dont forget im human ,
im not alive for ur amusement
poem˚
lovemail˚ tape˚
explicit themes | nsfw toxic tw | lovesickness
+ extreme religious ideations
needi's lovemail
+ other letters
01 . 13 . 24
when words fall on deaf ears,
i'll write them down for you to see
my love is consuming, suffocating,
and somehow, i want to smother you
isnt this love ?
01 . 13 . 24
i want to play with your hair
and soothe your skin with
light touches and soft kisses,
to hold your hands and trace your
fingers with my own,
i have so much love to give,
i could fill an endless void
full of my love for you
until there isnt an inch of space
to be left unloved
01 . 14 . 24
carved out as a
product of your environment,
labeled faulty by people who
never really cared to look deeper,
boxed and tucked away to catch dust
and stay hidden from consumption.
but even in your closet,
you still shine through the gaps
of your wooden door.
it’s that same light that
makes me want to open you up,
to let you out,
take off all your labels
and display you just as you are,
just as you came.
to unwrap and adore the beautiful person
i’ve now found in my hands,
the same hands that reach out to hold yours,
to soothe your burns and bruises,
to show you the care you should’ve
been treated with then,
the care you should be
treated with now.
the past can’t be changed, but the future can.
the past can’t be changed, but it neither defines or makes you indefinitely.
the past can’t be changed, even if that’s what you deserve.
i hope the future
gives you endless hope for a life
you deserve to live,
to feel whole, to feel complete,
to be loved and to love others,
yourself, an interest,
or even the box that you came in.
love comes in many
shapes and sizes, different colors,
maybe even a different sound,
touch, smell, or taste.
for me,
my love came
in the shape of you.
01 . 15 . 24
i need someone above me
the same way
you need someone below you
aren’t we perfect together?
01 . 16 . 24
being lonely is consuming,
being around each other is too,
it’s an addiction, a safe space,
or it’s rotting, and eating away at us,
at you, at me, at everything
around us —— it’s hard to explain
without some form of poetics…
°
i cant stop worshiping you,
too much love, or too little,
i try my best to keep you
from running too far,
or sinking too deep, but i know im
already sinking with you from the
weight of my heart.
i try to remind you of all the ways
you are and should be loved,
even if it doesn’t matter to you ..
narcissistic, addict, loser, my god
all things that would never
change my view of you
°
i’ve always seen you above, admired you,
but still i took you down with me
i want to make you feel loved,
to fill in the gaps, i want to be your sanctuary,
i become so entwined with you
my worship is intense,
can i show my devotion without
crossing a line..?
01 . 18 . 24
i’ll always be the
temptation that leads you to sin.
despite promises of redemption,
and forgiveness, it’s me who brings out
the worst, the best, and all of you whole,
though i only want to be good for you
can i still be your angel ?
01 . 19 . 24
i hope you know
just how much i love you
and if not, i'll show you
in every way i can
01 . 21 . 24
i hope when you we die,
your soul twists into mine
so you'll we'll be mine ours forever
01 . 22 . 24
i wonder who you respond to first,
if they stay up all night the way i do,
and if you’re still calling them
instead of me
if you text me while you text them
who’s getting the most of your effort?
i won’t ask directly, but i’m curious
i know the answer but maybe i don’t
not that it changes anything
i’m still happy to talk to you
lovely, but you know i’m greedy.
01 . 25 . 24
thank you for saving me
even though i’m not worth
all the trouble at all.
id thank you more but i
cant see through my own tears.
i still feel disgusting,
if i cant stop,
i dont know what ill do.
if i die, bury me with you,
please?
01 . 27 . 24
do whatever you want,
just please dont hate me.
please? please?
02 . 05 . 24
you make me so happy <3
i don’t think you understand how
happy you make me, how in love i am,
how easy you can make my brain blank
n how badly i want to be yours,
nothing will ever come before you in my eyes,
know i’ll always be watching over you <3
you’re forever my number one n i mean that.
( feelin sappy hehe )
03 . 15 . 24
in the process of decay, energy is released.
not created, nor destroyed.
to come from seemingly nothing,
it's infinite, as are we.
and with our decaying hearts,
our love will be reborn.
01 . 15 . 25
it's been a while since i wrote
i missed this , i missed you
one year later ,
and were officially together
all my effort , all of yours ,
it was worth everything
i love you so much , cole ♡
01 . 29 . 25
youre so gentle with me,
every word feels like a caress.
every sound you make
is like a warm hug.
every picture is like a kiss,
like the kisses i leave on my screen.
youre so sweet that it aches my teeth,
crooked and yellow, yet well loved.
like the letters you write to me,
like the candy i roll on my tongue.
i swallow your mumbles
to fill up on your love.
your charm is captivating,
im suffocating in your aura,
yet i breathe it in like the smoke we share.
i burn your words into my mind,
like im ashing a cigarette,
leaving marks of a permanent love,
of a permanent reminder.
( did i ever tell you i love you ? )
confessional
" hey angel "
♡
lost in ur delusion ,
u dont know who i am