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This is Hiyoe's extended! I want everyone to know everything about me. 
My name is Epel, sometimes I go by Hiyoe. I like to call myself Nel instead of Epel ehe pls dont follo I use it to replace my pronouns since I like talking in third person (barely, but there will be some days where I do that.) I'm physically 16. I mainly use She/Her as my pronouns, Lov/Lovs is for fun hehe. I'm an ENTP + ESFP ??, 2w6, and Melancholy-Choleric. I'm Malaysian Melayu and a quarter Indian. I prefer fem terms (miss, girl, queen, daughter) and I don't mind if you use MascNeu on me.
I relate to Tomoehiyori and Aloistrancy heavily, please never seperate me from them. Hiyori is also a close friend of mine! <3 I'm into steampunk related things. I speak two languages only, which are Malay (BM) and English. My English level is B1, my BM is just.. there..? I'm more fluent in BM but I'm currently trying to practice my English so you'll see me talking in the language a lot. I can read Japanese hiragana and Russian letters. I like talking in BM using Russian letters, sometimes, ehe. Almost everything about me changed, after all of the misfortunes that have befallen me this year. I received the help I needed, but it's not doing the magic it's supposed to do.
I don't have interesting hobbies! But I enjoy making rentries like this ð–¹ I also enjoy going outside, especially going to places with many people! aah i wanna go outt.. I ALSO!! hav a cuuute little lovemail for my girlfriend! that I'm planning to send on the day we're going to get marrieeedd! here!
things about me changes constantly
Moving on~, I'm unstable most of the time. I get worse instead of getting better, but this time I won't involve my friends or anyone I like. Sorry to anyone who were my victims during the war. I wasn't well. Next~, I experience body dysmorphia that I can't just cope with agere or cutting. This can last for days. I do regress to the age of 4-5, but I avoid it a lot due to the thing I mentioned earlier. I have this extreme need to look like a little girl, willing to go as far as cutting my legs but none of these would work to make me appear childlike. My thighs are ruined!
I'm having a hard time trying to hold myself back from harming others physically. I'm severely paranoid and will get upset over "tones" of text. Just try to sound overly excited in your texts so I don't have to spend another day crying my eyes out. I'm EXTREMELY sensitive to anything negative towards me. I don't forgive people easily, too. Besides that, I'm also scared of being left alone during my not-so-good moments. I hate it. I haaate ittt... Moving on, I believe this body belongs to someone else. If it weren’t for my love of traveling, I would’ve mutilated this body in ways even I can’t imagine. I also don't believe I am a human. I'm a living mannequin and I've been calling myself this for years. Please don't see me as a human, let alone call me one. Don't treat me like an animal either
(calling me kitten is the only one tolerated. other petnames is ok! platonically or romantically i dont care!) I'm also unaware of my actions and surroundings most of the time, causing me to get in trouble easily without fully knowing about what I did. I'm detached from reality. It's hard to explain, but it's like you're half awake. Because of this, I let my lover or anyone I trust to make decisions for me. I can answer simple yes or no questions about nonrisky things! Besides that, I post my red lines on Twitter. I'm @na770707 I accept follow req! I also would do anything for attention. I would go as far as wearing revealing outfits, touching people's body in a way I shouldn't, infantilizing and sexualizing myself, and more. I'm shy on the internet, so this thing is obviously done irl. I make sexual jokes and use profanity constantly. I'm sorry in advance, I'm trying to get rid of these habits.
My words are not organized and it's just straight up gibberish in my opinion what the hell am I trying to say here.
My stability depends on everyone. It depends on how everyone treats me that day. But I know this is nothing but a bother to everyone, so I mostly depend on my girlfriend, Naru
I love her more than anything, she's the one that decides everything for me. Isn't it sweet? She wants the best for me. I'm not a yume of her, nor a riako. We've been together for years ð–¹ I'm dating her and I see yumes/riakos of her as parasocial fans. I'm the only one that can provide the love she craves, no one else. Not even that teacher, not even you, no one. Please don't address anyone from this media and this media as fictional around me. I'm vry attached to them, and would hate you for the rest of my life if you ever did that mistake intentionally. If it's accidental, then it's alright! Humans, nonhumans make mistakes.
Mentioning this would make me get anxious but I really want to explain these so that you guys wouldn't be confused. This is a coping mechanism. I strongly believe everyone is real, everything is real. I'm lonely. I got no one by my side anymore. I got no one. OTHER than that, I'm also attached to my bigbrother figures, Senaizumi and kazehayaTatsumi! I adore them so much. I'm closer with Senaa, though. He makes me wanna kill myself sometimes ð–¹ i dont mention them much, i dont want to trigger their fanss..
pwoplee ð–¹ : naru, yun, mika, ayase, luron, kio, hiyori, aira, muu, aobanii, tatsunn, senaa, wen, vil, damsel, irie, rosho, ary, jaz, claude, nosh, mizik, hanz yayy !
social medias : tiktok, twt (main) !!
can i include kins? can i? : kagehira mika, ayase mayoi, tsukinaga leo, vil schoenheit, tojo kaname, yoosung.. ++
I can get overly possessive of my friends. Especially if I find you interesting, I'd genuinely slit myself if anyone that I dislike is your friend. BUT hey Naru told me not to do that anymore, so I know not to do that! Moreover, I'm 24/7 online. I like spending my time on Twitter! n whatsapp if that counts.. I lov status spammerrrs
I'm interested in Black Butler, Enstars, Twst, Chinchikurin, PTP, anything heart/love related, Malice@Doll, makeup, VKei, steampunk fashion, ObeyMe, DDLC, Mystic Messenger, insects, and more.
I listen to songs from Guchiry, Slave-Vvr, KAMIJO, Versailles, lynch., Melanie Martinez, Kaya, DADAROMA, gulugulu, and my friends' songs!¡ theyre so good omg