Note: Sorry for the inconsistent sizes T^T (I ran out of space to write)
A letter to my dearly beloved, Alhaitham.
This is kind of silly but since you asked me to write for you, I might as well put in a letter that you can read. If others read this, uhh... Consider this as a saying of how much I adore this man. I'm not as good with my words because obviously, I'm not the linguist here, but I'll try my best to express how I feel about you into words.
I have been thinking of you non stop ever since we met "that" day. I know it sounds ridiculous but it was as if the cupid just struck an arrow right through my chest as soon as I saw you. Believe it or not, I have been pining for you since, but I was too scared to say it out loud. I was content with our friendship and was too afraid to ruin it by saying something stupid like... A confession.
Then uh... We both know what happened. I ruined it still, somehow, even without the stupid confession. I know what you're gonna say, you're gonna say "Kaveh, I've already forgiven you" or something like that. Well, I haven't. I am still struggling to forgive myself. It was utterly stupid, and definitely not the brightest thing I've ever come up with. During that absence, I yearned for you. I missed for what we had. Just hanging out together, messing around, and sharing our thoughts to each other.
I waited. Days turns to months, and IT turning into years. Gods... I missed you. I missed you so fucking much. And to think that you actually accepted me...? I know days have passed but the way you said it that day still rings in my ear. I love you. Gods knows I love you so fucking much. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry. Even when I say things like how infuriating you are, you know that I never meant it. And you know that I cannot get enough of you. It's silly, it's so stupid. But being with you makes me feel like I can do anything, achieve anything, as long as you are next to me. I would build you a palace all for yourself, carve you statues out of marbles and accents of gold for everyone to see. Perhaps even write more letters like this for ages to come so you can always come back and read whenever you miss me.
So, thank you, Haitham. For choosing me always. I still don't understand why you would, but, thank you regardless. And this time, I won't leave you again. Ever.