phai / shin he/any minor 7/20 fictkin
fandoms rants (be warned) atabook
hi im phai and this rentry will be an info dump about myself, all the important basic info you need to know is written above!
alrighty... here is a bunch of information about #phaishin, thank you for caring enough to want to learn more about me.
starting off strong by saying im a phainon fictionkin! yeah i have dreams of being in phainons shoes, yeah i feel like attacks to phainons character are personal attacks to me, yeah i dont car if you say im delusional lalala~♬ this also means i would appreciate if... other phainon fictionkins wouldnt interact... that would be awkward haha... there can only be one phainon in a cycle at a time amirite? ok even though i am a big fan of phainon, i do not have him e6s5... heck i dont even have him e2.... i dont even have any merch of him.... BUT HEY THAT MEANS NOTHING!! in the end it matters how much i feel towards him right haha, this doesnt make me any different from other phainon fans besides money or something yay! fun fact i kin phainon, joonghyuk, homura, and saiki hmm... #watdatmean... #timeloop.... #33550336... #1863... #help... some other characters i majorly kin are miles morales (spiderverse movies), tony stark (mcu), peter parker (specifically tom holland), mydei, and anaxa.... you decide what that says about me okay i cant tell if theres a pattern or not this time.
hey its the level 1 noob of typology here. since its summer break im free!! 5 years ago i took a test that said i was intj 5w4... 5 years later i. hey guys its me esfp 2w1 sp/sx 258 (sp2-sx5-sp8) ok so why did not one tell me that in my tritype i put 5 but in bracket i hate all of you. also why did not one tell me i made a new section here and kept my thing below i hate all of you this is so embarrassing. if anyone tells you im intj 5w4 sx/so 528 (sx5-sx2-sx8) ili-1te A/O/tw[D]Eg /R/luA[I]mel-chol chaoneu then theyre lying im clearly esfp according to @everyone because of how i act online lol.
anyways... info about my personality... hmmm.... well first of all i think everyone already knows that im unserious and can act pretty childish. i hate admitting this but this ive lost a couple of friendships by acting this way. when i say i act unserious i genuinely mean it, no matter the situation im in i dont take ANYTHING serious. the best word that could fit me would probably be unfiltered. this also means that im not very empathetic. some of you guys would probably think this isnt true or something since i try comforting people to the best of my abilities, but thats grossly enough only when i have the energy to or the rare chance that i actually care (secret option is if i consider you as a friend/think we're close enough). yeah just in general please try not to vent to me, if you want genuine and helpful responses you can go to literally anyone but me. my replies are terrible in the way they lack the genuine care and they can lowkey sound pretty dry IM SORRY. this kind of goes for me as well, i dont like venting to people and making everything sad so dont ask me to open up please and thank!! if you REALLY want to know my DEEPEST DARKEST LORE then i'll probably mention it a few times in a lighthearted funny joke way so youre aware but you can laugh along with me! i like seeing people happy i dont like negative people. but anyways yeah i dont really care for much and i like to joke around about everything. ok wait i gotta let everyone know that the things i joke about tend to fall under the sensitive/dark humor jokes.. i jest around things like self harm, suicide, accidents, degrading myself (not in THAT way ok), etc.. STOP I DONT MEAN ANYTHING I ACTUALLY SAY THOUGH!! i tend to use humor as a coping mechanism or something so PLEASE DONT CANCEL ME i think i can joke about these things ok i have the pass.. i would say something like "im going to drink and drive" or "im going to kill myself if (insert whatever)" BUT IM NOT ACTUALLY GOING TO DO ANY OF THAT ITS ALL JOKES YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE IM AN EMANATOR OF ELATION PLEASE!!! im TERRIBLE with boundaries and wont think much if you tell me to stop doing something, its best if you mute/ignore/block me when i do that, yeah i'll get angry but its better for you and i'll realize later on that im an ignorant chud. i lowkey also act passive aggressive with others, IM SORRRYYYY I NEVER MEAN TO SAY THINKS WITH ILL INTENT!! NO I DONT HATE YOU ITS JUST THE WAY I TALK!!! its hard for me to think of myself as anything but right when im in an argument with others, it also means i can get very simple minded and selfish only thinking about my situation and myself.. because of this i can get annoyed and angry quick and usually rant about unnecessary nothingburger stuff to some friends. if i was in 2020 i would say i have anger issues bakugo OK BUT GENUINELY ITS SO EASY TO PISS ME OFF ITS ALMOST PISSING ME OFF. im pretty avoidant + isolate myself a lot, i think a lot in like an all or nothing where im either in an "i love my friends" mood or "i want to cut everyone off" mood. i dont really see many people i talk to as friends, this is also mostly since i dont know when other people see ME as a friend. i get extremely paranoid over people i consider my friends, i will also take criticism very negatively like wow you really want to watch me suffer wooow. ok more positive stuff i think! i like acting positive and whimsical with other people, i'll say this for like the 70th time that means i love to joke around about everything with others (i will adapt my humor with yours lowkey)! i tend to pick up little things from others, for example: i like heart reacting to things because of THAT server, i like to send drool emojis because of roxy in 2023, i like sending joy emoji and flush emoji because of vago, so on and so forth! wow i cant believe im realizing that im probably a bad person to be around. HEY I TOLD YOU!!! let it be known that i like observing/analyzing people, mostly the way they communicate. im not like level 999 at it but i still do it anyways. yes i also overthink when i feel like someone is the slightest bit of angry at me; when this happens i usually just double triple quadruple keep texting to fix my mistake or i just delete my messages ok.
if youve talked to me a few times then you probably know that im the biggest procrastinator out there.. however when i get the motivation, here are some of my interests and stuff! i loved playing hsr during the amphoreus era, please talk to me about amphoreus maybe. i like reading science fiction, horror, psychological horror, and fantasy. i'll probably make another separate rentry that has all my fandom interest things. UPDATE FOR THE PREVIOUS SENTENCE, I MADE FANDOM RENTRY ITS LITERALLY ABOVE yay!! i also LOVE to write, i have MOUNTAINS OF PILES of lore for my ocs and their worlds that ive written a bit too much about. i think you could guess, but i also like to draw sometimes! im TERRIBLE at digital art and lowkey trying to find good rendering artstyle, but traditional art i think im good enough. random note if you even care but i lowkey want to make a visual novel one day! i can still write and transfer my lore in them... i can still draw character sprites and cutscenes in them.... visual novels are so peak its been my dream to create one since i was 7 and watched bijuu mike play ddlc! my current hyperfixations are spider-man, the avengers, and omniscient readers viewpoint. yes i said hyperfixations because i genuinely cant stop talking about these things in particular, not to mention the multiples of merch ive bought of spider-man that are now in my room collecting dust because i genuinely dont know what to do with them besides stare and drool completely and sadly aware that i will lose interest in spider-man one day and all these merch will have gone to waste. BUT I WONT LET THAT HAPPEN BECAUSE BRAND NEW DAY IS COMING OUT ON JULY 31ST AND BEYOND THE SPIDER-VERSE IS COMING OUT NEXT YEAR!! buy me spider-man related things #thanks. omniscient readers viewpoint volume 4 physical novel copy official english translation is coming out on july 21st as well, i gotta look forward to purchasing book with cute sangah as the cover!! BEFORE YOU ASK NO IM NOT A PHYSICAL NOVEL READER ONLY i just like having the books too haha, OK BUT DONT ASK IF IM DONE READING NO IM NOT!!! also let it be known that i have yet to read the webtoon, i'll read it when im done the webnovel.. since this big paragraph section is about me non-personality wise, i will say it all the way down here about something very important. my opinions can seem kind of controversial to regular people such as certain mental disorders does not automatically make someone "evil," blackwashing is not a thing, racism against white people is not really a thing, HETEROPHOBIA AS WELL IS NOT A THING, so on so fourth opinions like that. i dont really talk about stuff like this with people besides a specific two friends, so you dont gotta worry about me whispering in your ears telling you this. i'll probably make a rentry expanding on these kind of ideas #ok. i talk too much #sorry. #igottastopapologizing. update on that rant rentry yes i have a rant rentry yeah its up there too yay!
ok i dont really mention this a lot but it might be obvious that im an age regressor. lately EVERYONE AND THEIR MOMS have been hating on age regressors because they think its equivalent to age play which means they havent done even the tiniest bit of research aka do one google search. the main reason why i act to childish is because i involuntary regress into more of an annoying little bratty elementary kid without even realizing. WAIT.... age... REGRESSOR...?? if its not obvious from my personality paragraph section yeah i have attachment issues as well. as i also mentioned earlier, i take criticism very negatively to the point i feel pain, which is also known as rejection sensitive dysphoria. thats why i hate when people have contradictory opinions than me and try to surround myself with people who have similar ideas as me. YEAH YEAH I KNOW THATS EXTREMELY UNHEALTHY AND IM OVERREACTING BRO WHATEVERRRR!!! im slowly learning to be more openminded and accept feedback so thats a start right haha.
i break down my replies into separate messages or add more to it, i dont know why i do that instead of saying it all in one message, or even edit it, ok i dont know. i send a bunch of gifs and react to your messages if im not really sure what to say, but yes i always read everything people say its just that i sometimes dont know how to reply.,. i like when people include me in things, whether its like mentioning me in your carrd/strawpage/rentry/whatever people use nowadays, adding me to group chats or calls, or inviting me to play games. like wow you care for lil ol me..?? wow right now as im typing this im listening to blind spots C418 and im feeling very thankful loving, i appreciate everyone whose done this for me thank you.. also when i play with others i tend to record our gameplay for memory purposes... its a beautiful sensation.... recording what youre doing to look back at it in the future.... oh yeah i also archive them on youtube no this isnt a sponsor im just saying. anyways if we play like roblox or something then theres a high chance i recorded it and uploaded it, never be afraid to ask. if i didnt upload it yet and you ask me about it then youll probably have reminded me and i'll go straight to uploading! but if i didnt record it... send me to hell.
i dabble in yumeshipping... yeah yeahhh no one couldve guessed ok now i feel geeked. currently my main f/o's are miguel o'hara (nonsharing), anaxagoras (familial sharing), joonghyuk (sharing?? idk), miles morales (familial sharing), and lastly phainon (queerplatonic selective). i have other yumeships not mentioned here, but these ones are the ones ive been focusing on the most lately. i like talking to people who also like the characters written above, i try putting yumeships aside to talk about them with others! oh but if youre one of THOSE fans that continuously say things along the lines of "i love [character] more than you!" regardless of sharing status i WILL start ignoring you until we completely cut off contact. yeeaaah yumeshipping is THAT deep... and also because people that try to compete with others about being a bigger fan than the other just makes them insufferable to be around.
yeah i wrote too much i like to write ok, thank you for reading phai info dump i really did dump everything here, ok wait maybe i'll make a quicker summary rentry soon