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"Inspired by those little "lovemail" sections on sites, this is just a page dedicated to all the people I care about or those who mean a lot to me, I'm a pretty sappy person and always wanted to make one of these so I'm finally putting myself to it."

"If you want to be removed or potentially added, just shoot me a message on Discord, that's the easiest way to contact me as always. Anyways! Enjoy this sappy little space, don't be upset if you aren't added, it's nothing personal, I love you all."

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Anaf . . . Marina . . . 404 . . . Clarity . . . Kenny . . . Ria . . . Jasmine . . . Danskip . . . Zak
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To: Anafabula

(Originally written: February 27th, 2025) Ana, my precious, lovely boyfriend, that I cherish deeply and hold oh so dearly and close to my heart; where do I start? I knew you would be trustable from the moment I saw you, but I never expected any of this. But I wouldn't trade it for anything, it's scary to think how low I was when you and I first met, even if it wasn't much back then, I still admired you. I saw you as someone I would want to be friends with as time passed the more we slowly started to interact, and once you reached out and we directly started talking, it was wonderful, I couldn't wait for every little conversation, every little moment, even if I was too shy to even speak first at the start... I was always so honored, so excited when you'd talk. Just, having someone so relatable to talk to really helped me out a lot, and your advice even before any romantic feelings settled in, helped a lot, you were a wonderful friend — and you're an absolutely perfect boyfriend. I never expected you to become such an important part of my life, I never thought I'd be able to heal, to prove that I am a good person... but you, you helped with that, all your kind words and advice and love — all our similarities, seeing someone so similar to me it just, it helped me more than I can even describe. And every time I'm down, you're always there for me, you listen my woes, and pull me right back up. You aren't one to judge, and you're so understanding even despite knowing my absolute worst. With you, I feel alive, I feel stronger and more confident than I ever thought I could be, and I can't thank you enough for the chance you've given me, the strength you've helped me achieve. I can't truly put into words how much you mean to me, and how much I truly love you. I hope I can make you feel the same, too, I love you so much and I believe you deserve the world, we both do. You're a good person, you're so lovely to be around and talk to, I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you...

(Added onto: April 15th, 2025) I love you so fucking much, I don't know if you even understand, and I hope it's not too immense. I worry about you a lot, and despite everything you are still my precious moonlight, the love of my life. I feel like you've taught me a lot, and even now you still do unknowingly in a sense. Making me stronger through every hardship, I feel like I can do anything and go through anything. I want to make us both stronger, I want to grow together, and I trust you with all of it. I want to give you my all, and I don't believe it'll go to waste. Despite all our ups and downs, I love you all the same, I utterly adore you. And I can be strong for both of us if and when I have to, keep myself and you in check when I have to, you are a wonderful experience, and I love you. I will not stop reminding you how much I love you and how much you mean to me, even now, and I know I'll always have your support, my evil little guardian angel, you deserve the world; I love you... divider divider

To: Marina

(Originally written: February 27th, 2025) Mari, my precious best friend for... 7 years now? I cherish all the time I spend with you, and I still remember even some of our oldest memories, everything from back in 2018 to now, both the good and bad; I'm glad we've had such experiences and have learned and grown from them together, no matter how messy it may have been. I'm glad I met you, I'm glad I always have you to turn to... even if it took me awhile to truly build that trust to what it is now, I come to you when I feel lost, and you always manage to put a smile on my face with your humor and just... kindness. You're so innocent and kind, so fun and wonderful to be around. Even if things almost shattered a few years ago, I forgive you, and I trust you. I think you are a wonderful, trustable, kind person with a heart too big for this world, bigger than mine. You're like a sister to me, and despite our fights, we stand strong, and I will always be there for you as you are for me. Even if in the past I wasn't always the kindest, I want to be the best I can be. Thank you for being there for me, and putting up with my errors, I am proud of you and proud to call you a friend. It's always wonderful to have someone I can share all my interests with, all my music with, just, everything. Someone I can count on, someone I always know I can trust and have fun with, I can't thank you enough, or put into words how much I cherish our friendship, despite everything.

(Added onto: April 15th, 2025) I am so goddamn lucky to have you to turn to when I need it most, as time passes the more our bond strengthens, and the more I feel like I can come to you about anything, I know I can trust you with anything and everything. No matter what it is, no matter how dark it is, no matter how scary or stressful it is, you always keep me in check and check in when you can tell I might need it, and I can't thank you enough, Mari. You are a blessing. Just having someone like you to listen, someone to lean on when I don't know where else to go — thank you. You are my failsafe, and I trust you. divider divider

To: 404

(Originally written: February 27th, 2025) 404, I know its only been a year now, but I still remember everything just like it was yesterday, fucking around on that stupid pixel game and or Discord; just small moments I can still remember. And even if months were ripped off of our friendship, I'm glad you reached out. I'm glad you gave me a chance, and let me explain my side. You and Clarity have always been people I've considered close even back when we first met, I knew I could trust you guys. I was just a lot more anxious and closed off back then, more scared of talking and such. In those months of silence, those months after everything had happened, I never saw you negatively, not that I can remember. I would remember the fond memories, and still hope that someday, maybe, we could be friends again, and I'm glad I kept that hope, I'm glad I get to be your friend again. And the time we've spent with our current little group, introducing you to Ana and Marina, its been so fun. I can't wait to see what the future holds, I can't wait to finally make the memories that I missed out on last year. divider divider

To: Clarity

(Originally written: February 27th, 2025) Clarity, I always considered you one of the closest people, and if I remember correctly you considered me quite close, too, so when everything happened... it shattered all of us. I did hold a grudge for awhile, and I know you did too, but I still remember despite that; I still did remember you fondly, too, and I missed that bond I had with you. I missed talking to you and confiding to you whenever I felt comfortable doing so, you were always so fun to stay up all night with and talk with about whatever, so when I lost that: it shattered me. I often would remember everything, all the positive memories I had with you before everything, so I didn't really exactly know how to cope with your words, or how to cope with the sudden loss of you and 404. I did take your words to heart, and I did everything I could to try and make amends with myself, to be a better person, I know what had happened was very out of line; but I do not fault you for anything, I forgive you and I know you had your heart in the right place. And I'm so happy I get to be your friend again, to regain that closeness, to have a bond. And, I'm so glad I got to introduce you to both Ana and Marina as well, its been such a wonderful experience. I cherish everything that's happened, even some of the bad because of the lessons it taught me, thank you for a second chance. divider divider

To: Kenny

(Originally written: February 27th, 2025) Sal, one of my best friends for nearly 6 years now, we didn't really talk too much during the year we met (2019), but I do remember quite a bit of our talks in 2020, and as the years passed it slowly grew, and by 2023/2024 I think is when things really kicked into full gear. Even before we actively talked I always thought you were super cool and I'd get anxious, because back then it was a lot harder for me to talk to people, even people who were my friends. By 2024 I think is when everything changed, I had hit probably one of my lowest points since 2021, I had lost the three most important people to me and I felt like I had nobody I could turn to. In a state of despair, I was reaching out to pretty much anybody I could. But I didn't really open up to anybody, but as days passed I ended up opening up to you about what had happened, and you then started to help me, you were there every time I hit the lowest I could go and gave me the company, support and advice that I needed, long messages that I still look back at read to this day, advice I still use even now. You are always a wonderful person to talk to, and fun to be around, I love listening to you yap about your interests whether it's through texts or voice messages. You mean a lot to me, and I look forward to every message and always try to reply even when I'm busy, and I always feel safe/comfortable talking to you or coming to you when I need anything. I'm glad I get to call you a friend, and consider you close, thank you for sticking around. divider divider

To: Ria

(Originally written: April 15th, 2025) Ria, I believe we first met in September of last year (2024), a mere 2 months after the other two crazies, and it was by the time I fell back into YTTD, me being the shy person I am I didn't really talk much at the start and we didn't really connect until this year (2025), but I consider you close regardless. You're really fun to hang around and utterly chaotic and fun to talk to. I love all the stupid events and calls, goofy message reactions and all that jazz, and I appreciate having you as a friend, someone I can talk to. I feel like you always lighten the mood with your energy and humor, and I admire that. I feel like you bring people together, too, it's such a wonderful thing.

(Added onto: June 15th, 2025) Everything I said before still stands true, and even stronger than before. You really do bring everyone together, and you are a fun chaotic personality to be around; and in a way I admire it. The events and such bringing us all together, it's genuinely the most fun I've had in years, even when it's stressful you always seem to lighten the mood in some way. Music talks, game talk, voice acting; all of it... I always look forward to it, not to mention your concern or awareness when something's off; you're a wonderful friend. One of my best friends, you've checked in when I seemed upset or quiet; it makes me feel like I finally found my place, like I belong. And I couldn't possibly be happier, as time progresses and the more lore I drop; you're one of my closest friends, too. You're very important to me, and I'm glad that I get to be your friend. divider divider

To: Jasmine

(Originally written: August 21st, 2025) Jas, (wip i pray to god nobody opens this page before im done writing it AUGH just give me time) divider divider

To: Daniel

(Originally written: April 15th, 2025... Edited April 23, 2025) Dan, you Scottish bastard... when you and I met, I was in a really dark place, desperately trying to find my place again and pick myself back up, and you were one of the first people in that dark place that I met. We connected almost immediately, and I was so excited to meet somebody who shared my favorite band and over all just... have my music taste, especially with how much music itself was helping me cope. So to meet somebody else who had such similar tastes, made me feel so much less alone. And it's been so fun with every little conversation we have, even if it took a lot of time to be able to properly talk. You really pulled me out of a dark spot in my life, whether you realized it or not, I'm so glad I met you. I consider you a close friend, regardless of how much we talk, I enjoy your presence. I have fun picking you apart.

(Added onto: June 15th, 2025) As time passes, the more I spend time with you now that I finally get the proper chance to, it's been a blessing. You're so much more than just another Starset fan, you're my best friend. All the little things, all the memories and reminiscing on how everything came to be; the beginnings of our friendship and such... I love looking back on it, and digging into it too; explaining my perspective and hearing yours whether it be over the buh talks, old conversations we remember or anything of the sort. In an odd way, I consider it some sort of closure, I'm not really sure how to explain it; I guess I blamed myself a tad not knowing what was going on behind the scenes but... in the end it seems we have a lot more in common than I could have ever imagined. You mean a lot to me, and I cherish you a lot, and I'm so honored to be your friend, apart of your messy canvas. I will always be your friend, no matter what, even if it's so "questionable" or will screw me over, you are one of my best friends; and that is final. Thank you, you disaster. divider divider

To: Zak

(Originally written: February 27th, 2025) Star, another one of my best friends who I've known for about 4 years now, I believe. You met me when I was in a pretty dark place, and I was seeking out new people to cope with the loss of one of my friends in May of 2021, distracting myself with fandom. You're someone really fun to talk to and to be around, and incredibly creative and kind. Fun to talk about oc's and fandom with, even if we don't share many fandoms it's still fun whenever you talk about your current interests or just whatever is on your mind. And, you're a great support too; you were there for me when I thought I lost everything in 2024. You are probably one of my friends with the biggest timezone gap, which is kind of funny to deal with too because of our different schedules. It's just fun all around, in a way, and I'm glad to call you a friend. divider divider

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