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On Friday, I finally received your ashes. You came in a tiny, navy blue box, and with you there were trinkets to remember you. A small vial with your fur in it, including a tag that said your name. Then, a little wooden carving that had paw prints and the words "Forever" on it. But what broke me down the most was the card I got, and the pictures with your paw prints on them. When I opened that card, I expected something smallβ€”A simple "My condolences for your loss," though that wasn't the case. Instead, I read a multitude of messages from the doctors that took care of you when you died. I broke down into tears the moment I realized it wasn't just one half-assed message, and I couldn't bear looking at the two pictures with your paw prints. I sobbed. I wouldn't stop sobbing. At times I would, but five minutes later I'd be back to square one. I never realized how much I still missed you. It's been over a month and my mind has been clouded with the problems life keeps throwing at me. I haven't been given a moment to peacefully mourn you. Yet, finally in that moment, I was able to. Even for just a second before things went to shit again. However, no matter the amount of bullshit I have to endure out here, my mind is always on you. I know if you were still here, you'd be at my chest or my side, trying to comfort me through everything. I miss letting you scratch me up, Tally. Even when Finn decided to visit me for a while after your death, I couldn't handle him scratching me or playing with me the way you did. It isn't the same. Nothing will ever be the same. Nothing will ever compare to how much you impacted my life, even if you weren't in it for long. You will always be my daughter. You will always be my baby. I love you.


Diary Archives to you:
01/01/2026
on a Brighter note, here's my newborn:
guy went up To my Mom outside holding this Angel and he said he'd Been going Around the neighborhood Asking if They were Anyones kitty. nobody Knew shit. so Obviously my mom took Them in and now they're staying in my Room! their back Legs are Apparently paralyzed and they can Only crawl. 😞 i named Them nightwing (from majority vote, it was either that or Grayson) They are slowly Warming up to me I love Them very much. πŸ˜™ now i have THREE babies. πŸ˜‡ mouse, skip, and nightwing Woooaaahhh this lineup goes craaazy!! πŸ™‚β€β†•οΈ happy new year i'm glad I Started it off with This little critter. i Hope my second son Skip Skip isn't Jealous. i Still love you ok...Kisses and Hugs my boy πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•


^ stole this off a Rentry with some Html stuff and It's Kind of lit
Anyway. special Nightwing Update! SHE'S A GIRL!!!! i knew it. i Could tell because she's More cautious Just like my other Girl cats. but she's also Very affectionate and Always wants attention. i love Her. my Girl πŸ₯Ή my Daughter. πŸ’•

01/09/2026 β€” Kiki's entry
oh yeah, and nightwing update: she's well! we're taking her to the hospital in the morning, thank goodness. i've decided to make her official name tallulah~ it's cute and i think it fits her vibe really well. she'll have two personas...her vigilante persona being called nightwing. lol. get it?

01/23/2026 β€” Josu's entry
also big news tallulah has started like? using her back legs to stand properly. Not like human stand i mean like how cats stand yk. on their four legs. yea. idk how she does it i assume shes just putting her strength into it but this is very good news! she is learning! yay! also she has a little bed at rhe window now cuz she loves the window very much. they call her the watcher. proof:

ok dats all i think. byeeeeee ( β˜… βˆ‚ . < ) β™ͺ
random extra note but i just realized how much i use the word anyway. Anyway anyway anyway... clearly i have a fave word.

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Pub: 22 Jul 2019 09:56 UTC

Edit: 05 Apr 2026 16:16 UTC

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