i wrote two dumb things today
oh also my borthdau comin up and i hate that
anyway heres my yap while i was taking a shit 😭😭
residential. residential. residential. residential. residential. residential. residential. residential. residential
residential. residential. residential. residential. residential. residential. residential. residential. oh god. in bed. in bed. in bed in bed sleep sleep sleep and every day night id sleep oh my god am i tweaking am i schizophrenic how do i know all of that ever really happened how do i really know but i remember i remember oh my god i remember oh god oh god oh god and of course my bitchass crying over this bullshit that i fucki g gotmyself into and i behged i begged my mother why why didnt she keep me why didnt i stay at home why not one day to say goodbye and why was i tehre why sleepig in thsoe beds why taking their pills why that school the journals the markers the bathroom the shwoers the fence the anger the crammed crammed crammed room god it was a crammed environment and nobosy will know nobody could ever know because there is literally no footage of the place at all except for like 2 hella outdated images of still a different building. no one will believe me no ond cares whycw as s i rhere was i there am i losing my shit was i alive oh god and the only thing that kept me through it god i hate the thought now oh my god oh my god oh my god this shit is this even real ehat if im making things up oh god and not just residential oh god the hospital the hospital grh hospitam rhe hospital waiitng waiting waiting waiting the piercing the towels boats gym volleyball shark line or whatever the fuck it was called oh god no please 1 year ago fuck no it was over a year ago why why why why why let me go back its too long let me go back tbis year it will be two years have i changed whats happened what am i doing and why why did i sleep there why did i meet all those people why wby why why why why was it me that was forced to watch every phase of the people that would come and go and come and go knowing i would never see them again with each passi g patient why am i here why whycdid they do that why did i do this why am i cknplaining why do k care abiut something so long ago oh my god i miss my life even though im livi g it i miss my room evem though i havr my room am i tweaking is it normal to like "go back" when having flashbacks or somethi g do i even really havw ptsd am i valid or am i just a crybaby and it hurts knowing how many people and even exactly who if ever reading this would cringe and cackle asl and know only the 3 close people in my family would care yet i never saw them they always fought eevry time they visited why couldnt i have had my family why was i linited to 7 minutes dvery other day on the phone with my family why was rhat it why did theu want us to "focus on treatment" you fucking idiot "its your outside life not whilr your in here" its my family you are genuinely so stupid i dont give a fhck if its yoru job oh my god the tv and gratefuls and lunch breakfa s t dinner oh my god yhe food evey tday the dbt books and sheets points buvks oh god where did they go where did i go why am i gone why am i cryk g over somethi g that was almost 2 years ago oh god it hasnt been that long but it has oh god i was a child i was a child i was a child why i hate this and when i look around i only see my room my residential room or my hospital room oh god the different hospitals why did they move me so much im tired i was so tired oh god crying about something this meaningless wont do anything it wont make anyone love you more so maybe we should just shut the hell up and idfk go to sleep or stop being a little baby .but if anyone else went through that wouldnt they br a "baby?" no, just me because no one else wiuld even go thriufh that brcause theyre not that fucking stupid oh my god what am i doing im scared why am i alone where can i go thw lies the liar the everything all lies all the truth my god im stupid crying about the littlest pettiest things, the deodorant the showers the shampoo and body wash cups the limits everything. he would laugh at this because they all would because i am because no way someone can even bring themself to be so corny fucking god
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today was gooddd i made chiliii so yummyyy umm my cat nonchalantly peed in his chewy box we spent 30 on for him 💔 ummm instareeld been tuff and shi oh and like thwres this corny stuff great goon its too long for me there is no lore in therr whatsoever so keep it pushin buddy.ummmm my stepgrandmas birthday is the day before mine and stuff and filler ernmmm friend drama been CRAZ actually but too much to even write about gawd dayum... giodbye brosquito... 🌽🏀 🚨 OUT !!!!!!!