hello hello i am laurence i dont go by any other names outside of people calling me by my character names in roleplaying communities so please stick to preferrably fully laurence or lau. this is sort of my extended which is just 90% yap about me and other things whatnot. i exclusively use they/them, please do not refer to me as anything else.

i have prominent emotional issues and anger disregulations, which highly affect my friendships and general interactions. always interact with care and acknowledge that i might not understand what you imply / take it the wrong way. my enneagram is ISFP 485 4w5(sw5/8) ELVF Mel-Phleg

i suffer from an almost chronic form of exhaustion and mental instability which hinders my energy often so i'm always low on mood and other aspects so dont expect a lot from me especially when unwell... i am physically disabled too so pls bear with me

ive been trying to get better in terms of mental health and trying to become a calmer person however i will always have a bluntness problem and speak my mind directly and assertively so forgive me if i hurt you that way or with my words i genuinely do not intend to hurt anyone. this does not mean im not friendly though i love making friends #cute

unfortunately because of specific circumstances i cannot get a diagnosis however i heavily speculate i have a branch of c-ptsd and borderline personality disorder, paired with the fact both of my parents have said disorder and my mother is diagnosed with ptsd. i have an unorthodox amount of other issues i wont get into so its just left ambiguous i promise im not evil ok? ok. i have a lot of memory issues as well so please dont put extreme expectations on me to remember people, identities, events, and similar

im as dense as a rock when it comes to undertones and social ques so please be honest and clear with me and your intentions or simply just use tonetags around me also please do not openly express any clinginess or attachment toward me as i will very much likely discourage and distance myself from such advances and behaviours #traumaresponse sry

i am a misanthrope and have a general dislike to humanity and have had these views for a very long time please do not try to trivialize or make fun of these views of mine because they root from extreme dysregulation and past problems. they will not leave as they have become apart of me, hence why i hardly want to acknowledge i am a human myself.

my identity is shaped by my life events, personal experiences and fixations meaning a lot of my life is dictated by what happens to me in the meantime especially mood and behaviour. i would go as far to say i am high maintenance with certain people or during certain periods of emotional withdrawal

i love doing things that tie to my creative process and thinking such as writing, scribing, designing and creating artworks. i am a 2nd year graphic design student and solo writer with my whole world of ocs and their stories alike. ive project coordinated several other things and events in the past and am a known figure in the roblox roleplaying community

im a selective sharing pieck finger yumeshipper whilst simultaneously heavily identifying as said character #selflove ig lol.
im not exactly a larp as ive watched aot but have not been in the fandom until recently due to personal past prejudices and unsolicited hatred (blame the fandom and how bad it presented itself lowkey) anyways i am piecks true partner and fiancee go check out /selectsharing

i do not enjoy being percieved by those outside my circle. in a gentle way, leave my name out of your conversations

i used to have an unhealthy fixation on bad media and if you still associate me with it in any way know i will cut contact with you permanently because i dont want to be remembered being into that forever in someones mind. im moving on and trying to heal so if i knew you and cut you off, it was likely 100% for a reason because i never cut people off without one and hardly cut people off at all due to guilt

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