02.22.2023 ~2:40 AM publish (to our therapist if you see this ignore the time haha...hahah.... please)

yippeee current fixations combined!!!! rentrying , decorating , informational writing and sorting ALL IN ONE!!! and all about our own system experience !! yay !! im going to melt into a puddle.

great another thing to decide the color theme of ... .. . whatever ill go with the daily pink and black :sob:

contents
members
source list
deal w day2day
terms we use
our core
innerwrld
f room
note

trying to go into detail about our system and innerworld !! maybe feelin silly ans sending this to our v cool therapist ??? (we love u !)

go easy on us its a v crowded front rn..

in red = interruptions or someone other than the main writer speaking

members

so honestly our members are very protective of one another. we have a kind of bond where its like best friends but also casual and like.. we're just stuck here together so we make the most of it? tbh i think we wouldnt get along as well if we werent in the same system ?? idk confusing. we like keeping to ourselves / sourcemates (alters of the same origin show/book/movie/etc) but sometimes when new people form with someone of a differant source in front at the time, they usually have a bond of a sort. take an example from lyra when i formed i remember wednesday and enid being there. they were the first ones that met me when i formed and i had a bit of a hard time. i missed my source and my boyfriend will and my daemon pan. enid told me she would do what she could to see if she could find them somewhere (see if they were hiding in the iw or something of the sort) and i was so grateful. wednesday was super kind (even if shes blunt (and emo (rlly emo)) /j) and told me they would keep me company and that she would stay with me while enid looked for will and pan, she basically adopted me. even though we arent from the same source so like idk -lyra (girl u wrote allat :skull: -raven) we maake fun of eachother if you couldnt tell !!

source list

be nice theres kids shows :sob:

brainmade (no source , formed by "idea") , his dark materials (3book + tv series) , tbhk (anime + manga) , wednesday (netflix series) , the Addams family + values (2 movies) , the 100 (loooong tv series) , stranger things (series) , twilight (movies + books) , harry potter (movies + books) , dream smp / minecraft content creators (youtube videos + twitch streams , server lore) , my little pony (kids show) , naruto (anime) , once upon a time (loooong tv series) , seraph of the end (anime) , peanuts (charlie brown + snoopy stuff ur literally insane if u dont know that :((( ), sanrio (hello kitty stuff , onegai my melody anime) , cookie run kingdom (mobile game) , fearstreet (3movie series) .

how we deal with day to day

on a daily basis, we're pretty affected by being alters and parts of a system. sometimes we get overwhelmed and go on "autopilot" for a while or dissociate (a lot alike but dissociating can be worse.) when its crowded, its worse and is very hard to keep focus or have it in the first place lol. it makes it so hard for us to mask "normally". As well as the fact that sometimes, little will want to front. littles are like, impossible to handle unless its your main role :skull: so then we have to have more people in front and it gets crowded and the littles are chaotic so. yeah. bad result. if we can have littles out WITH caretakers in a controlled + private environment , it makes it much less stressful. We love the littles, but they can be devil spawn at times :sob:

terms we use !

as for terms... in all honesty we use whatever feels right. we dont know if youre really supposed to use specific terms but we dont i guess.
front - to have control of the body
form - what happens for you to be an alter within the system
innerworld - the space where alters go when they are not fronting (in depth soon)
dormant - inactive in the innerworld and doesnt front either
switch - when a differant alter takes front / main front
source - media which an alter is "from"
introject - alters who are based off of outside sources
fictive - alter based off of fictional sources
little - alter between ages 0-10

core

our cores name is toby and he is trans and also hes cool ig but hes dormant UGH IM TIRED OF TALKING ABT HIM NEEEEEEEEEXT

innerworld

ok GREAT TOPIC YIPPEEEE
our innerworld is like a kinda mini planet thing ... lets start from the top. so. there are some non human angel / space entity alters so when you .. like idk, zoom out?? there is like a .. space ring where they live. next up. on the planet, there is a small city. there are two buildings, a garden, and then a small jumpable river between the city and a forest. in the two buildings, there are rooms. like literally only rooms. thats it. oh fun thing ig we can teleport bc i dont remember literally any transport path in that thing except hallways. like no stairs or elevators and its TALL buildings so, yeah. teleportation yippee!! each floor has 5 rooms and there are 20 floors each one. lets hope our head count doesn't reach 200 or we gotta expand a little lmao :skull: lets see where whoever the hell is in here lives atm

lyra :: me and will spend most of our time in the garden. we share a room. 18th floor room 3. AND THE VIEW OMG,. the view,,, is wonderful... anyways when are we going to sleep never -raven
yoko :: me and divi share a room 16th floor room1 and i get the shadier side of the room. yippee my girlfriend doesnt want me to toast!!
divina :: lies i want you burnt to a crisp.

wonderful interview folks :sob:

front room

the room is cut into sections and where you are depends on how conscious you are. the front room is really cool and v v v comfy !!! theres like 3 spinny gamer chairs and they spin super fast will got me dizzy on one yesterday and i almost threw up :skull: -lyra. very nice :skull: anyways theres also a couch and coffee table and beanbag chairs and the front desk has a setup and it looks cool but its basic idk . the floor is literally a perfect cool temp to lay on dont ask but it feels so good :sob: we talk a lot in there and sometimes we can like,, skip back a few sections. if were tired. at the back theres a door and we have like aaaa,,, keycard thing idk and if it doesnt work well then.. ur screwed (aka frontstuck).

note

our experience is probably really different from other systems. everyone is differant and espesially in this stuff everyone is super different

qna ??

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