Personal updates for the most part leave a message here if you wish (you probably don't)
If you don't know me, I'm Doctor (it/it's) and you can find me in most fandoms, especially House M.D. & Hannibal. When I say I'm everywhere, I'm not joking. I've probably heard of everything atleast once in my life time & hyperfixated on it for a few days at least. As for hobbies, I really don't do anything but listen to music and think. Not that I'm 'good' at thinking, I just pass (for someone unable to form coherent thoughts).
I am a really weird person, you probably won't like me too much if you can't match my freak. I have controversial views and ramble on extremely often. If you hadn't caught on by now; I am incredibly narcissistic. I try not to let it show for the most part. I am plagued with autism and chronic headaches (and pain, although I talk about the headaches way more often). I am neutral on almost everything and I do not have emotional attachment to most things or people, so I might seem uninterested in some conversations. If that's the case, I probably am, sorry.
You probably read the first few words and realized it's stupid to continue reading. Very well, I wouldn't want to read this either I just like talking about myself
Oh also I have I think the worst grammar ever known to man. I am not fluent in English no matter how much I try to convince myself. I mainly speak hungarian. Do not make fun of me for using expressions wrong I'll jump in front of you
June 22, 2025
I am in a state of peace knowing I won't have to ever step my foot in the prison building they call 'School' anymore for another few months. Until September. Unfortunately I still have to go on Thursday to say goodbye to all the stupid children that really never even cared about me in the first place because I AM A NINTH GRADER NOW!!! God bless. Eightht grade was the most traumatic thing I could endure besides for sixth grade which I don't even dare speak about. I'd go back in time and pat my own back if I could it's horrible
^ Update from June 29, 2025 I did go and it was really hot. They didn't waste much time and I didn't pass out this year so... win?? Also I wore a little bowtie
I'm making my friend watch Hannibal. Oh yeah. She likes Will I think I win
June 24, 2025
She loooves Beverly Katz 👀 She's the Beverly to my Will pretty much. It's really serving cunty aroace & pathetic bisexual up in here. Speaking of Beverly and Will I think they'd be besties if it was written by anybody else. Which Really I think the show's writing is absolutely peak (even though alot of it is just the books) but I mean I'd pay to see that. Honestly recently I've been just tweaking the fuck out casually. No not casually I genuinely feel so unstable and insane and I'm just spiraling but not in the I FEEL SO FUCKING HORRIBLE I NEED TO KILL MYSELF way I just. Want to rip my skin off with my teeth and claw at the walls and jump around and be locked up cause honestly that shit would FIX me. I'm not joking padded rooms would fix the everliving shit out of me if my boyfriend can't cause what the hell bro I can jump around and lay around and scream and nobody would say shit?? Hello?? Okay?? If I ever grow to move out (unlikely, I'll kill myself way before) I'll have my own house and I would dedicate a whole room to just be a sensory room. Padded walls and cool lights, even thinking about it makes me ache to curl up in a ball and roll around and claw at myself and everything around me. In a good way. Question mark? Well Actually I think it is because I'm autistic so maybe not that good. All this talking about my fixations but I never ever get to actually stim and my emotions feel so repressed and I think it's the main reason why I'm tweaking. I'll try going crazy in a bit actually I have free will. This is why actually getting my thoughts out is helpful, I jusr had an epiphany!!! I'm free!!! I can do whatever I want!!! Well, besides for stay up past 2 (I have internet restrictions sos I'M LITERALLY 3 YEARS AWAY FROM ADULTHOOD FUCK YOU MEAN!!!) but life is my canvas and I have the paintbrush and paint to make it colorful and. Fun What am I waiting for atp
Let's go fishing
What the fuck was I on at midnight
June 27, 2025
It's so hot I feel so greasy and sweaty and I might evaporate as if I am water. I have no words of poetry right now I'm just really thinking about Beverly & Will dynamic. It was almost as they were made for me and my friend. It's really giving Reagan Ridley and Brett Hand from Inside Job No? No? Nudges (also I have a big fat obnoxious grin on my face) I still get Inside job videos on my TikTok FYP funnily enough it's been half a year since the hyperfixation and they still think I'm going strong Umm Nooooot reallyyyy..
Oh also I have a fuckass ant infestation I have no clue where they're coming from hut they're everywhere and I also think a puddle of my own sweat is forming underneath me.
Hi it's later I'm going to watch Community and I didn't sleep all night so I took a nap earlier
July 06, 2025
Hallo hallo... no updates for a while because I've been EXTREMELY fatigued but now I have enough power to hop on rentry, so why not? All I've done so far is get into Sherlock and watch one to two episodes of Community. I love shows, if you couldn't tell, it's easily the best type of media to me. I've also been meaning to watch Oh Grow Up but I don't really feel like it. Also watched a bit of silent hill 2 gameplay buttttt it's not going anywhere I fear
July 23, 2025
It's been a while. Hello! I like Nigel a normal amount. I don't get the appeal in yumeshipping (mainly, I've had fixations every now and then that resulted in me claiming they are my partners, but that passes in a month or two) but Nigel is. Nigel. He's reallyyy hot. I'm sorry
not funny i really need to kiss him
anyways no random facts i ran out of things to say
August 30, 2025
Hello! It's my birthday. I am officially a big boy now and I can actually say I'm 15 without it being a half lie. For my presents, I got a bunch of clothes and a bit of make up. Recently I've been a bit happier but extremely tired. I'm scared for school, not because of my grades but because of my energy. I am not accommodated in the slightest and I'm worried it's going to affect things worse than it already has. I'm trying to fix my sleep schedule but even after sleeping from 9 PM to 9 AM I'm just as tired as ever!!