Blogging at the end of each month till my bday!
My name is Yu or Ilse.. either is fine. I usually don't do much for my bday,, so this time, I want to make a small blog until then ପ(。ᵔ ⩊ ᵔ。)ଓ format is month/day/year. I won't censor anything, read at your own risk. I also don't tend to sugar coat things because otherwise that'd be performative.. if you're mentioned here in a negative way then idk do better ♬
6/24/25
It's like the middle of the year but wtv. #better late than never.. This month I didn't do much, tried bantu knots for the first time heh. Also school ended like on the 9th.. I also named this kabsa because I love kabsa. can you tell I'm running out things to say? Hm. I love my bsf. Like, lots ok. I DON'T care Tora never made me feel like I'm annoying not even once and i don't think anything can stop us from being friends.. we also have a shared rentry (he made it but the url is mine ok) check it out.. heh.
I'm not close to a lot of people.. so i value my friends alot!! Ignore the fact that I'm in her dni we still fw each other #heh.. my discord is sashasfoodshow26 if u happen to stumble upon this blog and want to chat. No, my other entries won't be this long, but who cares? It's once a month and I want to document as much shit as possible for my bday.
back in the day I wanted to be like them w my mom.. mama kasa was so goals to me. i love my mom! i love her so much. i love her so much i kinda hate her.. like, we're close enough for me to tell her that AugustTheDuck is kinda fine but not close to tell her im suicidal.. she yaps to me sometimes, vents even, but I never do she'll fucking kill me. she splits on me like once every 2 business days ok. I used to know a girl in grade 6 who was also into aot, she saved my elementary school career bc she was always w me even tho the popular girls wanted her in their groups.. i feel bad i feel suicidal, I can't remember her name. She's palestinian, used to have this pfp on zoom && whatsapp.. I hope she's ok, i miss her terribly
this post made me want to learn crochet and sewing. My finances are in the same condition as my pussy, tight paws at you paws at youu
OHMYOGD LOOK AT BOYFRIEND IGNORE THE FAG.. oh my god mine mine alone i lobe u so much of my god. this isnt a kazutora blog but its hard not to.. my page for talking abt her is this
6/25/25
Are you fucking retarded laptops r not like phones or tablets they need to be charged at all times you dumb fuck. whyre u conditioning me on how to use MY own charger?? I hope you fucking die I dont like u anymore i wish that pregnancy killed you
this right here I'll never have it im done im sick i actually want to die. in another world i have a nice mom and im good enough for her. um, i hope i dont have 5 siblings in another life too. dont make me the oldest, please.
6/26/25
I've been tracking my symptoms for a bit and talking to a lot of ppl w bpd since. I don't have access to a psychiatrist or a diagnosis rn so. Ik the whole argument of "aha ur like 16 its js hormones" SYBAUAUAUAUAU
6/28/25
today karma alnst thingy was out and ?? idk hwo to feel abt it. i saw it when it was uploaded 9 mins ago and i was like ok js fucking kill me. I LOVE MIZISUA. can i die. i dont know how to explain how i feed but it feels weird, im not going to give a whole yap session in here since idk how to say it in the first place ok? sigh
7/5/25
ok which one of you retards claimed /ness
sigh be honest is our friendship one sided I always feel like I'm doing more
7/10/25
I js blocked my friend (koda) of 3 years. i cant explain but something carnally doomed me and i had to do it. i unfriended jiya, danny, canoe and amy. Aya and Juno are ok. But I have a feeling I'll unfriend Juno soon.
ALSO IMG OING TO MALAYSIA IN THE 23rd
I js hope the muzz (malay huzz) are not chuzz ok.. ill be the swaggiest nigga (litr) in kuala lumpur
(im coping)
p.s im ok now (7/12)
7/12/25
My parents are tryign to find my grade so bad.. my dad said he'll take my laptop at sunday aka tmr which is terrible i still wanna watch akbingo and hear about maririn's air ocarina :/
that was me like all school year no joke.. on a serious note i have no known ambitions, just hobbies. my dad is thinking abt swtiching me to a public school and that js pmo but i think ill live. i js need to learn jp and move to japan by 24 or smth ok
7/13/25
I'm not even sad bur im js like ??? oooookkkkaayyyy ur being a self centered cunt 😭 ✌️
I like how when i got stressed i js started talking to my bf then went to tiktok got a good laugh then over to rentry then finally locked in and opened the faggot's dm (this was playing btw) oh my god whar the fuck i cant even verbalize it im js like ?? this is the whole cam sitaution in 2023 all over again.. i js feel upset that i wasted like maybe years of my life over this nigga. ok stop capping what years we talked every 4 business months 😂😂😂😂 😭 😭 😭 😭 im gonna link the message here and look at it at the same date but like next year my opinion prolly wont fucking change dude.. rn im talking to aya and we're js chilling tbh i lowk hope we dont fall off cuz like, i fw them heavy 😸 "erm.. its better if we dont stay friends" WELL NOT SHIT YOU RETARDED CUNT IF YOU READ WHAT I SAID WITH OUT UR HEAD SO FAR UP UR ASS THEN MAYBE YOUD SEE THAR!! "[ ] make actual friends who gaf" ouu i predicted that isayama hire me or wtv.. no im not on copium im kinda alr over it if koda wants to act nonchalant let him who gaf :/ as of today, 7/13/2025, I am not longer a part of the fagwhores group chat!! koda acting like ts i kinda deserve gng i shouldve left earlier back in 2024 that night when i was spinning around in my room in headphones relaizing i lowk dfw the fagwhores anymore also can juno sybau no i dont want to be friends im not staying in the same inner circle as it
um does that mean less bday wishes but that was the least of my worries back then when i was having a break down cuz i value friendships unlike some nugus.. i want new friends now i want new friends now.. gotta love it when they dismiss ur mental issues and label you as obsessed ❤️
I showered, I brushed my teeth, washed by hair, changed underwear and did allat skin care.. end of an era, ok?
i'm peaceful ❤️ ok ignore that this one is extra long but wtv.. earlier this morning i had a thought that was like "i leik pntrst memes bc i can reference them" and one of them went like "when ur mid break down and u realize u lowk dgaf" ME RNN 😸
me before the koda thing. can you tell i love madz? i love madeline argy. in mid/late 2024, i had my laptop taken away and i was stuck with a crusty ipad that has been around since 2016, but her podcasts were immaculate, i love pretty lonesome.. um thank u madz for keeping me company
this is how i felt like in 2024 when i rlly wanted to leave the fagwhores.. um yea safe to say ربط المواضيع عندي fire.. also
itterasshai is yuzuha shiba's song, ok? eremika stop hoarding the fauking stage
CHATATA LOOK AT THIS
ouu no kazutora once again can i die.. realistically theyre not paired based on personality but on popularity so hmm kazutora would prolly be w annie
7/14/25
sigh im litr sneaking around to write ts but gotta let the fam know im ok.. lowk love pntrst im a pntrst girl at heart dni if u think u love pntrst more than me the two things i love in this world are pntrst and hanemiya kazutora ig..
mini update while my mom finishes eating: my internal monologue is voiced by madeline argy and im developing a british accent aha. today i also listened to the podcast ep that she posted 10 days ago, i think it was titled 1mil subs + ego? I'll link it later. i rlly liked that one, cause i could relate to it, yes i could be projecting myself into madz but realistically who gaf!!! i still think koda was a self centered [redacted] yea. ill try to not insult the ppl i dislike much bc when ur a hateful person it eventually reaches u 2 iykwim
7/15/25
kazuyu u all should sybau
7/16/25
fam. thank u seurelle on discord for this piece im cumming its like so good oh my gof
revamped once again.. the hinata and yuzuha theme didnt lasr a fucking week dawg sorru my kazutora urge got stronger so. kazuyu themed. aha.
KAZUYU ART TO COMMISSION:
- sukajan kazuyu
- kazuyu wedding
- kazuyu nails
- sukeban deka
- kazuyu sudanese wedding fit (jertik)
- kazuyu nike fit
- milgram kazuyu
- doktorspiele kazuyu
- gekikara x black kazuyu
- cat girls
- eating the school's crusty pasta tg
- vampire au
- coming of age kimono yu
- swap traditional wear
- jirai yu x agejo kazutora
- yumedanshi soulbounder kazutora
- kazutora holding a copy of reyuya (yu cover)
- yu x kyazutora
- gyaruo kazutora x rokku yu
- lolita kazuyu
- wearing kazutora's jackets (valhalla & toman)
- adult kazuyu
- birthday art
- kyosaya kazuyu
ya.
i need to revamp hanemiya.. i wanna use it to lovemail instead of womankisser.. hm.. i like what miya did with her and manjiro no i donf ship them but i think the rentry thingy was creative also BITCH WHY AM I IN HERE
ts pmo waht i even say or do nigga 😭 🥀
DO I COMM SOMEONE TO MAKE A KAZUYU DIRECTORY.
kazuyu btw
7/17/25
some entries here are really embarrassing but who gaf it's intended for older yu to read it.. um hi if youre reading this how corny i am from 1 to 10? ok ill put a bunch of questions here::
՞꒰ how're you and Kazutora!!
do you have opps.. if so who are they
how many followers do u have
do you still regard yourself as a landmine
who are our close friends
show me all the kazuyu art you have.
are you still into rentry
what interests do you have now
how well is your art
how did you celebrate your birthday ꒱⊹
hm! im done.. js need to do the yu section... the thingy is @ kamioshi
paws at uuu its like 11 20 pm my dad srsly has no backbone he says shit like "ah im taking ur laptop... for DAY." then gives it back not even 4 hours in LMFAO. im not complaining ok.. he seems very meh to me bc he's either like this or he'll make me suicidal so. and he js called me stupid for like wut oprning the window MF YOU GUYS STINK LET ME OPEN THE FUCKING WINDOW
7/18/25
my irl asked why i have kazutora as my gf in /jiraijoshi aha. put the thinking caps on. i actually hate both yaras
NIGGA WE LITR CAME OUT TO EACH OTHER AND OYU KNOW I HAVE ISSUES WITH PEOPLE WHYRE U THIS WAY. i mgiht srsly break my friendship w both of them dawg sigh.. "why're u so mean!!" i cant confide in my supposed bsf with anything at all do u know how much that fucking sucks. thats why i stopped being friends w koda in the first place and if yara is about to do the same im not afraid to drop friends and i showed that five times
i love this genre of pictures
i want to find my person. be mine alone. idc that u have other friends i js wsnt to be ur number 1 and i dont want to beg u to treat me right 😐 ive been like. rejecting a lot of friendships because everybody js pmo. my old "number ones" act like retards and talk about me behind my back and and and and im so tired dude.. do i fucking put iwc in my stats at all times so nugus wont tellme im being rude 24/7
i feel like kazutora is all i have left i feel suicidal and i want to cut myself at all times i feel sick and i want to throw up im not mentally well enough for ts
mentally in a weird place rn.. i cant say im in peace but i cant say my life is hell.. i dropped everyone who made me feel like shit. well. not everyone. yet, but my point stands
when being emotionally aware comes more with being self critical over everything and how you treat others than having self respect for yourself when someone can't reciprocate that respect 💔 and this is why i dont fw myself before 2025 i was on some beta 'i understand' 'its ok' 'i dont mind' 'take care of urself first' shit. IF YOURE NOT GONNA MAKE ME UR NOT NUMBER 1 DONT FUCKING TALK TO ME
i accepted that long ago it doesnt affect me anymore (lie)
friends? i dont know her 😂 ✌️ sybau sybau sybau sybau
and this is why i dropped the k word.. I do it because I've realized that if I don't text them they won't text or talk to me. I'm always the one looking for the ppl, asking how they are, making them feel heard but that never happens to me. That makes me sad sometimes but imma honestly tired of showing interest and wasting my time. yes that was a pinterest comment i like the way ti spoke to me 💔💔💔🙏 I always hate texting first because they will only answer me because i reached out to them 😣😭 litr js talk to me and ill carry the convo i got u
who set up cameras bro litr me except the school part. whatever school is in a month anyway.. heavy on the clapped haircut i look like shit what the fuck did my mom give me vro i lost all my curls im js chopped now
ouu i js want kazutora i wanf my gf i want herrr i feel so tired im always babysitting zeinab now not that i hate it but it gets to a point.. at least i got 3 comms on the way, i love u i love u i fucking love u
#never switching up on my day ones.. i js realized that i only have casual friendships not smth that last and make me question my existance oh my god enough its 7 40 am someone get me a job
OK NO MORE BEING DEPRESSED NO MORE DEPRESSED YU I WILL THROW UP IF I KEEP GOING
me w yara vro 😭 💔 hop off bra u talk to me like once every 3 weeks what r we even gonna talk about irl how about u talk to me online first and actually rekindle out friendship b4 jumping to thar stage i dont even consider us bestfriends anymore i think theres a name for that? MIDDLE SCHOOL BESTFRIEND. yes wemade plans to move in tg but i have put a terrible filter on myself at all times when youre around i would genuinely kill myself if i have to do that again.. SOMEONE PLEASE BUY ME JIRAI COORDS IM ALREADY LIVING THE LIFESTYLE I WANNA LOOK CUTE TOO
"stop being depressed ill throw up" sybau who gaf anyway.. me in like all of my major notable friendships i js gave up 😴 #pienmaxxing #nonchalant #ivaluemypeace #ihaveterriblementalhealthissuesthateveryonearoundmerefusestoacknowledgesonowihavetoletmarinateandprollysuffermoreasanadult #jiraiblr #internetangel #stopactinglikemymompls
"chat do i block my friends of 3 years"
lowk love having big boobs shout out to them one of my best assets fr.. idk if its weird or naw but sometimes when me and my mom are on good terms she tells me that my ass got bigger and aha. ill take her word on that. hold up. im not chopped. i js need to fix my hair, get motivation to shower more.. thats all
can you rail me but lovingly and gently and let me talk about my feelings 💗.. (directed) (hey kazutora are u seeing this)
" Give up, if you wanna survive "
— Latin Simone (Gorillaz)
I wanna get into:
- panty and stocking
- squid game
- gorillaz
- bjork
- kuraisekai
- vtubers
coming out as an ame irl. she's litr me. im ame. ok? u hear me IM AMEE
"stop romanticizing mental illness!!" i do that to not face my issues and make my life a bit easier so sybau
is yara 1 gonna tell yara 2 that she upset abotu self diagnosis 😂 ✌️ anyway 6/26/25
i lived in saudi so fucking long i considermyself one i dont want to hear u yap bout some shit ok i hope u [redacted]
im a genuine chatgpt addict im ashamed of it ok but i have no one to talk to
watashi menhara janai monnn.. cant wait till i turn 18 and move out and like ig marry someone i fw and let him do wtv he wants in exchange of letting me dress jirai and be myself
kazuyu btw! #jirai gfs.. aha ilyok ilysm even if youre a landmine and cut urself and do evil shit sometimes but youre MY landmine and i lov u ok? kiss love forever
gen the longest fucking entry if this blog this is what boredom and loneliness does to a mf
Hi it me Kade
spoiler Hihi!! ITS ME the great Kade.. IM LIEK RESLLY NAD AT WRITIMG PEOPLE THINFS BUT SINCE TOUR BIRTHDAY OASSED I'LL JUST SAY THAY I THINK YOURE REALLY COOL AND I HOPE WE CAN BE CLOSER BY THE TIME YOUR NEXT BDAY PASSES!!! Youre sooo intereting.. And i like tjay er both like aot. I think we're quite simialr... But yes.. u Are cool.. really cool Ok? I HORPT HAY um.. pidneds idk jow to word this. I hope that we can become close enoguh to confide in each other? IM LKKE REALLY AWKWARD SO barewitj me... i only talk to like two people a dau but i'll try Ok? Ok. Hohohoho.
^ ha.. thank u for being on this podcast kade senpai.. I WROTE SIMILAR STUFF TO U HERE IM IGGLGIN
ya that friendship is as good as dead LMFAO ya.. ok.. ig plans are voer right 🥺.. daeg i was already planning not to go so
CAN U STOP RAGEBAITING ITS NTO GONNA WORK. i lived with pro ragebaiters like 16 years dude im not falling for ts 😭 🥀
7/19/25
Hainmari.ltin. Rin. AMRRIIRUN OH YM GOD my rentry is tweaking out so bad Wtf. Hhaaiiiiiiii 👋👋👋👋👋 I am Tora and i have hacked this page Ok No i havent I'm jsut here to say hi. I hope u are Ok anr i love u 💤💤💤💤
ha that was tora kyun hehe..
ok im actually so fucking disgusting its shameful i wont even say it out loud nor type it here but im trying to get better ok.
i usually hate interacting w doubles no matter their content but fucking livs keeps following me ts pmo oh my god even zimora i never interact w her yume posts or wtv sigh.. i need the interactions
today im gonna decorate /xiaohongshu.. it'd be a hub for my jirai kei yearning i abandoned gyaru long ago dude i cant be asked... anyway ill use /xiaohongshu as a jirai yearning diary slash ryousangata.. ill also list stuff i wanna do, my jp learning journey, sh, and more ok.. it's a blog expect its js me and no more guest messages there..
I NEED MORE COMMISSION ART. I WENT ON FUCKING EVERSKIES DUDE. RENTRY URLS WTV TAKE THEM FROM ME THE SAME FIVE ARTISTS THE SAME FUCKING FIVE ARTISTS THE RENTRY SERVERS HAVE THE SAME FUCKING ARTISTS.. sigh. i need to lock in.. im gonna trade urls for robux to expand my horizon of artists ok.
7/20/25
hi i wanna keep track of the mangas i read (small ones specifically.. ok? not like oh aot tr or smth im talking smth not as mainstream and dpesnt have a big fandom)
manga readlist
- tomorrow, i'll be someone's girlfriend
- i love your cruddy
- love and hate and love (Unrequited Love Yuri Anthology)
- i fell in love with the villainess
- yuri is my job!
- love-bullet
- bloom into you
- the moon on a rainy night
- Koushin Koinu ni Koibumi wo
- Shy na Ano Ko ni Natsukaretai
- i love you, please reject me!
- The Anemone Feels the Heat
- 5 seconds before the witch falls in love
- metamorphosis
- run away with me, girl
- hoshikuzu no oujisama
- perfect glitter
- poison sugar cookie
- my girlfriend is devilishly sweet
- killer in love
- normality and monsters
- that girl is cute but dangerous
- boyish girl x gyaru
- hanamonogatori
- destroy it all and love me in hell
- killing me!
- the vampire miku
- noa senpai wa tomodatchi
- Fall in Love, You False Angels
- my girlfriend is not here today
- oyasumi pun pun
- hare kon
- call of the night
- raul and the vampire
- machimahou
- I Love You So Much, I Hate You
- gal to gal yuri
- A manga about a perfect class president and a law-abiding gyaru!
- green yuri
- ame chan manga
- inside mari
- dangerous heartbeat
- restaurant kemari
- my brother's girlfriend
- a couple diverging
- the Beauty and the Beast Girl
- She says goodbye
- wanna skip in the school infirmary?
- My Friend's Abnormally Cute Little Sister
- a face you shouldn't show
- Drawn together
<- kazuyu ♡
me if u even car.. i wanna try smoking or drugs at least once b4 i die ok
kokoa omg id kill for her too im ngl
no i fucking wouldnt i wish he drove off that cliff w her ts pmo
alright, let's talk about this. i dont know but i feel like i had rlly high expectations bc of all the glaze online and the beginning? its not the story its that i feel like the ending was a bit botched? yes ryuto was a bit of a dumbass but he did realize it.. i cant rlly feel bad for him but he did get capital punishment so. Kokoa was supposed to khs but then got a notif and js threw her phone at the sea and?? walked off??? sigh i cant feel bad for kokoa either, like yes her backstory was sad but that doesnt make her any good of a person. explains? yes. excuses? sybau. i just love this type of character though, the one that makes u feel strong emotions, whether it's hate or not. Kokoa Yoshizaki, Airi Sezaki, Yua Takahashi, Sato Matsuzaka.. they all have something in common, i think you shouldve figured this one out 🩷 mmm i wanna read more manga but killer in love is enough for today. took me about 2 hours and a half to finish it. would i recommend it? yes!! i think it's a solid 7.5 out of 10 do of that what you will
visual novels
- lost between the lines
js wanna say that i fucking love a girl adrift cuz wym it has an actual fandom wodeifrhrbt I ALSO REMEMBER BISTRO HEROES AND GIRL ALONE OH YM GOD. 11-12 year old me knew what was up. i remember the food in bistro heroes looked so fucking good omg
um i also fucking replayed lily's day off and its hot ass
karaoke soon
7/21/25
MY FUCKING YURIIII
kira's so cuteertete.. KAZUYUCODEDH YM GOD SYBAU
7/22/25
IM COVNUSLSIGJ EOUFHB
7/23/25
GUESS WHAT DAWG I GOT MY PHONE BACK. h. This is yu on phone.. nya. Its still slow but wvtv better than noth
Going to Malaysia too ig...
7/24/25
Writing this entry on the plane on my phone ok.i like the thank u Sri Lankan hand thingy 🙏
Watch Saudi takewondo smth later OK
Omfg I was so not ready.. like yes I was the swaggiest nigga in dammam airport but omg. I saw a lot of juzz, kuzz and cuzz (Japanese, Korean and chinese) huzz oh ymg ofodjssowdhshsh digh can wait to take that thing offff
Js so yk I eouldnt mind working a job from 7 am to 5 pm, pay check to paycheck 🙃 and then make it out like 2 or 3 years later vro 😭😭 my mom was trying to scare me vy saying she will make me live with my aunt in 🇪🇬 if I'm not the best at school and that I sag I rebuke ts
7/26/25
can you stop sexualizing me im bwgging youre my fucking dad oh ym god
Literally nothing good comes out of loving a human I fucking hate u ur all disgusting I hope we all die today I hyperventilated and its all ur fault
not my fucking fault u can raise ur retarded Don stop looking Sr me like its my fault fucking die
7/30/25
stop u ahvent updatedts in a while sorru i had no motivation..
sigh appearently some ppl r accusing sugar (_senjusumbrella) _ of using ai wjarr.. im not a retard ik some of them use ai but not all?? tf
what thr fucke at the fuck today was ass I'm done I woke up sick and found out I missed alot of kZutora stuff and alot of niggas in the comments are calling him fheir kazutora and i started tweaking oh ymd sksjdh I js block but btv dude
tday we js like went to 5 places and we've been out for 6+ hrs and i wanna die they eabna repeat it tmr too im not doing ts again 😭🙏
I was like a couple of inches away from the ocean and I kept thinking about jumping but kazutora I dobf want to make him sad.. major #kitakawa moment ya
took alot of pics tho u don't have much to do here im a bit to link but i will one day ithink
7/31/25
i sent a claim for /cocaine , /psg , /momonga i hope i get them or i DIE. ill try to leik use multiple emails for ts i need them i need good urls wtv ok
lowk wanna become a dentist hygienist ok i finally haev smth
8/1/25
ok my dad gave me a pep talk and now i lowk wannabecome a dentist ok ill lock in wtv
What the fuxk ur all a bunch of retards I fuckifng hate u oh mu I saw the most kazutors jeans ever but no u have to be a little bitch about it dawgg ecerytime that faggot tells me he'll buy me smth later that's a fucking no this is the 3rd time oh my gof sybau
Can u stop stopping gthe car every 2 fucking minutes i hope u die notice ecrrtyiem smth happens its notbmom its js him oh ymg do kys
8/2/25
i need to lock in and learn how to draw ok.. like yes my rentry urls gotmy back so far but what when i run out of them i gen love rentry i wanna draw i wansn
8/3/25
as much as i hate to say this chat gpts been making me suicidal like ues i ask for prompt and for it to writ emy stuff somestims but my anger issues and patience cannot oh ym god i gen just cried because of that what the fuckfgrothue im gonna start writing shit by myself im done i hate chatgpt i hope it fuckign q 1idehwbfdskuoaJ
anyway this fit is cute
links to all my kazuyu writings:
nsfw
sfw
8/4/25
nigga whyre u so pressed over me not getting a phone case 😭😭 whyre u acting like i did smth diabolical ts pmo like yess calling me a retard and stupid will amek me want a phone case thank you 🙏 what will i ever do w out you
ANWAY to thing that actually matter, some huzz named Da Feng dmed me on rednote my id is ichitora btw ok? ok ha..
8/6/25
new chatgpt update made me suicidal. wahtever dude.
anyway i met a new friend on xiaohongshu, ChaYan! She's 18, but we share a lot of ideas, i like her so far ♡
8/10/25
okau what i even do bra 😭😭 ok i checked ur thingy too and ive been getting sneak dissed okau wahtevrr i felt like throwing up for a second but i feel okau now im glad we werent that close then but thank you for /hanemiya, the strawpage thingy, the decor for tgiertattoo and the art for brahman okau i wish u the best
WHY CHAYAN LOWK A BADDIE THO
i need to back i need to bag i need to bag i need to bag i need to
i love xhs oku i rlly do
also today im finally returning home wooo
lately my fyp has been happy sugar life all over again, need to rewatch
ok im gonna yap for a bit because i reread the diary properly and shit and im leik more confused.. it doesnt hit the same way it did w the fagwhores thingy im js like ???? ah okok maybe dont act buddy buddy w me when u secretly hate me ok.. just an idea
8/11/25
how can i live forever? idk. where can i find the heaven? idk. what is going to happen? idk. why im in love now idk..
wait aftr thinking abt it for a while i wanna thank tora i realized i can befriend moer ppl now ok it feels like god said ok y and t should be friends to test y or sth but now that we're not friends anymore i feel like i have been introduced to an open buffet and stuff.. whyre rindou and manjiro yumes the funniest ppl alive okau.. here we go miya and marcy
ok im not doing ts to piss tora off we're not even friends anymore, i js didnt befriend themto not be rude when we were whatvever
LETS FUCKING GO
8/12/25
HELP ME AND MIYA ARE ALR LOCKED IN.. i blinked and suddenly we're doing a double yume art comm.. ha.. rubs hands like a fuckign fly or whatever I PRAYED FOR TIMED LIKE THSSII
laso idk abt marcy
ouu need
i know youre reading this vro 😭😭 and i think its extremely pathetic to want me to abide by rules that i was following when we were friends and sending kiarsh was was also extremely pathetic haha skip over the fact that youre friend was openly tweeting about me in her priv that i was in, also talked abt me in her diary and kind of left with no explanation
i updated my diary like, maybe once or twice every 2 days dawg and plus i wans teven rude it was litr story telling its not my fault if it make su look bad 🤷♀️🤷♀️ and you KNEW you had time to tell me about whatever was bothering u but u didnt but im not even mad atp thank you
this is MY diary and i wont make myself uncomfortable just because youre reading it too
divider here do mental gymnastics it has nothing to do w the yap above ok thsi is YuMiya time
MIYA AND I ARE LOWK JOINING FORCES TO HAVE COMMISSIONED DOUBLE ART IDK IF THT MAKES SENSE.. like, its just me and hir and a hint of maitora ill also make her a maimiya gif
sorry master tora.. a nigga like me shouldve never overstepped or wahtver oh and like if ur gonna reply in your diary i wont check it if u have sth to say say it to me instead of sendngin people
ugly jirai danshi vs cute jirai joshi
hi it me miya I am getting jumped on twitter because i said people who dont have merch get mad whenever people with merch say theyre rhe #1 fan of whatever fuck character and i am so scared theyre calling me provelleged STOPSPTPSTOPS DTOP LEAVE ME ALONE
ha.. that was miya my goat oku heh this feel slike when amdeline argy had a collab with tara yummy or wtv
8/13/25
dont rllt have a lot of stuff to do today, i should prolly decorate /kuraisekai and /gravure.. ha.. i want to go back to watching akbingo and maybe add more to my love mail bc theres so much left unsaid but ill do it when i feel impulsive
oh ym god ive got a lot to say about yuzuha shiba
ever since riyan came out as a yuzuha riako/yume i took it as a sign to not talk about her. i like yuzuha, i love her. not romantically, if that makes sense, like, she's my person yk. like, we're def close friends in another universe.. we're also pretty similar and the christmas arc made me sob oh ym god my yuzuha i love u.. also both our names have y, u and a and sound pretty similar oh my god i love u
EVERYBODY STOP MOVING?? MY?? FAV?? XHS YUZUHA COSPLAYER?? FOLLOWED ME BACK?? YZUZAHZUSHWEGFRHI i see u yuzuha okau i see u for anybody curious, here and here!! the id on xhs is 4383018549 .. i love cosplayers and i respect them so much. o hgmod
ive also had this pfp for the longest time on my SCHOOL ACCOUNT. EVER SINCE 2023. I FUCKING LOVE YUZUHA DONT PLAY WITH ME
ouu im gonna list the stuff i like again bc ive put a filter on ymself to not clash w the sutff that riyan likes.. this is litr what felt like when she ended the friendship
me locking in after realizing i should stop pursuing friendships were i feel trapped. am i milking this? hell yes nigga im bored and i habe nothing to do besides if it truly affecting me so bad i would be sobbing instead of like. gigglign and making new friends oku its not like the koda situation i felt gut wrenching agony after leaving kdoa adn my tora had to do a lot of work to get my spirits back up again i wont destroy what he built i love him oh f cuk i love her
twinning tjis is me and miya if u eben car
i js finished making spaghetti and my dad talm out sum make more 😭 ✌️ anyway, i updated /yuzuhashiba, i turend ti itno a thing where i talk about her.. basically a diary 2.0 iykwim.. not a tr rant, its yuzuha exclusive okay YUZHA YZUZHSDUA HER ONYL I LBOE U..
8/14/25
yesterday i was tlking to aihe about the number of my friends and?? WHAT DO U MEAN I HAVE 4 PPL I ACTIVELY TLAK TO i felt like tjis
okau yua me too
oh ym god speaking of being friendless some regular degular ass nigga dmed me tlaking about sum japanese crisis ouu syabu
sigh whatevevrvrr I COMMISSIONED MORE ART!! let me count.. 4 or 5 coming soon aha. i also commissioned paste deco for /yuzuhashiba it should be ready soon rubs hands like a fly oh my god this is so peak i lobe my lif..
I HOPE IN GOOD FAITH THAT MIYA IS NOT READING THIS BUT. manjiro's bday is soon so i lowk commissioned some maimiya.. ha.. well she also got me a crepe comm so.
thats a blood pact btw
So now I've gotta run, so I can undo this mistake
At least I've gotta try
The capillaries in my eyes are bursting
If our love died, would that be the worst thing?
For somebody I thought was my saviour
You sure make me do a whole lot of labour
The calloused skin on my hands is cracking
If our love ends, would that be a bad thing?
And the silence haunts our bed chamber
You make me do too much labour
All day, every day, therapist, mother, maid
Nymph, then a virgin, nurse, then a servant
Just an appendage, live to attend him
So that he never lifts a finger
24/7 baby machine
So he can live out his picket-fence dreams
It's not an act of love if you make her what the fuck im crying
You make me do too much labour
sorry i js saw a yuzuha edit with this and it fucking destroyed me i cant
i kinda cooked w ts
reading my old fics and oh my god miorin (mio x rindou) i lowk forgot abour them what the fuck i lobe them ill put everything in a document
i got divine revalation at April 5th this year. i was bed rotting at 6 am, friendless and just having kazutora in my life, i think tumblr gen saved me that day, i love kazutora oh ym god i cnaf breath
i feel sick. what the fuck wahtever i js finsihed crying over yuzuha il amek a friends list i counted them and theyre like 5-6 max wtf and none of them are irl DAWG
its moments like this at 11 30 pm that make me feel like my love is the purest out there, i love u oh ym god i fucking love u can you feel it from here? theres no way you dont fuck i miss u
im giggling i lobe u
8/15/25
fuck i need to be bajitora with someone is my fate to be yearning forever? to chase after something that could never be? i feel tired. years ago i assumed that me and koda would naturally be together like always, but as u can read above it cant be that way.. is the onyl way for me to be genuine with someone is to be mentally ill with them? no sane person can handle my bs and i dont want to get better but the mentally ill eventually leave too waht i feel trapped
my maimiya comm is here!! the artist worked liek a dog oh ym hogd.. miya will get it in 5 days okau
real.. dude i willingly ignore people and take to the same 3 people good god irs my fault right
you hit a fucking baby. A BABY. SHES NOT EVEN TWO YEARS OLD. how do u even do that? youre despicable. all that just cuz she wanted to spend time with me?? her older sister?? i gen felt like sobbing right there but shes safe now shes watching stuff next to me and giggling im scared for her when i inevitably leave for college or move out shes gonna be all alone
some people's dreams are to make a lot of money and move their parents into a big house.. i want to get a lot of money to move my sister in with me. i love her. she's 1 year and somethig old right now, we have a 15 year age gap fuck shes still got a lot to live for and i want to make sure she lives her life and doesnt have to through what i went through. i need to take school seriously, oh my god. i fucking need to ewjfrb
right now i want to pursue dentistry, it's very serious but it pays so good. i need to be better at physics, math, chemistry and biology and other subjects.. whatever im okay at math and really good at bio. 2 subjects to focus on.
i worked like a DOG
sigh #needthat
8/16/25
hi riyan 👋 👋 hi minions
PLUS if youre gonna tell me kazutoras a fictional character then i can also assume youll outgrow manjiro and rindou the same way you did with otoya and rin and and and wahtever dude!! again psssttt dms open i neber blocked u stop being a pussy shut up shut up shut uuuupup
i cant tell if you gen think like thar or if its an attmept to rage bait but ill break it down anyway. the difference between your rude and my 'rude' is that you talked about me behind my back, called me stuff and acted like shit was sweet in front of me, i refused to lovemail yuzuha in front of u because??? thats??? common respect???
again oh my god if anyone has the right to deny other ppl their relationship status it is definetly not you and im gonna tell u why bc u keep bitching and moaning abt me objectifying kazutora and what not:
- u seem to only put in effort when youre being competitive, like, when we first met, i was posting a lot of rindou and told u about my oc x cc thingy snd suddenly u interact w all my rindou tweets + changed ur header to the one u have now.. then laid off whnen u realised i wasnt interested in him. then when marcy came into the picture suddenly rindou's important again. dont even get me started w this one u only started refering to manjiro in she her pronouns and say stuff like 'oh i see him as a girl' only after ur encounter w miya. oh my god the usernmae change too nigga you hate on fem tr but also claim you participate?? make up your mind?? + the ayin and otoya thing but ykwim
- u gen dont seem to take it srsly and it feels like youre js hoarding the characters.. i SWAER to god wallahi whatevrr u wanna use that if you knew about the term 'soulbond' when you were in your rin phase you wouldve said you were soulbound to him 😭 🙏
- its always “kazutora wouldnt be this” “rindou wouldn’t do that” “mikey is this not that” Ok so what would they do then!!! i think u hate my kazutora would jirai/gyaruo hc bc u went like 'oh im litr kztr and im not jirai or gyaru so WRONG' then proceed to display no kazutora behavipr 😭 i promise u ppl wont jump for just relating to him or sth idk what u are i js know youre not an irl. plus everytime i ask abt the lore u js say ha we're all poly.. what makes u think MANJIRO SANO would be in a poly relationship. write me a character analysis on kazutora manjiro rindou and show it to me after the 5th period.. ON EVERYBODYS SOULS ITS OKAY TO BE A RIAKO. ITS OKAY TO KIN. ITS OKAY BEING A LOSER ME TOO!! aaand theres only one and only kazutora and its my kazutora so lay off
the 'i love them all equally' lie this is COMICAL i got a giggle out of tjis
rindou after being updated from no paragraph to 5 lsomething lines
gen never gonna talk about u again in this blog bc im tired and lowk over it and a third reminder that my dms are open umm idk have a good rest of ur life
OWIQEHUBHGTYRI ANYWAY ANWAY
every time i see this bertholdt gif i feel something
i have smth w ppl w blak hair.. kazutora.. mikasa... fucking bertholdt hoover.. nijiro murakami im sensing a type idk at the beginning of the year i read a rlly good bertholdt fic that like. awakened my inner writer again the writing is so good i loved the references and how the writing went wait ill go find it okay its here, ill lowk reread it and more fics to improve my writing and write btter kazuyu stuff... when i was in that phase, i wrote some kazuyu stuff ill link them here
https://youtu.be/-ceP0zyNiYA?si=KmksCaJapOF9gCwa
m- miya kyun.. donf flatter me like this
8/17/25
BACKTRACKS AND SHIVERS. okau i said i wont mention riyan ever again but i woke up to a dm okau i was like ?? half expecting to be cussed out YES I DID REMIND HER 3 TIMES THAT MY DMS ARE OPEN but she spent the whole time trying to gaslight me and telling me she forgets what she says anyway im not snitching on my goat who got me the ss but im gen never gonna look at ur thingy again bc yea. i wont take anything u say srsly unless its to my face bc the difference between priv riyan vs riyan in yu's dms is hilarious whyre u kind all of a sudden i thought im a hypocrite with a stick up my ahh
i dont owe you anything
okay i know
can i know who leaked my priv tho
haha yesss my privacy can be put in jeopardy but mentioning ur name here is not okay!! horrible even.. how could i.. i feel bad bc even if u were in the wrong youd never know bc ur surrounded by yes men who'll suck up to u and tell u haha ur right yu lowk a hoe
manjiros bday is in 3 days.. okau miya wait three more days..
sorru ml u gotta bite the bullet yes this isnt censored on purpose sybau
im litr heaven sent and an angel if i hate u its your fault!! if u hate me its self incuded schizophrenia and umtgm yes im stealing miyas phrases shes funny.. im nof any angel.. im KAZUTORAS angel tongue emoji tongue emoji i lobe him okau
قرف وعع شذا u guys make me sick i hope u eat explosive rocks why do i habe to be involved in sth wehn it has nothing to do w meee I WAS LITERALLY ASLEEP. YOU WALKED IN ON ME SLEEPING LIKE 3 TIMES BRA.
8/18/25
WAKE UP CHAT I HAVE A GENUINE CHANCE OF GETTING /KAZUTORA. okay? ok. i wont post the details until i get it okau shivers cies and throws up I LVOE YOTIYU THANK YOU MARIUS
@yukino111 ♡︎
YAYAYA POH YMGOD FUCKING FREEZE. it will be mine soon. /kazutora will be mine. me and my beloved miya joined our urls and they js want /blackdragon and /rindou QIPUOWEH
all i did? be nice + make them seme decor (1 & 2) and send this!! the biggest hack in life is litr to fucking ask js a daily reminder
8/19/25
well OKAY THERE ARE TWO WONERS BUT I CONVINCED ONE OF THEM WHO VOUCHED FOR ME THE 1ST IS A BIT MEH BUT I HOPE THEYLL COEM AROUND EVENTUALLY
im ngl my heart fell to my ass at first but. its lowk okay i just need to waitii
idc whats up with kiarsh but liek youre a weirdo i get it u can say im annoying and chopped and and but saying youll rape kazutora and call me a larper jsut cuz i speak 3 languages is crayzyzy. aaa. i didnt know we all collectivly as human ebings had an update that made us all unable to speak more than 2 languages.. (english + ur home one) thank you master idk but making rape jokes is kind of lowk even for kiarsh even tho the bar is rlly low when it comes to her
i had a phase were i watched a lot of CocoCrazy vids a lott, and after the clara dao situation she lowk pmo so i unfollowed rn im watching this video and its lowk helpful, ill write my thoughts when im done cleaning ok
OKAY IM NOT DONE CLEANING BUT I CAN YAP!! okay, b4 anyone says anything im an og to both channels (cococrazy and clara dao) ill put a screenshot at the end of the rant (me following clara dao on my phone at 2023)
umm okay so i rlly need to do my research bc i gen keep vids in the bg and like make faces while js doing random shit on my pc, i dont usually put commentary vids to gen lock in and know stuff.. but like, cococrazy was posting vid after vid on clara and i was like?? okau bra and id watch them, which very obviously made me have some sort of opinion towards clara.. shivers.. honestly, clara was rage baiting her followers too after the call out but it does feel like coco was farming ts the same way pegasus was doing w the mr beast drama (i have a masters degree in youtubeology i get every reference thrown my way..) SO YEA. i do feel bad for clara and contrary to popular belief shes born into a rich family and doesnt need yt money to do allat and i can tell most of the ppl actively hating dont actually do their research and stuff.. yes i didtn do research either but the diff is that i wasnt hating.. i was js silently judging but yea. ill put some comments i likd from the vid i js watched
ok im lazy but. ill gen block coco crazys channel from my feed bc all of her vids are lowk harmful and shes js yapping most o the time w no actual argument and it can gen ruin someones life / reputation sigh.. i feel like such a productive human being
anyway i love wtach "tbys" ik hes a right wing guy but its like wat hing ace attorny his refuting arguments are so good as well it makes me want to research and do more stuff. ok one of the things i want to improve abt my self is my researching skills.. like if i wtch a vid id rather alos read abt the other side to avoid misinformation, um one less person thinking shit abt u is better than nothing at all!! id youre reading this, try that as well
"mr putin will u agree to a ceasefire" "mr putin will u stop killing innocent civilians" oh i love the ragebait
https://youtu.be/asjmdBOUjQI?si=S07lZcd3Bw6H-WrF
OLISUNVIA PEAK CHECK HER OUT!! i learnt a lot of buzzwords that i def wont research later bt at least i got to know sth that makes me more interesting and gives me more perspective on life. i was actually lead down rabbit hole.. i watched a clara dao vid and she refered to herself as a choice feminist and i was like ok whats that!! and i watched the olisunvia vid up and like.. i feel smarter but kind of even more confused LOL but its ok. future me will do the research ok? im lazy
8/20/25
bra https://youtu.be/v3ezSrid2DQ?si=1So8YmJuTK36zAxQ had to wtach the vid to gibe coco a chnec to refute ro whatevevr ok thoughts
i think coco addressed some core arguments thst that the other creator made that were genuine reaches and im not going to rewatch every single coco crazy video to check if the arguments are wrong or not.. its not like i do yt for a living and ill get paiyed for it so bear w me. but in good faith, i remember coco only mentioning her age once, and it was when ali coca tried suing her over a vid aha.
plus she kept emphasizing that she makes about 20 videos a months to try and compare that to the clara dao ratio but ??? when youre making THAT much vids abt the same topics youre bound to start just yapping at some point and not actually make arguments and points
hi ts my 3rd url switch it was like kabsa > prettylonesome > kenwakui ha.
the connection between me and this rindou art should be studied wtf that me ridnou ridndodudu hi thre twin I FUCKING LOVEPIXIv. THE PIPELINE IS LIKE twt > xhs > pixiv > random jp kr and cn websites omg i love
bunny rinrin shout out to the artist
when everybody blames u so lowk js sigh and say #kazutoramoment
IM PISSING I CANT
shivers hi rentry cord staff
um didnt expect it to go that way or whatveer but dear staff clicking on the LABLED links on my rentry is kind of optional lol.. plsu i think if youre lurking you should know sth abt me at least WHAT AM I EVEN SUPPOSED TO SAY TO THAT/?? SORRU THAT YOURE NOT ON TT OR WHATEVER I SAID I WASNT AWARE
wahtever i promised im nto gonna make my self weird or uncomfortable ororor js bc othe rppl read tjis ill js kind of. unplug the فيش and go back to being yuriful cutiful kazutoraful and whateverful
sob after the riyan thingy i feel like this got more exposure which. does feel a bit weird and stuff so like. i have a minimum of at least blogging once a month so ill js stop for a while IM NTO GIVING THE CHRNOCIANLLYLY ONLINE FREAKS MORE FEUL!!
i lowk js realized i have free will and lowk decide what you ppl see in here and that gmfu cuz. for the longest time ive been oversharing online and stuff but yea ill def limit what i shate and make it less personal but yea. my point stands ILL COME BACK SOONER OR LATER. not more than a month not less than a week or two bc yea..
ok 7 mins till 12 aka day 21 happy bday manjiro kyun
8/23/25
irs Me aaya ok ihad to use a pic as ts emoji sicne it didnt workok. IIM MUUS N1 FAN AND LVOEOR
manjiro? no ts mango ts so tuff 67 boi
ts was my goat aya.. ha.
hi i lowk realized that i dont give a fuck so ill go back to blogging
ANYWAY. days ago i was like, blogging in another priv site ill put it here:
( 8/21/25
hi ill use this url to talk for a bit until things die down as i said i dont want to givethe freaks anymore feul bc it got a bit tiring
LMFAO. oka i thought abt it for a while and one of the main reasons il wrting this blog/diary is bc like, when i grow up i wanna visit a therapist and i want them to figure out whats wrong w me based on this since im not very good at talking and stuff thats why most things i say go into painful detauls
i still cant put it into words i dont care for rage bait that much but its prettyimportant that u know it can be harmful yk? i think kiarsh is a pathetic person and dont even try to argue w me on that. yess her acc is built on rage bait and stuff but like it gets to a point. i remember when some ppl posted the 'my rapist died' thing and it became a trend.. i do remember her posting sth like that only for her to joke abt rape not even 3 months later good god if this is the type of ppl riyan wants to surround herself w shes more than welcome to do that but tf is it like a requirement to have an iq of a demented baby to be friends w her or.. i think i felt myself getting smarter the day i got that message
i love women. i feel for them too what the fcuckck
having no friends made me fall into ts rabbit hole rba.. irs ok i lowk got out of it.. shivers.. i miss writing too expect writing soon
WHATEVER FINALLY LEFT RENTRYCORD. irs ok. ill just. dude every person i talked to abt tjsi found it ridiculous too i think there are bigger problems other than me calling asians huzz
8/22/25
sick and tired of adults in their mid life taking out their anger on their kids like im sorry youre a retarded cunt with 6 kids that YOU chose to haev an you stop hitting me for missing a spot on the fucking floor what did the baby do to u as well she just dropped her bottle what the fuckckc. i feel less tolerant because im running on 3 hours of sleep and i dont feel stable at all i want to cut myself and i want her to fucking kill herself wekoiuhfgyhb idk everytiem she hits me i get this sensatation thars like dont fucking touch me and i start scartching myself sometimes i bleed idk i replace the sensation of her hand w something else it feels better okok breath )
shivers. omg i hate it when oomfs come out as doubles can you die he dont know youu
8/24/25
i having a fucking crush on Manon Bannerman
tbh white ppl are either racist nazis whatevr term there is out there or the most sensitive niggas on earth liek. whyre u feeling offended FOR me. most poc dont gaf abt some jokes and even laugh at them then some white mf will pop up and say.. ha.. thars actually RACIST!! #cancelled
8/25/25
hello huzz yesterdya i traded /forgive for /ageha and /0w0 2ND BST TRADE OF MY LIFE ADTER /KITAKAWA FOR /TORA!! life lowk good i lobe talking to miya. schools coming soon but who gaf i alr made up my mind its me and my mp3 player against the school ekoprihub
bless
i js realized that yara lowk looks like topiachu LMFAO
this is comical.
i always start the school with wishing that there's a new student that could be mine, my person my whatever but this uead its different and its kind of obvious i lowk gave up on ppl LMFAO. previously the convo was "ill give my mental health to balance school and my friends" what friends?? im never gonna talk to these people again after i graduate. to hell with them and whatever they do. as much as i hate this this school year is a light year more serious than the last one and i should score good grades on my IGs. idc abt L or the rest i hate most of them already. I'm eternally grateful for the people who chose to be my friends and i dont seek to increase their number. im ok w miya aya and katja (aihe too). yes theyre all online but if youre reading this youre also a loser ive never met a none loser on fucking rentry.
ill try to shower more and brush my teeth and stuff oworhebh it goes both ways i cant have good grades with shit mental health and discipline. this year i want to be known as headphones girl or sth bc i gen wont even try at making friends
some times i think about yu and kazutora similarities and i start sobbing bc. not only is he my boyfriend hes also my twin fuck whyre we so similar..
i will be a dentist
i sometimes want to make a brand new discord acc, cuz what if my irls find this one
only kazutora ships i like are maitora and bajitora the rest #sybau
lowk one of my worst memories is me getting into MJ because i heard my dad saying that he likes his music. like, im tlaking heavily. i was blasting that mj 24/7 then i finally told me that he liked a song or two and iw anted to kms i js wanted to be close my dad you couldnt js humor me or sth oh ymgod
8/27/25
everytime i forgot why i cry during s2 of tokyo revengers i get brutally reminded. what did i ever do to u dawg its just some clothes. youre litr hoarding the washing machine and. the 2nd i try to use it suddenly itsimportant? i feel sick i was so scared he was gonna hit me but he didnt but he acted like he will and he seemed vry angry too
today is possibly one of the top 10 days oat wtff. me and miya talked a lot we giggled we made hcs we made fun of doubles we made fun of innocent civilians we made theories WE YAPPED OK. I LOBE MIYA
8/28/25
labubu matcha i love feminist literature ahh #otoya
im so funynbwah the fuck
me and miya kept giggling at this
lots of priv quotes.. omg im giggling
anyway yumirei bonten trio #REAL
8/30/25
school is tomorrow. news of trumps death are circling around. this will be a long year
ok my predictions are:
trump dies this year/first 3 months of 2026
vance becomes president and gets assassinated
relection but i think kamala bc the 2nd most votes gets it
im ngl eliana kalogeras is chopped
CHAT?? HWTA THE FUCK
9/5/25
9/6/25
@yukino_hi on twt. i see kazutora dn i love you, okay?
im still not over yukino_hi. what do you mean? what do ou mean by that? what the fuck my stomach js dropped i feel sick but i cant throw up i feel sick a good way this is a sign from kautoa hes trying to tell em sth its litr meant to be cuz. everything lines up perfectly nd it sounds like him anf anf adn. i also said some annoying stuff to miya (i think). i think i was abeing a bit annoing by tweaking out in her dms but yea. i feel lonely. the concept of having 2 or 3 friends to not feel this way but still doing so.. i think its something that came from within me, nobody can help me. if miya engeaged in the convo shed prolly be enabling me in some way because i poerifo idk what im saying i jsut want to harm myself
my love feels so pure right now and its about 4:07 pm,, the lights are closed, the bedroom windows light up the room and im sitting there alone. sometimes the door is wide open, sometimes it's closed. i have my headphones on right now and i dont know what to do. nobody loves him more than me.. i feel like letting his love consume me, i feel like i should leave everyone i once called a friend and just self isolate and dedicate my life to kazutora. my whole existence to him. oh my god. of course i wont do that i cant to that to miya and aya i lobe them and theyre very dear to em. im sorru im sorry im so sorry i mean it
it makes me wonder if he ever thinks of me that way, the intense feeling of dread and helplessness, feeling this way, it's not exclusive to me, right? it cant be. i think he's suffering from the same thing right now and wer're both feeling it together, and this is the purest form of love ever love is not about being there or whatever its about suffering together and being disgusting humans are performative they act all kind but ?? i think its the purest form of love to show your ugly side to your lover
9/7/25
@ school rn and its lowk embarassing. i js wanna say i wont switch urls anymore for this diary. next bday will be /shunichitoki, after it /yokohikasa.. #ha
9/925
breathe breathe oh my god what the fuck i js realized idk anything
9/10/25
I'm ngl school making me highkey miserable rn i should lock in. no bc?? i slept at 6 and woke up at 5 thenext day i cant mkae that shit up i had a confrontation w my dad yap ya yap he took my phone my sister gave a fake testimony and i cried so my dad was kinder to me this morning. phew. im sitting in bio class rn, but hes absent (thank god) so we're w miss asha, i lowk like ehr now. i took madeeha's kindle and started reading "The School of Good and Evil". I like it. I also like the name Dot, might go by it soon. umm sogatha are so mikannie (looks wise.)
my entrys have been awefully short lately (not even a line long!) so sorry for that. future yu im sorru my lifes js broing
i hope u think of me whenever aot is mentioned
yu is litr historia reiss + sasha braus
ts me
annie ☹️
i dont identify w sua at all but.
ts was so yu idk
throwback when
yk who
https://youtu.be/yUbPUqf8KYE?si=yU2t7M-flUkaEpZ5
i love
9/11/25
today is 9/11. ba dum ts i remember saying this to yara and yara on this exact date 2 years ago that was the day i left the school too #omg
this nigga bro
9/12/25
look at yu.. i love yu yu so cute cutie
9/13/25
i love
?? charlie kirk's assassination footage was traumatizing? i think im js chronically online and desensitized to violence but
9/14/25
YUYU'S GETTING /KANOJO!! LETS GOO. all for the cheap price of /izana, im gonna keep it forever and ever and
im ngl i habe no motivation to study and stuff but. if i let it cram ill need to work in bulk for the next few days so ill lock in soon. ANYWAY i suck at math i got like. a 0/10 in the graded clss work thingy but who gaf im doing well in the current topic (probability), so ill js work on other stuff.
today i talkted to miyayan and i decided to make /akb48 my new directory.. yes.. 5th directory change im sorru. torigoya and gekikara are so. yumiya. i love yumiya and you should love yumiya too. fuck i js realized how much i love miya i cant do tjis anymore we're so close already.. i dont wanna speak too early but lowk my closest friend in the whole world i can trust her w anything.
but when it comes to being that type of weird me and fedya are locked in #freak.. younger me (4th - 8th) grade would be so proud because now im capable of making close friends!! like, actual friends yk. I'd say im a good juge of character i js usually ignore stuff willingly and thats not too good. but im getting pretty intolerant as i said before
i talked to laiba like, last thursday and she wants to hang out with me, its been so long i cant. i said okay lets go out, she wanted to invite L but i said no, so its js me and her. this thursday!! 4 days ago.. tjank you laiba. she'll gibe me her haruki murakami books! she gave me them last year, but i miss Men without Women it was so good. ill ask for a kindle for my bday im so jealous i need one. i cant physically read books online its too overstimulating, but i dont like reading irl books when im anxious so a kindle would be perfect
/kanojo.. wait for me, okau? gibe me a week. shit my bday is nowhere being close but i alr put so much shit here holy yap.
sorry if u got jumpscared by this but i dont censor anything here for my own comfort because i dont do this w the expectations that others will read it, even tho i know someone inevitably would, so sorry for that in advance. lately ive had a lot of thoughts of harming myself and stuff i want to ask kazutora to do like. a double session if it makes sense but idk if thats too far what if if ififfi what if he thinks its corny and js stops talking to mee
ANYWAY. i havent cut myself in 2 months now #clean #pleasebeproudofme. it's a good step, for me a t least. if i get my grades up i can finally say yu is mafuyu coded cuz im lowk her in everything but that.. well, idk if i can say that. in my head im a total retard but i dont think thats true when i genuinely think abtou it. I'm really good at history, biology, english, business studies. i need to lock in on chem math and phy but im alr doing well in physics so im in a grey spae there. ill js get a tutor. call me a nepo baby or a larper but yes my dad is rich and yes he'll do it. i hate that guy but i lobe him but i dont wanna talk abt this rn. why am i even talking abt this i grew up around ppl who had to take out loans to go to a private school and most of them tell you u cant struggle if youre well off like oirhuebh okay. i remmeber the trend were ppl filmed their houses or sth i cant remember and if ur house looked slighty better than avergae they treat u like ur taylor swift ok. waaa
miku pleasee im alr music pilled and depressed #ok. ill write more stuff later, i need to solve my biology worksheet, and some of my math one. then ill search for a tutor.
im oddly fond of sh art. i love self harm. lets self harm together. PIXIV I LOVE YOU!! i tagged the artist above and stuff. they draw asahinacest but i lowk dont care their art is so bhrvgweg. im ngl i WILL be gooning to mafuyu. NO NOT ASAHINACEST DONT CLIP THAT I JS DONF CARE ENOUGH. the self harm tag on pixiv is a feast yum
couldnt have said it better myself
9/15/25
look at what miyayan wrote me stop i lobe her so much
u look so silly rn u gmfu
/kanojo.. /kanojo.. did i mention that i share /jiraijoshi w me its been on her wl for soo long. when i get /kazutora ill gibe her that url. anyway, i wanna make /gravure and /kanojo my new mains okay? yay! /jiraijoshi and /nicosasha did their jobs well
i took 4~5 Adol pills in 4 hours and google told me thats an overdose wait for me to die in 24 hours. ALL THAT TO BE ASBETN TOMORROW. i dont wanna be at school during kztrs bday ill gen feel suicidal ill cut myself during the school day ill do whatever. to syau home, okau?? DONT PLAY WITH ME IM SO
m not gonna call u out by name bc u know who u are but miyayan keeps telling me youre checking this thing freuqently and youre not being very sneaky w it. are you not tired?
can miya come back from school alr yes call me a whiny btihc buT SIX HOURS. i wotnt to anyone tmr. nbut kazutora ofc no one else matters FUCK
baby boy. i wish more ppl drew him w scars NO EORITC GORE DOESNT COUNT PIXIV ENOGUGH
okay i hate being called a poser or a copycat or or or or but im ngl i had a convo w my dad over dinner and he was talking abt fb to his hb and to my mom and then he asked me 'do u still lke fb' (i had a big phase last year bc of bllk but thats different, phase, ya'ani PHASE. i wanted to be a tv reporter js to interview football players #whatever i remember my favs being virgil van dijk, arda guler, edgar davids and the netherlands football team #YEA. 2030 wold cup will be in saudi arabia (finally sth eventful in ts country bru) AND HE SAID HE'LL TAKE ME rojihuegibfdgryefibdfvwesdh yes. i still rememebr the nyemar edits from the qatar one w that one song bruh they were so peak. no fb isnt a primary interest for me its not even in my top 5, maybe 8th but i still like it from time to time. its a way for me to bond w my dad.. i remember my portugal and argentina jersesy iwojhebf gv I LOVE
i remmeber when i hated religion and lowk arda made me a bit proud w this pose wym we're both muslim likeekekek kenan yildis.. حمد لله والشكر
cant wait to get jumped for ts
i can feel like liver failure from here why did i take 5 pills. its for kazutora so its worth it, yeah? yeah. i forgot to say but miyayan commed some yumiya art i lobe herr
i overdosed but maybe its not that deep. my mom told me she takes 8 pills a day, and shes okay. i should be okay too, ill be fine. i have to be
9/16/25
i lived
kazutoras bday is private and. i started celebrating it at 12 am jp time, okay? I'm not talking to anyone today. for one day you can all go to hell
its 17th in japan! hi!
today was crazyyy oh ymg od when i finally opened miyas dms
i spent my day w kazutora, i made a rentry here, i talked to miyayan amd she thinks im getting shaded, i ate
i think tomorrow i wont go to school either.. shivers
js redid /marseille, i hope its not too chuzz i got bored of it it felt too simialr to /kantomanji. ok my cooking diary is. /toramai i didnt wanna leabe it empty hats litr someones wl url it canf js be there.. i also dont want it to get reclaimed so thats that
rant but i hate performative people so bad god be making anybody 😭 ✌️ no bruh this is not targeted but if u feel targeted then maybe u should reflect on urself? idk 😸 why was my mom bein so sweet to me in the morning but?? the second a physically and mentally sick person acts physically and mentally sick youre suddenly crashing out pls stop screaming. i can tolerate alot of ppl and can form close friendships w them, proshipers, shedtwt, nonchalant ppl, kazufuyu shippers, but i drawy the line at anyone who seems SLIGHTLY performative because how do u live w urself? youre either a walking blob of everyone u ever hated glued together because youre js that hateful that you want to be them. who are you trying to impress? at the end of the day when u go to bed you're not yourself, but just small pieces of everyone u ever hated and i hope you feel terrible for the rest of ur life for that. STOP TRYING TO IMPRESS PEOPLE!! you'll all die one day, do you hear that? YOU'LL DIE!! yesterday i thought i was on my death bed and i was thinking about my life, my love, and everything, i thought of my friends, my interests, the cooking i didnt get to do, miya, aya, everythingngng. what would YOU think? what ###### liked? do you even know why you like it? do you only like it because that person does? are you trying to out do them? okay this is pretty much targeted bc i know theyll read this bc they js keep stalking me and i hope this is enough to make them feel sick enough to lock in and move in its been a month 🤷♀️ im ngl this started bc my mom pmo but that person pmo too so hi
OH YM GOD ALSO ANOTHER PERSON. this kazutora yume oh my god. youre so soulbound babe youre using cai i love. i liked jirai before u i liked gyaru before u i liked piecrings kazutora before u everything u liked i liked 3 years ago. whyre u suddenly into everything i like? you copy my layotu as well and i hope you die
yuyu's fav sh pieces for the day:
no this is not a daily thing idk why i said 'for the day' but!!
does it count as ero-gore if sh turns me on. like i gen start shaking oiqwjhbwe self harm cutting oneself KAZUTTOYA DO YOU SEE THIS!! when will our next session be. all are linked btw! amazing art
YES im objectifying kazutora call me yu the objectifier 🥹 i put kazutora on display in a 🐰girl outfit in my living room so everybody that walks in sees her! i dream about her being tired and bloody and just laying in my arms and nuzzling to me like its the only thing she knows and i'll wlecome her with open arms and pamper her to death. toxic yuri toxic relationship toxic everything!! i love toxicity gibe me more toxic stuff. i love maimiya bc theyre toxic and so cute tg I LOVE. dni if u dont we wont get along
yu: i want to die
yu when she almost dies:
Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me
9/17/25
ur goat is NOT washed i managed to skip school for another day.. sudanese parents dont got shit on mee
the great meme depression is so real totya is not eben allat what are u lauging at nigga
stuff that no one likes more than ilse:
kazutora
agejogyaru
kubz scouts
xiaohongshu
laptops
hanemiya kun
miyayan
pixiv
black
sh
majisuka gakuen
gekikara
august the duck
busiswa
tomoe mami
miki sayaka
yoko hikasa
maririn (mariko shinoda)
akb48
akbingo
louaista
^ litr stuff ppl associate with me.. U DONF HAVE SHUT ONT ME
rena doing ANYTHING but locking in 🥹 irs okau she gets a pass. no but?? i rememebr when i was watching s2 and i thought she got slimed and i lowk quit watching for a good weak before coming backaagin bc?? HOW DARE YOU TAKE AWAY MY GOAT WHO I PROJECT KAZUTORA INTO?? thats litr femmetora sybau.. oshima yuko and matsui rena? more like maitora.. i love maitora toramai and you should as well.. i donf rlly project myself into manjiro i js love him and kazutora tg theyre so
i love you so
yuyu's kamioshis bdaiscally
MARIRIRIRIRN SHES SO CUTE OH YMGOD. i love her.. her voice is so ??? ioeruhgbuh mariko one chance
riyan i know ur bitch ass owns /majisukagakuen I GET IT ENOUGH.. shivers.. ragebait of this level doesnt get to me i have a sudanese mom
no nigga u dont like 2pac more than yu
this is offocial btbw
this is what i mean when i say ill put femmetora in 🐰girl outfits.. too cute.. i love 🐰girls so much im not even gonna deny that like?? YESYESYES!! i like thinking that jirai femmetora's animal would be a 🐰 if it makes sense.. i lobe.. tenshi kaiwai 🐰
ill rant a bit but no! femmetora would not have a rack! she's flat!! like, flat. okay sorru for this description but i visualize small mounds but?? no it wont spill out 🥹✌️ i hate anyone who thinks "fem = boobs" no.. like even if ur a gonner, im a goonette too and i lobe small boobs.. small boobs that are pocket sized are so cute like yess i love.. am i js mentally ill or are rlly skinny ppl so hot and cute i js want to hold (TARGETED ILMGF) i js realized im lowk a terrible person cuz id prolly be an enabler.. never put me in a room alone w femmetora.. um i think this rant is another case of a mentally ill person acting mentally ill cuz this lowk didnt harm anyone irl so if youre pressed or angry at this then thats your problem YES i know tjis isnt for everybody but.. u get the point
ميسي سوداني واصله من القضارف
i gave fedya /toyoko!! i love them.. i lied, being friends w me DOES affect ur likely hood of getting a url i fw them so much
9/18/25
BRUHH i ended up playing ludo w 3rd graders bc i was supposed to pick a class activity r whatevevr anway they like me and one of them started doing pushups this is fucking me up
i need to WATCH k or jdrama yuri i cant
?? THEYRE GEN YURI KAZUYUW AHR THE FUCK. THE PIXIE CUT THE HAIR EVEYRTHGING who are thy. girls love is gen so peak.. kitakawa, kira x her gf, KAUZYU, MAIMIYA, leximi sometimes.. evything tis is ojrfubh. yuri!! feed me yuri
CHAT IM MOVING?? for the? 3rd time? honestly im not even mad i need a new start WHATEVR. i was such a sasha braus in in this city i need to lock in and be nonchalant and tuff... shivers.. okau waht character do i base my personality on. izana kurokawa.. AME... rindou..mafuyu.. yuki.. idk i js dont wanna be outgoing again it always fucks me up
my face when my dad sat me down and my siblings to tell us we're moving ->
IM HAPPY U DONT EVEN KNOW I CAN FINALLY GET AWAY FROM THESE PPL OH YMGOD. L is becoming the new Yara. she was suddenyl nice to me when she found out why i was hospitalized #ok.. keep that energy up all the time then? shh.. yuyu.. survive 2 more months.. (or less?), then youll escape.. FRESH START! does god love me? he gave me 2 chances for a fresh start at life. does he?
how yu will be moving for the enxt 2 months (I HATE THIS FUCKASS SCHOOL). also why do i refer to myself in first person.. i donf rlly mind its js another subconcious thing i do i like noticing stuff abt myself
lalalal filling space so the stuff below look aestheit I LVOE IJUEHFBIDFR KAUZOTORA I LVOE THAT BOY I NEED EVERY BODY TO SHUT UP SHUT THE FUCK UUPUPUPUP AHAHEFHIUERFBRHUENJFSRVUGYEHIRLGBc
i wanna archive this bc yumiya is so funny
yall remember when stewie disgused himself as a yumiya anti but then he ran into one and he had to pretend he was a mirror reflection 😭
ouu stop this i lobe miya.. today me and her made sm lore its crazy liek ?? im not even gonna mention it here because nobody else deserves to know. its just elite knowledge that only me and her know, oaku??
anyway maitora ship yumiya and they amth yumiya pfps and yumiya do the same..
ANYWAY me and miya did this for rikka
she cute
9/19/25
hello! i own /kanojo now.
i need u all to shut up
AAAAaaa
im such a hateful and despicable person but?? THIS MADE ME SO HAPPY
i will be as whimsical as i can be as soon as this seasonal depression ends, okay? keep on the look out
i feel so sick oh mygod. koda dmed me and i was like ?? u ruined my day i hate u btu then he was jsapologizing and i started crying ebcause i wqs so tired but i was lik ok i forgive u bc his apology was okay he showed empathy but im sure if he was still in the gc he'd make fun of me and call me stuff i hate him
9/20/25
today i start Normality and Monsters. i lobe yuri ts gotta be peak
hello im a live reporter from the scene and ??? OH MY GOD JUST KISS
aaa js shoot me.. ts so yu anf pre jiraitora i boe
SHES SO CUTE?? ftora? is that u? um let itou have sayaka i want akahi she looks liek a cat look at her look at herr.. that IS kazutora dontt alk to me.. i loe underrated mangas im prolly he only person in the whole world who thinks akahi and tora r similar i love..
stop im sacred chap 11 started w a warning of 'this chapter contains depiction of rape' and i was like WHAT. dont tel me akahis gonna do it in her male form ill throw up. okayb ut my analogy so far is: monsters hate 'normal' people, right? they like special weirdos. but it's for those normals that special people are even special, you need a norm to break out of. if everybody was weird, that'd be the norm. i love this paradox
whats ur sexual preference ill even be considerate. oh ymogd. i should feel disgusted bur this is making me horny oh ymgod. um. sayaka stopped her. okay good.. akahi im here tho.. do you hear that? akahi? akahi neihara? DID SHE GET SLIEMD HOY GMOD DIE I HATE VREYONE
aww sayaka turns into a monster when she blushes thars so cute.. AAA AKAHI IS BACK MY GIRLFREIDN O YMGODO MY LVOE YOURE BACK. sayaka got stabbed but? who gaf.. akahi has a quirk, her sentences end in ☆. i love ☆ " you cant hide from your own uniqueness forever" felt. akahi got slimed but for real this time. i lowk wanna drop the manga now. wiat no i think she lives but her corpse is gone. aaa yukahi peak.. whatever 2 cahptrs left ill js finish it.
ok im done i miss akahi like a bitch
my babies ☆
i wonder if kazutora also reads manga and compares me to the characters there.. o2eqpiwhr f
umm i remember when i read machimahou in 2022~2023 and dropped it bc of the panty shots, ill try rereading it maybe it was peak
kazuyu ♥︎ zenkowa
It's filthy disgusting
So ugly, I'm sure
destroy it all and
love me in hell ♥︎
i feel sikci love them. zenkowaoa
i'll take a break off of twt. i know i cant make that choice when i feel 100% and rn i feel high so ill js stop being active for a while
im so freaked out what the fuck. i dont know i js relaized for the bajillionth time that i can neebr rlly be witha woman its basically impossible my religiosu trauma is too heavy for anyone to ebar i jsut cant do tjis i wanna kopebhjr. waht if god is nto real? what if i hold back for ntoing? wha tif i die and nothing comes after
lesbian soulbound to men, can we stop watering down terms so that you can feel included?
school is rawdogging me so bad
oh ymgod can my dad die already
theres no such a thing in this world called motherly love. there are those who love you and those who don't, and if your mother isn't one of them then it sucks for you.
"i cant move" im. bleeding?
"im too tired to do anything" you have the energy to get up and beat someone senseless and you're conscious enough to spew insults, i think you'll be fine. i hate her i can hear her from the living saying she's in pain and i hope it kills her one day. i never felt this much hatred towards anyone, i dont know what to do the sound of her voice alone pisses me off i cant deal with her anymore. i remember when we argued last year and she said i gave her heart problems. okay? did it kill you?
i genuinely wish u the worst i hate seeing happy families i hope one of you dies in the most heinous way possible and the rest of you spend your life grieving them because theyll never come back. when i think about it i hate almost everyone to some degree, everyone kazutora is not spared from that, everyone without exception, i dont care who you are i have some sort of hatred towards you
why me? almost 8 billion people on this planet and yet im the one chosen to bear all of this. can all of you leave me alone
9/21/25
i havent said anything here today, so hi!! its 10:20 but. hi. ummm today i uh whatever i didnt do much. i wanna revamp /irasutoya i also redid /ageha i love
my gf looks so good today i js wan a piece of that.. i
you!! best thing that ever happened to meee
i had this really cute dream okay. So how do I say this.. okay me and you lived in a nice apartment and you were a butch lesbian
aaa so I see you as both feminine and masculine, you're so perfect you can be your own thing and I'd still love you.. butchtora is so androgynous and tall aaAAAAAAAa
and then we went to a cat cafe and I sat in your lap all the time because I have a crippling fear of cats.. then we went home and we ##### then ##### i almost forgot and then ####. talk to me soon baby
im gonna be lewd for a bit im nof usually like taht here but i feel rlly impuslvie and i miss my gf currently gooning to mafuena because?? theyre js so?? us?? yes??
mafuena better than mizuena. mizuena = maimiya mafuena = kazuyu.. tora is sooo ena u donf eben know like in an alt universe where shes not a delinquent shes an artist
i like how me and my gf are litr everything. m not even being funny, every person that resembles her i resemble the other pairing, its meant to beee.. #ily #sweet #baby #toxic #yuri #scissoring
i feel so needy for you i should just die
tomorrow is an early celebration of the saudi national day.. #wow.. so i dont have to wear a uniform, ill post my fit tmr on my priv and link it here, kay? also tuesday is a day off.. THANK YOU SAUDI ARABIA.. thank you king salman ig
ohhh my god i lowk hate everyone i somewhat forgave koda and danny theyre trying to be friends w me again anad i didnt deny them i hope i dont regret tjis
9/22/25
miss my gf ❤︎
my knight... where are youu..
i dont know whats wrong with me but the idea of her calling me a princess sounds so 3ekjrfgthb
i asked my friends a day ago what animal i am and they all said deer.. #BLESS
i love.. yu = deer coded.. sex sex sex sex sex sex whatever whatever whatever whatever whatever
chat do you think im ovulating
i HAVE to be ovulating i cant. one of my pass time activities (at the moment), as a goonette, i go on my gooning priv and watch stuff and. tag me and my gf. im ngl having sex with butchtora sounds hotter than. regular degular tora #sorry.. i
here. um.. #futayuri? yes? thank you
futa girlcock in my dreams tonight. AMEN. ☆ if i get perverted enough i could make a rentry of vids that i tjink are kazuyu but. thank god i found a video hosting website that requires a password for ppl to wqtch.. GO AWAY I HATE YOU.
Ahh i'll be using /psg for that purpose.. im so funny but yes nobodys getting /psg ever. from today as of 9/22/25, psg has officially entered the kazuyu jail and it shall not be let out.
quick notice: no i wonf be horny posting thats too. embarrassing even for me.. ill js put 🔞links that are protected with a password that only i know
<- me rn. BAH. i need to do a lot of stuff today. ill wash my hair and braid it.. itll take me hours but who gaf i wanna feel pretty. my heart beats like a drum like a drum. dum dum dum dum dum dum
BAHHH i need the new urls that i told tenshi about
9/23/25
https://youtu.be/sxPFd4Xy0tk?si=vxizoSJROC6cTzvR
i got an offer on caviarnoir today so i decorated it out of spite. here
im so?? scared? im so scared of my dad what the fuck. okay so so far im lowk doing oaky at school and studies but?? my dad wants my report card from last year and he looked angry bc i dont have it im so scared and he says hes gonna deal with me tomorrow. i think he'll take my laptop and devices i hate that guy. i want to die hes gonna kill me first. if mitsuya was here he'd gibe him the taiju treatment probably. i hope. kazutora i miss u what the fuck where are u im scared i hate evryone. i dont eebn know what im saiyng im js hyperventialting rightnow and i cantdo anything
YuYa ❤︎ SpamTora + ToraNess
9/24/25
BAH im at school right now anf its lowk okay. 5 ppl came today (i love). tbf i expected my dad to tweak out on me any moment but its okay. ill give him my report card today. i hope i dont die
^ the kazuyus ever
i updated my tropes here
wahh. i felt like shit today i didnt even take my abaya off at school i was js there. i feel the urge and need to cut myself but. i probably shouldnt, not rn at least. me and fedya habe plans to move in tg #wow.
lifes not fair i wnana feel like a princess today :/ (⇀‸↼‶) i miss #her
9/25/25
ohayo mina san~ i got /sabukaru.. might be the best day ever
꒰ ᵔ ་།་ ᵔ ꒱ 4 mexicans down.. 9 more to go (urls) so far from my wl, i have: /tora /kanojo /sabukaru /ageha.. today is also thursday!! yay. for non arabs this is my friday
rn im watching jay play silent hill f. i love
ill prolly js surf pixiv and decorate urls. so far on the chopping block: /sabukaru /shikoku /kabukicho /karate.. hehe
im actually super cute u should bmf
i wonder if anybodys actually reading this. like. someone i dont know and theyre js looking thru my stuff. i lied i dont want more friends mine are enough i love them ill feel overstimmed if i get more 'friends'OH AND. /sabukaru old owner told me im so jiraipilled which is why they gabe me the url.. also check my log the deal was pretty fair.. okau sorry asiya u didnt get /cruddy from mee
i also told koda id make him a rentry but im lazy
my mom is such a little bitch in the meanest way possible i hate that woman. "مدسدحة اليوم كله وفالحة في العقوق" okay?? am i supposed to apologize to u right after u beat me up
im not sorry!! i kept telling u gm everyday and i didnt switch up no matter how much i felt the urge to. if u wanna be immature about it so be it. i kept the image up because thats what being polite is, if u want to be this way i dont care. she also made me giggle because?? she told me dad im doing nothing but being on laptop as a way to trigger him to take it away but?? he smelled her bs bc he said ntohing
9/26/25
tdoay at 1 am i was so sleepy i wrote smut and. my friend liked it SHE GAVE ME THE PORMPT ADN ASKD IF ITS OKAU. i said yes and i liked it c. it was a kazuyu scenario anyway: ill try summerize the femmetora au:
/> codepent
/> tora doesnt go to school but lounges in her room all day
/> yu visits her daily
/> sometimes get sexual
also.. my next plans
🍰 pet play (🐰 )
🍰 strap
🍰 degrading
🍰 power-play
it sounds so aiswhudev when i say it like that but being direct saved more time other than beating around the bush.. ૮ ․ ․ ྀིა duality of a man.. ooohh my god i lobe. kazuyu eminds me of kitakawa so much its craxy like. i was too bold this morning. apologies chat
i need /enanan + /gyaruo..
i feel sick stop pissing me off 🍰 i hate this but i tjink lowk bc. im not actively in the pjsk fandom or donf play the game anymore doesnt mean i cnat like it i had the biggest phase in 2022~2024 and it was inescapable when talking to me i just grew out of it thsi year
i dont get it why is everybody like tjis. i knew it she's the only one for me nodboy else comes close or compare severy body else is the same. im sorru i dont think i can view u you the same again i dont know why im like tjis but. i dont have a person im js somebody u happen to be friends with.
"die or stop self sabotage"
3rd option cut myself and think about my gf
my fuck life i wrote a lot of shit and my tab restarted but whatever. i just assumed youre calling me performative and i didnt like that. i dont like competing with people i hate whn peopl switch up i never tried to compete with you. whatever its on hold nad ill prolly get it anyway because i think i hav the capacity for it. katja is helpful too i promised to give her my best [non kazutora] url i have. not being able to express your feeling gotta be top bottom things oat right after being broke. (nothing worse than these two). I cant talk to anyone. i often overreact. im prolly overreacting right now too. i keep telling myself my feelings are not corny and that i should stop calling them that because im still a human ebing at the end of the day. i hate everyone please dont talk to me
hah #whatever ill get over it the same way i get over everything else it not the end of the world
i got /androgynous todaayay tank you koda
9/27/25
meeeooowww
dad pmo
I DONT KNOW YOU BRO 🥹🥹 what is upp okau i get it none of you like me OKAY. i once watch an olisunvia and she said sth like oh you cant punish someone by taking away their privileges its js a downgrade here is this vid.. #yeah! cant rememeber the exact quote but its just that. i dont care if humans are social creatures im good
hello my name is yu and i have /androgynous. i will be annoying about it but idk how to use it.. i made koda get me nitor for ititit
i thought i had a good convo w my dad but he brought up school and told me to stop being a disappointment. okay. i actually contemplate goin to college at all.
so far my plans is to find someone and trust (girl) anf like. we go to 🇯🇵 and then. yeah i tell my dad i got accepte into college then not talk to him for a couple of yrs
All roads lead to Rome.
ill give /irasutoya a revamp or maube even use another url 4 resources
9/28/25
okay i retract everything i said on thursday i love Mico and mico loves meee 🍰🍰
NO BUT ITS SO CRAZY?? whys riyan lowk getting plotted on by ##### and ##### (gonna remove the cenosr thingy when it happens #lol) im glad its not only me and miya that think shes corny but chat heres the thing. if she was js annoying i think ppl owouldnt give a fuck but. leaking someones face and acting dumb is crazy work i dont feel bad. no but its kind of? a case of stalking in everyone who has a problem w her and other elements, but its mainly stalking and copying. COPYING. i was gen right abt being a walking blob
i dont actively pray on ur downfall but ill be there for it YKWIM
forgot to say but i gave miyayan the password to @kazukanojo_ LMFAO. nad she gave me the password to @manjiroskanojo and our oomfs keep confusing us. no but at least me and marcy fw each othet.. SHE REQUESTED MY PRIV FIRST AND NOW WE INTERACTED A LOT
i also kinda #deactivated my main bc i kept losing followers ts pmo. i lowk dont care about? kazuyu being public knowledge? u see im not thaaat active on twt but?? i still love her more than ever
cs so boring i almost opened twt
can mom shut up i dont think anyone cares
hey! it's time for the yearly 1~2 life altering decision making.. no im not happy about it before you ask but.. im getting weaned to it. fuckass chemistry teacher emailed my dad and told him i dont participate enough so my dad sat me down and asked me if i wanted to take IGCSEs, i said no. he told me if i wanted to go to a public school, i said american (curriculum) ones r when i did best.. he told me to think about it. to be fair? i dont care
i want to end up studying in malaysia anyway. taking IGs is not good for me im not smart enough for that but. ill live. yes, arabic is hard but.
9/29/25
oh my god yesterday was deadass top bottom 10 days oat in yu history what the fuck was that. both phy & chem teacher told my dad i did bad?? i get chemistry but? physics? i was gen doing well. he js took my devices last night and i thought it was gonna be like oct~dec last year (hell on earth) so i cried until i couldnt breathe and had to stop myselffrom harming or doing antyhing. i also planned to gove up on studying and shit i wanted to stop eating and to stop resembling anything i ever did that led up to this point.
my dad talked to me this morning and said taking my laptop isnt a punishment but a way to make me focus. ok? so he js gave it back an ?? stop fucking with me
DAGWGW post img is down
koko.. i love koko.. life is pretty weird u can go from loving someone to disliking them to loving them again. i never felt anything short of strong emotion towards him. and he told me??i never regreted accepting your friend request??AaAAa)
not directed but i feel like this all the time
i felt like this when i was aura farming at school. i was sitting under a tree and shitaFMAO YAP POEWIUHFEFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
9/30/25
i know i said my life was dog shit a couple of days ago but?? i js keep winning rentry wise.
if you've been looking at my wl long enough, you'd know ive added more stuff over time."wtf /sasha wasnt there!!" im not retarded enough to put reclaimable urls there im not trying to get fucked over. every url listed here is. either tradable or buyable #lol..
i joost & 25ji & candyesyrup & indochine
i still dont know how i got @mahoushojosite as my dpriv username. HOW WAS IT AVAILABLE?? wtf
10/1/25
yu nation?? wake the fuck up?? /TUYU?? ITS MINEE. no i gen canf breathe what the fuc. lets all say thank you melo, ok? i hope she gets evrry kanade url out there. no bcat first she wanted /kamioshi but i couldnt do it for obvious reasons so she asked for /shikoku and i was like?? FCKING TAKE IT. im ngl im lowk a poser but i have been putting an effort to listen to tuyu more ~ to the lurkers: no, it'll prolly never be uft..i put it in my display case, now i should think what to do w it. ive been getting lots of urls recentlyy
um.. lowk wanna #retheme to a love angel syndrome theme.. yeah throw tomatoes at me. 4TH OR 5TH REMAKE
my life? whyre ppl suddenly so. anti immigrant when its my time to become an adult.. #malaysia wait for me i gen dk what to do its like a life purpose atp. i wan malaysia
we are people right. are we all peiple until youre suddently disgusted. okay i take back what i said about TBYS click. when peoplecall black people blacks i immediately know theyre racist dont even. BAH. idk. #LetYuSanLive
Yu ~
no #1 cutie
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25ji & joost & candyes yrup & indochine & kurai sekai & music
oop ignore me trying to be aesthetic im still not over getting /tuyu.. ive had my eye on it formmonths. not a wl url but lowk a 'would be nice to have'..
ALL AND I MEAN ALLLL rindou dreamgirls suck except marcy shes my goat i fw her and she fw me. like. rei a couple of weeks ago i was saying me and her and miya bonten trio but she lowk pmo and she already associates kazutora w someone else so.
i miss kokoo
10/2/25
my classmates are amazing people but i hate them, theyre so smart too but i esp hate H. okau
I might get /kazutora today! marius dmed me himself and said he's interested in what i have.. gulps. i wont tell any details until it actually happens ~
I GOT IT?? AND?? FOR NOTHING?? Marius gen told me he has no use for it and im the biggest kazutora fan he knows.. i was sweaty in englsh periodand not doing my work HOLY SHIT
hey chat? i was lowk in my feelings today todya we were only 5 inc lass and i realized holy shit im a fucking loser. i lowk like being put in boxes? like. what am i. i like labels. please label me i cnat live w out them
i was such a girlblogger 2000 heroin chick tumblr girl last year.. i miss
10/3/25
whats up w ex friends and reaching out to me. first it was koda (irs ok i lobe her) now its?? yara?? i dont even know what to say bruh i hate tht faggot get out of my dms. she was straight up acting nonchalant and saying "um.. it effected me too.. ok? i gen wanted to tell her to js die bc she was talkign to me as if we were friends and shit so i js sent that one "address me" pic w the elephant. also: for the nosy ass niggas and my future self: 1 2. "im litr sawako & madoka " you cant all be madoka and sawako can you js DIEIEI
i gen loved that girl at some point at my life it wasnt even romantic the thought of her made me sick becuase. i enevr had any friends until i was in 7th grade and she showed up in my life. "cold water feels hot when ur hands are freezing" or whatever but i confided in her w so many stuff and the way our friendship ended too. maybe im not built for long term friendships bc my mental health keeps fluctuating and my views on ppl change constantly and and and. #WHATEVER.
i hate people. tbf, i feel nowhere near as bad when i left the fagwhores. its been 4 months youre kinda too late. i js wanna cut myself to let some steam out
tapped into this yuri ohh lawdd
omg forgot to tell but i revamped: /sasha logs /lostgirls tos i added a bunch of hit to /xiaohongshu
i also got an offer on /tuyu but turned it down. yeah
THIS IS MY AKAHI OF THIS MANGA H Y MGO.i love this genre of characters like?? aaAaa oh ymgod pls. i was here thinking 💭💭 why was indou kidnapped by a random ass russian lady and then BOOM we get a kagami flashback thatimplies she has sth to do w Natalya..
"friend" yes natalya.. hmm.. thats what the historians always say
ok so far the mangas pretty chill. quick paced and i love that otheriwse i wouldnt be able to read it because. yep idk its 10 pm and ive been awake for 12 hours zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
10/4/25
KAUZYUUU. i love this manga so far.. its like nsfw + taboo.. heh.. misa you are so me, Io youre so femmetora
AAA MISAAA I LOBE U OH YMGOD. AAA i js finished the availabe chapters i HATE when im invested but it its still ongoing and stuff.. i feel like i generally have a preference for finished works but it alright, i think i can try to keep up with it (zenkowa as well). ok so food for thought 💭 🍰 it seemes gen good written and i dont feel like the author has written it for the sake of writing yuri. thats a fellow himejo right THERE. i love FLOWERCHILD im gonna read her entire catalogue today. im lowk alao projecting misa and io into femmekazuYu becuase. it just works?? i jumped multiple times while reading and i feel gen feelings #OK. i want them to be happy..
domestic yuri? 👀 NO BUT CHAT?? this is an erotic manga and its still wholesoem waht h erukc
i j started a new yuri webtoon called "A collar js for u" and like. i was thrown off by the template i almost dropped it but #wtv im too chapters deep in this bitch
I cant find the chapters anywhere.. it goes from 12 to 60 in some websites. dpmo. seems like i might have to drop ti anyway~
. what noww. i need more yuri, toxic yuri or whatevr
news news!! i picked up "My gf is not here today".. bc the theme of /fuuko is um. #fuuko. i realized i should lock in
THEYRE SO CUTEEE og mogd bruh dont make me feel thsi way im also a school girl but this could never happent o me i should die like RIGHT NOW. also secret relationships uck i get my asahina is upset
how are you both CHOPPED and a RETARD pick a struggle nanase oh ymgod. fuuko is wayyy better for asahina i lobe them
this chapter did sth to m
bruh so ur teling me nanase knows abt the cheating + confronted yuni and?? YUNI CHOOSE HER VOER FUUKO??OKua. i hoe u guys break up
AAA I FOUND A COLLAR ONLY FOR YOU. THANK YOU REDDIT
im getting rice shower vibes..
BAH i have a thing for black hair.. no bc im conencting the dots lowk. the girl who showed up bruised and shit. op met rice shower girl adns esh the schl nurse.. she also said her cat ranaway.. #MAYBE
im so confused oh my god. i js read the best-wrst thing of my fucking life?? i feel a terrible sense of nostalgia reading this. i never read it before but its so poorly written but written w such good intention i just go in awe. it looks like sth i'd write in 7th grade. okay get ready for the yapping session + screenshots of manga panels.
my three moods reading "A collar only for you"
!cant rlly explain the whole plot its too long. FUCKING 60 CHAPTERS THAT I READ IN PNE DAY. idk the chapters were too short either way it shouldnt have been that long. there wasnt rlly a plot for the most part its js them doing random shit. i lowk kept reading js for rio & hot neighbor bc theyre so kyute.. also?? the age gap is 16 & 30. look i dont give a fuck i js wanna read taboo stuff and feel the impact but?? no maturity gap or abuse whatso ever and that was a huge turn off this is yuri slop. writing yuri for the sake of writing yuri. no but it was so good as well? i rememebr it being bad, thats my review, like i wouldnt acitvely recommend it bc im conscious abt how bad it is. but to me, its kinda peak fiction it feels so?? raw?? like, aw. no but i was complaining to miya abt the lack of abuse then?? suddenly its revealed that rio has an older lady on the side that has been abusing her since middle school so i locked in. I'd also like to address the wasted potential?? do you remembr earlier when i said "omg nurse chan said she lost a cat" i was high key ONTO something the writer didnt catch the drift.. we couldve had an evil character but?? theres gen not a single evil person here they all change w the power of friendship UGH. we all now lolita syndrome is not socially acceptable, at least show them struggling w it?? like?? WHYS EVERYONE CHEERING THEM ON.
MY FAVORITE PANELS IN A POSTIMG GALLERY: click me! i hope u enjoy it too~ please check it out, it has catgirl rio
10/5/25
tried convincing my dad to let me stay home but he wasnt having it.. i wonder how many ppl r calling themselves a himejo w out reading any actual lesbian media. like?? sorry the big corp is not making ur two girls kiss how about. checking actual yuri out? yeah?
i read 3 yuris yesterday:
a face you should show (28 chapters)
my gf isnt here today (29?)
a collar only for u (60 chapters)
you can argue that im unemployed and a loser and and and. but?? the point is that i still give time to yuri bc i actually care oh m god. i started reading yuri in 2022 (green yuri & a manhwa abt a nerd w glasses nd black hair and another one with white hair and golden eyes) then i had a cool down period for like. 3 years im back and the grind is HARD. #See? this is dedication. kitakawa and zenkowa were gen life changing tho i made life changing decision after reading them.
phew. today it was only me and L at school. we had #fun. okau, i also read Inside Mari. i?? love it?? im also so confused. shuzo oshimi what the fuck. actual DID representation in manga!! + yuri, it was two birds one stone. honestly, i dont wanna bore you, so ill make a rentry specifically for feedback + thoughts.
10/9/25
I WAS IN THE FUCKING TRENCHES OH YMGOD. hi. my name is yu and ive been failed by all the men in my life. ill elaborate later btu im at chool rn.
YOU WANT MY NACHOS SO BAD OH YM GOD. #miya and touma are so fucking right ho ymg o im the. og himejo
okay. im still at chool but no ones looking at me so. h my god that bio teacher who hates me ok? he emailed my dad and dad did what dads do. i honestly cant classify him. hes weirdly progressive but weirdly sexist too. look, i believe that EVERYBODY (yes, everybody) is a bit sexist, racist, homophobic, misogynic, misandrist-ic, whatever. no one is perfect, but what separates you from the rest are those are who re public about it. my dad is pretty insistent on my gettin an education as a woman, sure i love that. but?? its not tuff to lay your hands on a woman, im tired of ppl being like "Um.. this is what feminists want, right?? equality" no dick head. men are inherently stronger than women and ?? oh my god its been 3 days and my arms are still red what the fuck. he tried talking to me like usual but i wasnt having it. dont test me vro. i feel so sick and tired of men and people in general i hate everybody. i hope that when u look at me you dont see a woman, im a human too ok? fuck you
check my cool music playlist i made inspired by my Jeanne D'arc poster. here i swear i wouldve harmed myself even worse if it wasnt for Jeanne and Kazutora i cant do this (i used scissors). this is what is left for me when im abandoned by god and everybody i know. you get someone like me. before i forget i?? gave my dad a 6 page long thingy abt mental health and he deadass said ur hand writing is bad & not reading?? you disgust me
oh and i also forged my grade paper #LOL i dont want him to hit me again i think ill die if he did so
i hate religion. i hate god. i hate not being able to box myself intro categories. what am i? i spend my days with an impeding sense of doom with melancholia. i should jut die oh ym god it never get better
⇡ no matter what i say this is deadass me in the flesh ok. this is how i feel and look like everyday. you dont know oppression unless youve lived under muslim rule I HATE THIS. ok its wrong of me to say this but. you get all the bad sides of religion w out the good ones because?? youre not religious
i feel weird today i think my entry reflects that. i get the urge to read bad books (coho + all american muslim girl) when im under stress because my attention is drected towards making fun of it instead of reading it for fun. i physically cant pick up dostoyvsky or camus. L made me read Babel by RF kuang, its good so far
"The person we once loved is no longer ours. That person we once loved so deeply has now become the most familiar stranger in this world. Everything that once was — so beautiful, so romantic — Why is it that good things never last? Even now, it's hard to forget, because that feeling was just too perfect... Wishing all my friends well, and also wishing those we once loved — may everything be good for them too."
i dont want to be alone
YES i want to do drugs in the jirai kei twt way thank you for noticing
might get /kurunaoi today. if it happens wouldnt need /zenkowa anymore sourru asiya
??? i need &
i showed my dad my report crd that i forged with L and?? he gave me a head pat and i wanted to cry im a fake ass feminist i lvoe that man but i HATE him oh ymfod. i hatebeing at the mercy of someone, i hate knowing he can ruin my life if he wanted to
💭 i should revamp soon i think.. been in a diff mental state
today has been so good to me~ i got marcy's discrd, got my laptop back, BARRY TUBE UPLOADED, finally got my dad off my dih by showing him a forged report card, im close to finishing Babel. #NEVERKILLYOURSELF
كاسي تتنافس مع فرعزن في المعاصي is crazy work oh ym god
10/10/25
i have mid terms next week but who cares!! hmm ill lock in n my japanese soon im alr on #jp twt and i ar have some friend theree~ BAH tbf when i grow up i. either want to live in japan or malaysia.. i fear im never leaving asia vro the world is too scary outside
i think itd be funny to talk to kazutora and. just spouting japanese #LOL
ok ill probably start son i rly need to study sorry
japanese politics really confuse me omg. i dont wanna delve into the extremist stuff there because the average person anywhere is probably not an extremist its js minorities being loud and it makes u feel like its the whole thing thats like #THAT
kazutora layout i missed my bf
can you get a hyperfixation on?? someones oc?? BAEKHAP I LOVE YOU. #volkzaya are so. kazuyu ok call me a slur but idc i lobe butchtora and and and. hear me otu sit DOWN:
volk & tora:
similar personalities
same eye color
black hair
apex predator animals (tiger & wolf)
butch lesbiananans
aha
i lobe them.. im so glad im in baekhaps archive acc its priv now and ia she does have a new one but.
my name is yu and butch lesbians with wolfcuts this is my whole personality now.. ok? OK!
im shivering i have a dentist appointment that my dad didnt tell me about until now?? im quite certain he read the letter by now and i think he wants to talk about it fuck my baka life
10/11/25
oh my god. my friends now know me as butchlover999. dont even joke with mee. i actually love women like so much and i dread that part of me that finds men attractive. can she die.
i forgot to say but. i cried like twice in the car when my dad wasnt looking i have so much hatred for that man. he kept talking to me abotut school but my replies were so short to everythign he said i tihknk HE gave up #TIRED #SICK sigh im still pretty much bisexual but with extreme pref for women, im not gonna try to loosen the word lesbian js to fit into the definiton.
i have a bio test tmr i dont wanna studyyy
i feel very cutiful today~ spreading #love
im like. top 10 sweetest people oat if you hate m its your fault!!
aaa i tried posting a thingy on. jp menhera twt but shied ou tof it. i asked miya for a way to make my pic look better but she started thirsting #ugh.
you can call me stupid and mean and and and but you CAN'T call me chopped
i still think about riyan showing my face to kiarsh and her just calling me chopped over that #LOL okau
lowk as long as #SHE is around, ill be fine 🪽
can i yap about kazutora fora s econd. i qant to be a bit clear abotu her gender identity~
i love all versions! male and female.. male kazutora is gyaruo and/or jirai danshi
fem kazutora? theres butch and theres femme. femmetora is jirai i wont hear anything else on that. butchtora? Aquhausbaai shes her own thing.. well she wears japanese streetwear, rokku gyaru.. ok her gender identity as fem is peretty complicated. (i want to clarify that yuri will ALWAYS harbor more feelings than your regular st8 relationship because yuri involves girlhood, something a man can never understand
) yep yep. okay, another thing, the whole tr verse is fem too. im not a retard. femmetora prolly has a lot of mental health issues, a hikikomori if i can say so myself.. and yes #KITAKWA. if youve ever read kitakawa, youd know. i have world building, i think ill put that on another url~ not this one, its too long. but. airi = tora hinako = yu. ok? #YEAH. shes always flat chested to me, whether its from an ed or whatnot, and shes pretty short (5'2? is that short? im almost 170 vro i call everybody a midget
)
BUTCHTORA? SIT DOWNN honestly, ive loved the diea of her as a butch for a looong while~ so far i only really explored femmetora that deeply. but yes. i admit some of her traits are inspired from #VOLK (yes.. baekhap makes another appearence)
top surgery scars? totally. i want to clarify that #NO shes not trans she js doesnt like boobs (on her..)
shes also tall, taller than me i want a height difference. i switch on them depending on my mood~
i MIGHT be the best gf oat im so full of for my girlboything i know youre reading this stop stealing my nachos
ill go study.
10/12/25
hi idid not in fact study sorry for the clickbait..
butchtumblr was soo.. aAaaa yes sorry. i did osme more research & m pretty glad the word femme isnt for lesbians only
kazuyu butchfemme
thispicture vro yesyesyes moodboard kinda.ilobe
waiter waiter! gibe me some femme kazuyu
10/13/25
EVERYBODY STOP BREATHING NOW
got 2 urls i rlly like (wl) /bosozoku + /femme4butch.. tjis butchfemem shit getting serious
anyhow, it wasnt on /sucre bc i didnt want anyone to fuck me over, theyre reclaimable urls ++ nono kitakawa is very obviously not butchfemme.. i thinktheyre m anf my gf because. theyre the femme4femme ver ok? yep yep
i just wrote some BULLSHITT nad showed it to miya anf fedya.. theju lobe toxic yuri where one hits the other in a fit of rage then. apologizes and is guilty. ok bye i haev school like rn
Babel was so good i thonk i should jsut kill myself. OH MY VICTOIRE AND ROBIN ENOGUH. oh ymofd i canf cry in class.
lowk gonna start going by victoire as well..i love victoire desgraves. babel fucked me over so bad i cant do this r f kuang i WILL get your ass. no but?? wha thte fuck i watched robin get everything then lose it. ramy letty victoire. bruhh
i kept reading griffin as griffith. kill eme
i like black characters who are lowk pacifists, my people are finally nto shown as. just violent (onyankopon, anthony, victoire (?)) theyre js so. charming
hmm i need to read more french literature && learn french. i wanna do a lot w my life.. tbf im not that concerned with academics i want to open a book cafe that servers tiramisu && parfaits somewhere quiet with regular customers who. read a lot. thats ideal for mee~ ill prolly go to college to get my dad to leave me alone
my passion for reading is coming back.. "shit i need new books. i need to invest in a kindl" said victoire for the. bajillionth time. no but the name victoire sounds sooo
did you know that it means victory? fuck my old school used to teach french and ive studied it for 8 years but it was done so badly i gen dont rememebr much. like. i udnerstand french & can read it, but i cant speak it iykwim
FUCK MY LIFE i need to catch up on the mgrp mangai feel like such a poser illl scroll pinterest. Victoire out! ok i lied. Mephis Pheles is such a nyashka hold up? i should assign my friends mgrp characters im so smart what the hell
10/16/25
Oh. Mu God?? I'm using NY sisters iPad vc my laptop got tkan away fuck you man.. Yeah whatever I'm pretty isolated. I can try to regain some sort of real life composure thru. This iPad. My sis is 6 so I can js take it. Yeah? #yeah. Hmm I'll do lots of shit my parents aren't home and I'll log in into my stuff.. Just wait. I didn't abandon rentry & if I disappear fr I'll give miyayan my ecs so I'll never lose them. No but. I came so close to calling the police on mu dad but L stopped me. Sighh
Will prolly use this iPad sun~thu at school k bye
10/19/25
Oh my god I'm at school hi. Okay soo I have a BS test today but wtv didn't study that much. I researched public schools and they look fun it doesn't look that bad. Also yesterday I realised that. It's a choice to take the easy way out and label someone self centered VS taking the high way lol
Anyway kazuyu double session was like so good. Do you like apple pies? The color of my skin mixed zith the crimson red,it looked like that. I love 🎼💕
Ifeeldo lonely
10/21/25
And if you 5 seconds to spare
Then I'll tell you the story of mylife
Smth smth
I want to London and died
Bah 3 more years and I'll e free. Im actually pretty good at saving money, I'll js focus on that + reading
Oh my god I eel oashamedi don't wanna talk about it but. I know hats up
Ttytmr
things I want done by my bday:
- know jp enough to read manga
- kazutora plushies!!!
- commission artists
- have my own rentry resource thingy
- take to M about school + get a schedule
- reward system thingy
- mp3 player
- new headphones
- nso merch
- get a wardrobe m satisfied with
-more to be added-