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status +
- I live with multiple mental health conditions including HPD, BPD, bipolar disorder, paranoid schizophrenia, AuDHD, CPTSD, OSDD1a, early signs of ASPD, and NPD. These all affect how I communicate and connect with others, so please be patient and gentle with me, I’m doing my best😖
- I'm very unstable, I get angry and jealous easily and it's very strong.
- I have
- I’m POC: Mexican-Puerto Rican, Jamaican-Angolan, Tongan, Italian-German, Native American, and Chinese-Japanese. I reclaim slurs.
- I’m very protective of my friends. I get attached super easily, and once I care about someone, I see them like family. This can make me clingy, a bit jealous, or possessive. I don’t express it in obvious ways, but it’s still there.
- I can be suffocating toward people I love, but I truly want to make them happy.
If you’ve wronged someone I care about, or if they dislike you, I might also dislike you or be rude. That’s just how I am. - I struggle with separating obsession and love
- I can be suffocating toward people I love, but I truly want to make them happy.
- My DMs are always open, even if my status says “dni” or “iwc.” You can vent any time, I’ll listen ૮˶´ᗜ`˶ྀིა
- Even if we aren't close, I'm okay with the topic of weight in a vent, but otherwise please don't bring it up unless close!
System notes
- We switch between “I/me” and “we/us” depending on who’s fronting! Sorry if it’s confusing.
- We use PluralKit (PK) and Simply Plural (SP), but most of the time we’re too scared to use PK
- I’m an alter in a system, not the host. I usually front with others, not alone.
- I’m an introject of several characters, but only slightly from each one. I’m very source detached.
- On Discord, our status shows who’s fronting:
- “f. xxx” = the one fronting
Psychosis
- I struggle with delusions involving angelic identity. During psychotic episodes, I may believe I am an angel or a god. Sometimes I know it isn’t real, but it still feels real. Other times, I fully believe it.
- If I’m in an episode please don’t play into it or affirm it “you are,” “I get that too" playing along can cause me to spiral or become overwhelmed and/or aggravated
- If I bring it up, you can gently remind me that it isn’t real, but don't be mean about it
Empathy
- I have a strange relationship with empathy. It’s very “all or nothing.”
- Toward people I love, I can be deeply empathetic.
- Toward others, I may feel nothing. It’s hard for me to regulate.
- In arguments, I may come off as petty or cold. It’s not that I don’t understand—it’s just how I emotionally function, especially due to my ASPD/NPD/BPD.
- I do have empathy. I can feel it. But it’s hard to balance.
- Please don’t dehumanize me because of this, I’m not dangerous! I just struggle to show empathy unless I feel connected.
- You can vent to me anytime (just ask first). I can usually understand the issue, but my response may vary depending on my emotional state.
- I attach so I can feel. I often become obsessive; it’s how I form emotional connections. My love is either too much or not enough.
Physical stuff
- I experience a lot of physical pain, especially when walking. I complain about it often, while for other alters it’s more bearable
- I might cancel hangouts or calls because of pain. It’s not personal, I’m just hurting
Name stuff
- I go by so many names idrc which ones you use atp! I just want them to either be from my name list or my ID's
ID boundaries
- most are right here
- these are mostly a comfort thing so please respect my boundaries.
Extra
- I use reclaimable slurs, make sexual jokes and kys/kms jokes. Sometimes I joke about my trauma or things I've struggled with, (ed, drugs, sh, ect) but I try to keep them or a minimum.
- please let me know if you feel uncomfortable. I will stop making those jokes around you if necessary
- I get like super attached very easily! I can become possessive and jealous if it's over someone I really care about. I also have bad anger problems and big problems with impulsivity.
- There are many people I love and get 'possessive' and jealous with, but if it's about my sisters, I am VERY close minded. I will not hear to reasoning, if you insult them, wrong them, or hurt them in any way you will be blocked immediately and I'll hate you.
- I believe that fiction does affect our reality and that there's a fine line between it affecting people it not affecting people. I honestly think that we need to separate it from reality, but at the same time we shouldn't do that by supporting sa, incest, ect bc of it and that our morals should stay intact
- (In short, I don't like proshippers+ even with their reasonings!)
- Lots of times I do things out of spite and only feel regret if it harms people who did no wrong to me/people I care about, but mostly, I only care if it affects people I care about.
- I am also super self destructive, so keep that in mind 💔