໒꒰՞ . . ՞꒱ა ♡ 08 10 23 , keemun

3 years ago, I fell in love with you at first sight. Honestly I didn't believe in that until I saw you. I have a picture with the time of my first image of you I ever saved: 7:33 pm EST. Days later, I started to read fan fictions. I know they're not canon but it really felt exactly like your character. And then after yearning for so long I decided to play Call of Duty Ghosts, my first log of it was around 7/16/24... I know I shouldn't have waited that much to play but I was nervous! I posted yaps about seeing you on /gameplaying and my first real updated rambles about you were on /kittykeegan, but I'd made plenty of lovemail for you before then... I wish I had archived them to myself.

People would call me "delusional" for loving you, even when I would say I know you're not real. Sometimes I do wish you were honestly... Things would be easier with you here. Stuff has been hard for me lately and I just can't cope that well. But when I think of you, I feel at ease. It's like I'll figure everything out when you're in my head. Maybe that's what love is. I've struggled to know what love really felt like (for plenty of reasons) but whenever I see you or even a mention of you, my heart flutters. I feel my chest get a funny feeling as if I wanna just scream in joy. I kick my feet, I can't stop grinning... I sound silly saying this all.

I can't deny my love for you Keegan. You make me feel so happy. All of my feelings just drip from my fingertips. It's crazy how comforting you are to me and how good I feel even just thinking about you. At this rate I think I'll love you for a very long time... Because you're special to me, and I don't wanna live without you anytime soon. I have a lot of merch themed after you and I hope in the near future I can get more, maybe even an itabag!!! I can only pray to make some money...

There's times that I wonder (if you were real and with me) what you would say in response. I know that's never possible to hear but I think about it sometimes. I feel comforted when imagining you being attentive to me, making me feel special... I know you'd never wanna make me sad, or hurt me. Sure that's the bare minimum but I know you'd do more than that just so I feel very loved.

You truthfully are in everything I see or do. In other characters I like, in food I enjoy, in games I play... possibly even in my mannerisms. I feel surrounded by you despite you not being here. When I daydream about you holding me I feel safe. I love you so much.

My thanks goes to Infinity Ward for creating you. Without you or your comfort I don't know where I'd be now. I will never forget you Keegan, for you are my everything. Happy anniversary... I hope there will be plenty more with you.