON ABOUTTY?? DO NOT SPREAD WEIRD RUMORS ABOUT ME ILL CLOCK YOUR ASS INTO NEXT SUNDAY. i gasped so loud ohmygod i am PUTTING NO ONES USERS ON ANY WEBSITES PLEASE GET UR FACTS STRAIGHT THATS DISGUSTING HELLOOO IM GASPING SO LOUD

jan 20th
ive been sleeping alot, and like just kinda sitting and staring at my wall, im pretty chill wit that tho, im reconsidering some ofnmy life choices atm.

3:58pm
everything is so blur and stupid and wahahahahahahahahahahaha ha ha ha haaa uhhhh mmm yeah i am looking4 a job! just something2 do on the side yk? lulz
369- ur soul is mine 🤣🤣🤣🤣

7:23pm
me myself and i only me. i am my own bestfriend, i am my own friend, i am my own boyfriend, i am everything i need. you disgust me.

god is not real, angels are not real, everything is a facade made by people so they do not fear death. you are by no means better than i am, you sit there and watch as everyone around you falls? you enjoy that? what makes you better than anyone? nobody is morally correct, there is no such thing as a "good person" with "good morals" nobody will ever agree on everything. its not your fault though, what happened 2 you, not sure why everyone begins to think it is. humanity is sick, you are not in control of that, so it is not your fault.
you become everything you stand against, and so have i.

10:39pm
not much people read my diary anymore so i can be uncensoredlittle raw hard style type beat yk? get ready whorver is left because im going deep and cold. ok yhis sounds all wrong but, just, yeah. LMFAOOAOAOOAO

jan 21st
i feel so sick. i can feel vile risingin my throat and rising backdown. i can feel it in my stomach if that makes any sense, fuckkkk fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk im too poor fuck my dick isnt small 😑😑oh fuck ani please we are too poor
3:00am
karrisa is helping me wit reaearch. she also did elliot rodger. which i will sort and fix later. i cantthink my head hurts but im not tired so incant sleep, im so annoyed with everything ever rn, or yeah. theres stuff i wanna cant. say. i am, prevented. not because of anyone or anytning i just cant. bring myself. better if i bottle it up.

4:42pm
is the concept 2 hard 4 you 2 grab? thought you could be a bit smarter?

8:30pm
i cant express myself through words, i donteven know how 2 describe what i feel rn, so i think editing in the best option.. im exciyed2 see how i put my emotions into a edit, i do it often though,, if not 99% of the time. maybr thats why my style changes sm

jan 22nd
12:16am
its only youuu whooo can tellll me aparttttt.. i think everyone is vile and disgusting, i think i am vile and disgusting. none of you have your shit together nor i, lost in a empty sea and a vast of nothing. nobodies ideas or beliefs are their own, it is just a mirror of what everyone else says, you are not your own. you are just built from what you surround yourself with. for example, surround yourself with sluts, you are a slut. sorround yourself with liars, you are a liar. you cannt be friends with someone and not accept their actions, if someone cheats on their partner, you stay their friend, thn you support their actions and stand by cheating. make sense? you can go "but i told them its bad!" would you try and stop them? would you warn their partner? i dont think so.
kenny OUT #YOLO

2:55am
i think about my presence online alot. i feel i am "stalked" or monitored by many people. my actions are very watched. it amuses me, it really does. i always wonder why that is, are we friends? do you love me? do you hate me? do i entertain you? what do you get out of this? let me know in the comments below.. watching my every move is quite the hobby, ill admit im not that committed 2 this relationship.. im flattered..

4:43pm
my head hurts ive only been awake for 2 hours. i wasnt up very late but i slept till 2pm so, thats nice.. i still fewl tired though, like awfully tired. ahhhhh

8:54pm
ur so ###### nd ###### and someones gonna step on u one day and i will go "hahahahahhahaha loser" hhahaahaha hahaha loser. what is ur problem! cant we all be bestfriends nyaaa~ nyaaa! oiiiiii baaaaaka!

9:42pm
isnt that just the cutest thingyouve ever seen? ############ is embracing their inner loverboy arc.. oh i cant live without you! i hit things out of frustation because of you!
fuck thats still funny2 me i cant lie yo.
ive been isolating myself recently. i cannot stand speaking2 a single person anymore. i try not2, it just bothers me. i guess id admit i dont mind speaking2 a few people for a short amount of time, but overall i am quite on my own. everything just pisses me off all the time now, everyone is just so stupid.
im not happy, nor sad, nor angry, nor resentful. i just dont care. i literally do not care, im okay with that.

jan 23rd
2:23am
i redid my about me FINALLY. sloppy work but im lazy, i also tweaked some of my mainpage lulz.. my atabook isnt working so i might replace it ughhhh
k wait no im slow i had2 approve the messages. my bad. send me stuff on my atabook everyone.

7:14pm
hello all! today i am ok, i am playing roblox wit ethan and andrew. ahri played 4 a little aswell, it was fun. i wokeup rather late, that was not fun. my irls are being fat and mean so i am not paying attention2 them. that is not fun. its rather cold here, that is also not fun.

jan 24th
3:48am
my bed broke. like the frame, so now i just sleep on a mattress.. and im not THAT upset about it.. it was very poorly made, and my friend JUMPED on my BED and BROKE IT. ohhh and yaa i was playing silent hill2 yaaa baby ohh yeahhhh ooooohhh auhhh yhggggg anyways. rip bedframe.

2:29pm
i wokeup late but its ok.. nothing going on today.. sleeping on my single mattress was kinda nice
6:52pm
who ru 2 judge me at my lowest? have i not been there for you at your lowest judgement free? oh well, the world will keep spinning. my head hurts and i feel dazey and tired, perhaps i should sleep.. i sleep alot now, its quiet when i sleep. i just have bad dreams.

TIKTOK STRIPPED ME FROM MY DMS IM SO UPSET ANI NO. ANI NOOOO. ani doesnt use discord so we speak on tiktok dmsim so sad thats like one of my closest friends rn and one of the only people i rlly speak2. fuckkk meee dudeee
its ok guys i forgot i have like 3 other accs. whoops haha..

jan 25th

ive grown very angry and bitter recently. i cannot stand anyone no matter who they are. like its a task to hold a normal converstation now. i wanna sleep forever and ever but not in a suicide type shit way, thats fucking gay. like i just wanna sleep forever, id never have2 deal with anything evr dude.
sometimes i get so upset now for no reason at all and i cant help but cry, i dont even know what im crying about anymore. im just sad, sad and angry and cold. and i dont know why either and its not like i have to be this way but i just feel awful no matter what i do, and i dont wanna talk2 anyone because it just feels so draining, and i dont know how to hold conversations anymore, and im really mean to everyone if we do end up talking. i feel like i keep looping everything, like i was really happy and now im not anymore, and i cant seem to pick myself back up. its hard2 even get out of bed now.
i dont think im depressed or anything i just dont know whats wrong and i cant seem to figure it out this time. its not like its connected2 anyone either i just feel, awful

9:11pm
what the fuck did u just say2 me yo

jan 26th

12:19am
i wish i could melt my skin off and . i wish i could like kill myself and revive, yk like imortality but i choose when im not imortal anymore,,, so i can just keep killing myself in front of people everytime they piss me off. total banger plan dude. haha kenny ur so funny. im gonna kirk your ass if you speak2 me that way again tho on a srs note, yk who you are, cunt. WRITE THAT DOWN

4:53pm
i just wokeuo and now i wanna go back2 bed. in my 5-10 minutes awake i realized how STUPID and INCOMPETENT everyone is. also im rlly comfy lulz.. but stellas been sleeping with me all day2 and i want her to get up and run around a bit so.

9:37pm
helloo i did not go back2 bed, i actaully went out of my house (jumpscare) liam tends2 drag me out of my house so i dont fall into a deep depression, awfully nice lad love that guy. i played NSO for a little and now idk what2 do.. i think andrew wants2 play roblox

10:31pm
WOW i rlly dont jnow who reads these omg. HIII RYKER!? ryker been a long time reader for awhile and we didnt talk for ages! i missed the lad, omg how many of u are old friends checkingon me, thats kinda sweet aw. OK WAIT WHO READS THESE I WANNA KNOW. also send me atabook stuff (found on my main page coughs co/sundots)

jan 27th

cameraroll clearing... oh god im gonnadie

9oughh ouuhhhh yikes that aughhhh

5:29am
hello! i am having a important convo wit someone and its made me realize i have gotten a bit better at a few things i lacked in the past. like understanding how my emotions and actions could hurt others and how they affect others, and how communication, trust and understansing is rlly important in alot of relationships and what have u.. these things seem so simple yet i lacked the awareness and what have you like a month ago. im slowly working on myself and thats something im kinda proud of even if nobody rlly sees it as something2 be proud of.

6:28am
i rlly like my bed being a single mattress on the floor.. it feels easier2 get up and it feels comfy and stella seems2 like it idk.. my grandma says i shld get a bedframe but i think they SUCK! YUCKY! stella is very cool and she watches youtube epstien docs wit me.. well she kinda sleeps but she is still next2 me soo it counts. also goodmorning or goodnight guys haha. .....

jan 28th
im happy, i have good friends and okay grades and a nice life and wonderful pets and awesome gma and i love all the things i love and i have my money up and i love purgatory and my purgbabies. my mental health is up and down but thats okay, its just how i am and i am working on how to handle my emotions! i am happy and content and that feels nice.

5:37pm
hellooo guysss! i didnt wakeup at 5pm (it was 2pm) ive spent my time pbservinf these lolcows on this stipid server. it baffles me, its like my own little study. it almost makes me sad,,,

29th
hello i am kenny and this is my moodboard:

hello guys! this is my uhhh moodboard this is how i feel and think innthis current moment. please let me know it we want a breakdown.

3:03pm
hhhhhhggggughhhhhhghhhhggggghhhhhhhh hhahahahahhahah i am gonnaa do school today and sleep and probably call ryker and yaahhh.. isnt that fun yay! me and ryk suck at roblox game.. i had a really weird fuckijg dream.. ii uhh know my friends twin sister was in it and we were trying2 solve sum mystery @ sum hotel lulz..

11:00pm
despite how good ive been feeling recently, theres still alot on my mind.. with that being said im considering sharing it here, but i am under watchful eyes of others, so i dont think i can.. atm.

jan 30th

11:05am
so i missed my doctors appointment. so thats not my fault and ill tell u why.. so i cant drive, thought thsi wss known fact.. and uhhh.. idk my ride kinda is asleep i think.. ahah.. oops.. uhm.. oughh im in so much trouble hes gonna get me IN SO MUCH TROUBLE NOOOOONOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
ok yay yay yay i was not in trouvle! idk why i would be my grandma is supa nice,, i think i just got worried lulz.. i called and reschudeldleflldd and my new appointment is next month so not that bad.. i dont even LIKE the doctors lol..

2:17pm
hello!!! hi guys! kenny here. duhh.. im happy yaya yayaya ive been happy, i luv my friends and my life and my family and my pets guys. yay yay yay yay! i am going2 a arcade yyayayaya arcade say yay kenny$

9:09pm
do you think its sad we spend so much with a person just for it 2 fall apart, like ahaha. i guess. people move on2 fast, its painful2 watch, which is why i just push down the feelings i have towards people i no longer speak2. they dont care about me anymore so why should i care about them? but 2 think that way, it feels cruel. (unless they fucking suck cunt, well thn fuck you) but i mean, the people who treated me right, i do care for, i just idk. sorry haha late night thoughts.

10:11pm
helloooo hello. i feel like someone is sticking their hand up my rectum rn. hmm hmm im thinking of what2 do, oh yes arcade was very fun.. i played uhmmm ddr and uhh jubeat and other games.. very fun haha,, i miss u jubeats.. oh jubeats.. how id spend 1.7k on you.. haha.. ntm on jubeats everyone.

jan 31st
1:26am
ive been thinking about the same thing for like a hour now, it came out of nowhere and im not really sure why.. or how.. but listen with me here ok? two people, outta respect for them even though i am fully 100% neither will see this lets call them A and B ok? i dont know what got me into thinking about this but both people are eerily similar,, 1-2 years later and i see alot of similarites. wether its with my own personal relations with them or their common idelogies.. when i met person B it was under weird circumstances.. i was big retard in 2024 and i feel really bad about that, because i put both A nd B in bad situations. although thats not really what i was thinking on, more how they kinda mirror eachother in a way. of course they are their own people and are wonderful with their own indivual qaulites, BUT i think they couldve been really good friends, and i dont know why im thinking that. its not like they didnt know eachother, again, i put them through hell and back for my own selfish ignorace, and i still did that in 2025 although not my point of topic for tonight.. anyways. they got along nicely, and im thinking about that, i guess,, is what im also saying. i never really interacted with them as a group expect a few places, ahhh,, and only one of them was really a good memory for me(cannot speak on anyone elses behalf though) they didnt really know eachother but it makes me sad they never got2 be really good friends.. though i dont know why either? they are good people, i think, and although i keep my distance from person A person B and me speak ocasionally. person B asked about person A at one point semi recently and maybe thats why im thinking about this.. ahh well idk. its rlly hard2 explain all yhis i probably sound crazy- but it makes sense in my head.. so. ok.? fuck you? they were, important people 2 me for a different varies of reasons, and they stuck with me alot when they probably shouldnt have, i admire that, still.. i guess. i admire them in different formates i guess, ouhhh ok bye thanks for listening i dont think anyones gonna read all this but do not dm me asking who B and A are because. i will not fcking tell u. use ur context clues idfk... zzzz

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