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" I'm part of the sun,
...I married the moon,"
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"Inspired by those little "lovemail" sections on sites, this is just a page dedicated to all the people I care about or those who mean a lot to me, I'm a pretty sappy person and always wanted to make one of these so I'm finally putting myself to it."
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[Table of Contents]
Anaf . . . Kenny . . . Ria . . . Jasmine . . . Zak
To: Anafabula
(Originally written: February 27th, 2025) Ana, my precious, lovely boyfriend, that I cherish deeply and hold oh so dearly and close to my heart; where do I start? I knew you would be trustable from the moment I saw you, but I never expected any of this. But I wouldn't trade it for anything, it's scary to think how low I was when you and I first met, even if it wasn't much back then, I still admired you. I saw you as someone I would want to be friends with as time passed the more we slowly started to interact, and once you reached out and we directly started talking, it was wonderful, I couldn't wait for every little conversation, every little moment, even if I was too shy to even speak first at the start... I was always so honored, so excited when you'd talk. Just, having someone so relatable to talk to really helped me out a lot, and your advice even before any romantic feelings settled in, helped a lot, you were a wonderful friend — and you're an absolutely perfect boyfriend. I never expected you to become such an important part of my life, I never thought I'd be able to heal, to prove that I am a good person... but you, you helped with that, all your kind words and advice and love — all our similarities, seeing someone so similar to me it just, it helped me more than I can even describe. And every time I'm down, you're always there for me, you listen my woes, and pull me right back up. You aren't one to judge, and you're so understanding even despite knowing my absolute worst. With you, I feel alive, I feel stronger and more confident than I ever thought I could be, and I can't thank you enough for the chance you've given me, the strength you've helped me achieve. I can't truly put into words how much you mean to me, and how much I truly love you. I hope I can make you feel the same, too, I love you so much and I believe you deserve the world, we both do. You're a good person, you're so lovely to be around and talk to, I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you...
(Added onto: April 15th, 2025)
I love you so fucking much, I don't know if you even understand, and I hope it's not too immense. I worry about you a lot, and despite everything you are still my precious moonlight, the love of my life. I feel like you've taught me a lot, and even now you still do unknowingly in a sense. Making me stronger through every hardship, I feel like I can do anything and go through anything. I want to make us both stronger, I want to grow together, and I trust you with all of it. I want to give you my all, and I don't believe it'll go to waste. Despite all our ups and downs, I love you all the same, I utterly adore you. And I can be strong for both of us if and when I have to, keep myself and you in check when I have to, you are a wonderful experience, and I love you. I will not stop reminding you how much I love you and how much you mean to me, even now, and I know I'll always have your support, my evil little guardian angel, you deserve the world; I love you...
To: Kenny
(Originally written: February 27th, 2025)
Sal, one of my best friends for nearly 6 years now, we didn't really talk too much during the year we met (2019), but I do remember quite a bit of our talks in 2020, and as the years passed it slowly grew, and by 2023/2024 I think is when things really kicked into full gear. Even before we actively talked I always thought you were super cool and I'd get anxious, because back then it was a lot harder for me to talk to people, even people who were my friends. By 2024 I think is when everything changed, I had hit probably one of my lowest points since 2021, I had lost the three most important people to me and I felt like I had nobody I could turn to. In a state of despair, I was reaching out to pretty much anybody I could. But I didn't really open up to anybody, but as days passed I ended up opening up to you about what had happened, and you then started to help me, you were there every time I hit the lowest I could go and gave me the company, support and advice that I needed, long messages that I still look back at read to this day, advice I still use even now. You are always a wonderful person to talk to, and fun to be around, I love listening to you yap about your interests whether it's through texts or voice messages. You mean a lot to me, and I look forward to every message and always try to reply even when I'm busy, and I always feel safe/comfortable talking to you or coming to you when I need anything. I'm glad I get to call you a friend, and consider you close, thank you for sticking around.
To: Ria
(Originally written: April 15th, 2025) Ria, I believe we first met in September of last year (2024), a mere 2 months after the other two crazies, and it was by the time I fell back into YTTD, me being the shy person I am I didn't really talk much at the start and we didn't really connect until this year (2025), but I consider you close regardless. You're really fun to hang around and utterly chaotic and fun to talk to. I love all the stupid events and calls, goofy message reactions and all that jazz, and I appreciate having you as a friend, someone I can talk to. I feel like you always lighten the mood with your energy and humor, and I admire that. I feel like you bring people together, too, it's such a wonderful thing.
(Added onto: June 15th, 2025)
Everything I said before still stands true, and even stronger than before. You really do bring everyone together, and you are a fun chaotic personality to be around; and in a way I admire it. The events and such bringing us all together, it's genuinely the most fun I've had in years, even when it's stressful you always seem to lighten the mood in some way. Music talks, game talk, voice acting; all of it... I always look forward to it, not to mention your concern or awareness when something's off; you're a wonderful friend. One of my best friends, you've checked in when I seemed upset or quiet; it makes me feel like I finally found my place, like I belong. And I couldn't possibly be happier, as time progresses and the more lore I drop; you're one of my closest friends, too. You're very important to me, and I'm glad that I get to be your friend.
To: Jasmine
(Originally written: September 23rd, 2025; the day the lovemail was brought back.)
Jas, I remember at first when you were first brought to the group, I was honestly rather skeptical at first. I wasn't really sure what to think of you, given the past with who was before you, but over time I realized just how wonderful you are. I think by July is when I grew fond of you and started to consider you a very close friend, and through everything that's happened in recent times (August and September), I consider you one of my closest; too. I'll never forget how fast you came in when you heard what happened, I'll never forget your support. I cherish it. It's especially fun during the night when I do nothing but yap your ear off until you fall asleep, I think it's funny, and it also helps me clear my mind. I'm happy to have something like that. Also, I think I should listen to your gut from now on... every time you've seen someone as a red flag you've been right; they've either destroyed me or someone else.
To: Zak
(Originally written: February 27th, 2025)
Star, another one of my best friends who I've known for about 4 years now, I believe. You met me when I was in a pretty dark place, and I was seeking out new people to cope with the loss of one of my friends in May of 2021, distracting myself with fandom. You're someone really fun to talk to and to be around, and incredibly creative and kind. Fun to talk about oc's and fandom with, even if we don't share many fandoms it's still fun whenever you talk about your current interests or just whatever is on your mind. And, you're a great support too; you were there for me when I thought I lost everything in 2024. You are probably one of my friends with the biggest timezone gap, which is kind of funny to deal with too because of our different schedules. It's just fun all around, in a way, and I'm glad to call you a friend.